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Topic: Soulcat's Edict
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Bendis Knowflake Posts: 61 From: Baton Rouge, LA, 70802 Registered: Mar 2003
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posted May 23, 2003 10:22 AM
A journal entry where I just opened up and let it flow...came to be the affirmation of my spiritual journey...*** Journal Entry 8th February 2000 Tuesday, 4:24 P.M. It’s been awhile, hasn’t it, old friend? My confidante – my journal, my pen, my mind. A melancholy has come over me. A quiet sadness I cannot shake. The pages of this journal are filled with the tears, loss, anger, and pain that has brought me to this present state; state of consciousness, state of mind, state of life. I feel alone in a crowded room – faced with the reality of the truth I’ve come to understand – that is only ourselves. The connection that I seek from another can be found only in myself and with myself. There is no one to please, no one to live up to or for except myself. It as freeing a realization as it is an isolating one. The world is made up of people living for and to everyone else – everyone but themselves. They take care of, do for, put up with, take from, give to everyone around them in the name of “love”. Yet, not a one of them does anything for themselves. Not a one of them truly love themselves and, therefore, can never truly love another. To love oneself is to know oneself and people are afraid to really know themselves. So they take on other’s identities, likes, dislikes, opinions, views, styles, and lifestyles. They never make their own mind up about anything because they don’t know their own minds. That comes with a responsibility they aren’t willing to take on. So they gobble up the lives of others; our much sought-after celebrities, religions, groups, and cliques. It is so much easier to live through others and take own their truths than to make your own life and mind up. And they follow these beliefs and ideals of others with such passion and fervor as to be blind to all other thoughts, possibilities, or ideas. Such is the current state of our living-dead world. Zombies; cattle. The masses following the masses. The blind leading the blind. All of them oblivious to the truth behind the Matrix. Yet, I am awake! I am me – proud – conforming to nothing and with an open mind! Knowing there is a little truth in everything instead of One Big Truth, accepting the impossible as possible, gaining wisdom from every moment. To know the Truth is to know there is no Truth – no right or wrong – there just is. To know it all is to know you don’t and never will. I search with an unquenchable thirst – learning all the way! I am an explorer, a journeyman, a traveler of the deeper, esoteric world. The unseen, the unknown, the mystery – this is what drives me; propels me forward on new journeys as dark corners of my mind are lit with the evergrowing bright light of my enlightened soul. Such is my wonderous, joyous, and lonely journey. I feel isolated – shunned from the world in which I live. I am one who “rocks the boat” of their constricted, one-sided, and often hypocritical lives. I do not sleepwalk through life as they do. I live out loud! And my din causes some to stir, and some to even wake up! They resent this – this burden of true freedom I represent to them. Wake up, world! There is so much more if you would only open your eyes, your ears, your heart and mind. Really see! Truly hear! Completely feel! Look and see what isn’t there, hear what isn’t heard, feel what isn’t felt! Something is there! Wake up! Open up! Experience life; don’t drift through it drugged with the preoccupations of the 3rd dimension. There is definitely more! I am nearly alone in my travels, however. Alone in a crowded room. “I’m never alone, I’m alone all the time…” (Bush). ------------------ The unseen, the unknown, the mystery - this is what drives me; propels me forward on new journeys as dark corners of my mind are lit with the evergrowing bright light of my enlightened soul. - me IP: Logged |
1scorp Knowflake Posts: 1235 From: Registered: Feb 2003
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posted May 23, 2003 11:03 AM
Once I read your quote and you mentioned your writings to me... I was wondering if you were going to post any! And lookie here I enjoyed it. Very creative, yet makes perfect sense. IP: Logged |
Bendis Knowflake Posts: 61 From: Baton Rouge, LA, 70802 Registered: Mar 2003
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posted May 23, 2003 11:17 AM
Thank you very much - and a compliment coming from a fellow Scorp is always a great pleasure! IP: Logged |
juniperb Moderator Posts: 3936 From: www.Heaven.Home Registered: Mar 2002
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posted May 23, 2003 12:27 PM
Bendis, how much Aquarian ya got in you? It captured my Aqua. rollercoaster of emotions . Wake up! Open up! Experience life; don’t drift through it drugged with the preoccupations of the 3rd dimension. There is definitely more juniperb IP: Logged |
Bendis Knowflake Posts: 61 From: Baton Rouge, LA, 70802 Registered: Mar 2003
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posted May 23, 2003 01:12 PM
Juniperb - Not a drop! But I truly believe that any of us on a path to enlightenment in this AQUARIAN AGE would mirror that sentiment.------------------ The unseen, the unknown, the mystery - this is what drives me; propels me forward on new journeys as dark corners of my mind are lit with the evergrowing bright light of my enlightened soul. - me IP: Logged |
juniperb Moderator Posts: 3936 From: www.Heaven.Home Registered: Mar 2002
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posted May 24, 2003 08:09 AM
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dafremen Knowflake Posts: 538 From: Registered: Nov 2002
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posted May 24, 2003 12:13 PM
So..are you prepared then, for the turning away? Have you set your sights on the Great Earth Changes? They will come like a lightning bolt from the East, with a rampant, soul-wrenching pain and the cries of a million lost to the destruction that marks the time. Are you ready? Have you packed your things for the journey? Be on the path when the time comes, for those that stray shall perish or follow. Those who know the way shall lead their brothers and sisters back to humanity. Once more I'll ask: Are you prepared for the turning away?IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 16464 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Nov 2000
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posted May 26, 2003 01:48 AM
------------------ "Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark IP: Logged |
Mazz Knowflake Posts: 284 From: angel land Registered: Jan 2003
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posted May 26, 2003 07:15 AM
Hello Bendis, I've really got to say hello and thanks for sharing that,I found it completely inspiring,it addresses the way I've been thinking lately.I've been feeling increasingly aware that I need to 'let go'of something.I feel hyper aware of how people try to control each other,the minute I feel like I'm being pulled into someone's control trip,I'm out of there,so I often cut people off and the result is that I have to turn and face my path,on my own. I found what you wrote so cleansing and inspiring,I had a look at your picture,well you're certainly confirming the description of Scorpio by giving the camera a hypnotic gaze(not that there's anything wrong with that)Pleased to meet you,I checked your profile to find out where you lived as I immediately felt familiar with you when I saw your picture,however I live in England,and I'm also not currently displaying my picture in the album,so I feel like I'm being a bit unfair by throwing that one at you when you cant see me,particularly as you're a Scorpio who likes to penetrate mysteries-I'm a Leo by the way. Anyway,I've gotta go now You've also really inspired me to start keeping some journals,thanks for tip-toeing round this site and leaving your pearls of wisdom IP: Logged |
Bendis Knowflake Posts: 61 From: Baton Rouge, LA, 70802 Registered: Mar 2003
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posted May 27, 2003 12:46 PM
dafremen - if you speak of the catastrophes Earth may come to, once more, of reliving the past (and destruction) of ancient Atlantis...yes, I am ready - it is why I am heremazz - thank you so much for the beautiful compliments..would love to talk more with you; please email me anytime ------------------ The unseen, the unknown, the mystery - this is what drives me; propels me forward on new journeys as dark corners of my mind are lit with the evergrowing bright light of my enlightened soul. - me IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 16464 From: Columbus, GA USA Registered: Nov 2000
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posted June 11, 2003 09:27 AM
To the top! ------------------ "Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark IP: Logged | |