posted May 11, 2022 05:21 AM            

My partner is walking with me in a very dark night. He is leading me to a hospital and never spoke with me about why. The hospital building was huge, like a gigantic skyscraper. But he does not walk with me through the usual building, instead goes underground.

Underground, the hallway would take you just as far as the top of the building could, but in the ground. Barely any lights, there were no windows, it was not a pleasant atmosphere but I walked close with him. We were in the basement. Suddenly, we enter a hospital area from this underground place and everything seemed normal.

Until I see that all of the patients are dead.

There were no alive people besides the nurses and doctors. There were rooms filles with dead patients on beds and nurses and doctors walking around them.

Me and my partner do not work in the health sector iRL, but for some reason he wanted to dress and pretend that he is part of the hospital with me. We go in a special room and change our clothes. He then goes on to move some dead people on tables down the hallway, I still did not understand why - how- where. I just looked at him walking around with dead patients. At a point I decided that I want to see where he is going with the dead bodies and I follow him. I follow him and at a point he stops on the hallways, looks around as if to check that nobody is watching him and then opens a door. He then proceeds to try to get the dead patient from the moving bed in his arms to then enter with the body in the room? I was asking him Why ?? but he still was unresponsive, as if I didnt exist. People start walking on the hallway and I see them coming and I freak out but think I have two options:

1. I do nothing to solve this since my partner is unresponsive anyway and we both get caught
2. I try to do something to solve this despite my partner is unresponsive so that at least I am respectable and fair

So in my head I pick option 2 and I start screaming - "what are you doing?!...., come look he is dragging the body in this room for some reason, why are you doing this, what are you DOING?!". Still no reaction from him but I got a reaction from the people that came running to us. I show them my unresponsive guy, he sees the people and drops the body, raises his hands as if he is caught by police. I say nothing.

More doctors and nurses start to show up because they heard the noise coming from me and all gather around the situation. I still didnt understand why this happened, what is he doing, where is he putting the bodies etc. The others start applauding me, like I am a national hero, they start taking pictures of me, flashing lights ... I stand there soooo confused. I look at my partner and he is still so unresponsive about everything?!

posted May 12, 2022 08:22 AM            

It's crazy because I believe I received the interpretation yesterday, the day right after I dreamt this so I can also share what has most probably caused the dream.

I do not believe it was my partner - I believe it was a loving masculine energy that was showing me a scene from my subconscious, from my basement. Like a guide. I assumed it was my partner due to the energy - but I never saw his face, it was just a loving guiding but unresponsive person. You know how it is when you watch an instructional video and it will not react to you even if you have questions?

What happened yesterday and what made me realize that the dream was about my subconscious and about me needing to take action about a situation,:

Background: my dad is toxic and has hurt me with expectations and hurtful comments all my life, he never cared about me truthfully. He only cares if I win awards, if I do what he considers is appropiate, if I live my life the way he wants me to do it.

The thing is that I stood my ground in front of him with all his hurtful comments for years - about my studies, about my career, about my boyfriend, about my life, about my appearance, about my hobbies. Everything which is part of my individuality - he rejected it and hurt it continously.

Now, I am 22 now and in a moment where I realized - why am I living in constant pressure and bad comments from him? I never did him anything bad. He doesnt really care about me anyway. My sister was smarter to block him and run in another country, literally, because he was shattering her the same way.

In the last months I've been haunted by all of his remarks from the past, all his comments. Last month I went in a small trip to a city - I sent him pictures and he replied back with "Oh, I understand now why you care all about money and not about family". He ruined my mood, that comment was out of place, I still did nothing. Why? Because if he didnt understand from my sister, how will he from me. But I wished I could tell him.

After I had the dream, I celebrated my moms birthday. Dad called her - he never calls her, to "wish her happy birthday" - but in reality he called her to comment about me, about my boyfriend and about her - "are you even involved in ilunatique's life?, you know she goes on holidays, she tells you?" etc. This was the last drop in my glass.

So yesterday I cried a lot and decided to take action although it will probably be in vain, I will send him a long message... and I will send it on Children's day next month. Telling him how all his remarks are bad, how he never cared about me but only in which way I can be like him and how he wants to, and that I am done.

What is he unresponsive about in real life? It seems like you're empowered to do something about it, but at the same time you don't feel like the heroine some others are making you feel you are.

Exactly, I felt empowered to do something about my dad hurting me, but in the same time he understood nothing from my sister telling him before, so it could be in vain. So my interpretation in short is -

A guide showed me my subconscious - it is filled with dad's negative remarks, dead bodies. There were so many that hospital salons were filled with dead bodies - and my guide had to dump them somewhere else. I could see that many corpses would get dumped somewhere else - maybe closer to my conscious lol? I knew it wasnt right but here comes exactly the two thoughts:

1. I do nothing to solve this since my partner is unresponsive anyway and we both get caught - I do not tell my dad anything and it is not alright for my subconscious.
2. I try to do something to solve this despite my partner is unresponsive so that at least I am respectable and fair - I do sth about this and I tell that something is not right, even if I will not get a reaction from the person causing the negative dumping/dad.

I did something about this and my subconscious applauded me - probably no more bad dumping will continue

Can you tell what is it that died in your life?

posted May 13, 2022 08:51 AM            

Now with mercury retrograde, Jupiter enters aries, Uranus, Sun and NN being exactly around my 4th house, I believe its time to liberate myself from this man that only destroyed my family and tried to kill my dreams, individuality and is unaware of this - "carrying the dead patients to dumping and unresponsive about what is happening, even about being caught"

This post can be helpful as a study case/example of interpreting dreams, although this one is very straightforward to me..

"What matters may be that this is a step you're doing to not tolerate his act anymore." - yes, even if he is oblivious to anything outside of his personal view, like the unresponsive person from the dream.

posted May 13, 2022 07:09 PM            

One more thing - your dad must be a miserable person to act this way. Understanding this and seeing the misery, bitterness and dissatisfaction he feels with himself and which he projects unto you can also help improve the situation, even if only with the way you feel, as a beginning. I do not mean you should tolerate any such abuse, maybe just knowing in your heart how much he must hate himself deep within is enough for an inner working to take place.