|
Author
|
Topic: Repent
|
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1259
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
|
posted February 04, 2005 11:08 AM
 
I was at my friends house last night, I had no paper, but this had to come out, so I pulled out a punch of CD inserts and wrote all over them... --------------------------------------- I fill myself with everything worthless
Everything fake, all I hate
Because of the lack of you Your words fade in my ears
That could hear them a thousand miles away My body still feels you
No baptism
Or cleansing
Could get you out
Oh, how I've tried! That muffled cry
pounds in my heart
used to be my head
now I know Why could I not listen...
When you said this would happen
Why did I fight
try to swim upstream
when I can't breathe underwater I am looking at you now
Like you're standing behind me in a mirror
I try to touch you
but you are cold as glass
like I must have been to you I never meant
I wouldn't bend
for fear of breaking
again
All the glue that held me together...
..shatters when it's hardened And there I am
Wet and alone
Trying to piece myself together
Again You loved me
and I ran
Out of the desert
When the sand was where I belonged I realize my futile attempts
to go through this looking glass
are weak and small
And you
have crossed the threshold
Into peace
away from rambling butterflies I deserve this hole inside me
The tears running down my stone cheeks
That would have been warmed
with the touch of your breath My anger is my own
My tears are as good as saline to you now But my vision clears
My viel is lifted
and it's only me
I see
with a huge space on my right
where you should be
could be
If only repenting could take it all back Make the world shine again...
 Ghani
--------------------------------------- IP: Logged |
26taurus
Knowflake Posts: 9914
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
|
posted February 04, 2005 08:09 PM
You will find *him* again Ghani.    In some way, in some form...... IP: Logged |
future_uncertain
Knowflake Posts: 2177
From: ohio
Registered: Aug 2004
|
posted February 04, 2005 08:31 PM
This reminds me of the poem I wrote called "Demon," which is on this page, but I think it got buried before anyone caught it. I saw some of the same elements in your poem. It's a horrible feeling, isn't it? If your heart is currently breaking, I wish you a speedy healing.  IP: Logged |
whiterabbit
Knowflake Posts: 1133
From: a fixedly mutable point of view
Registered: Aug 2004
|
posted February 05, 2005 12:24 AM
hey Ghani, this poem really hit home. It makes me think of someone trying so hard to be their own person and be free. And in this quest they sometimes destroy things that actually were a part of who they are and things that made them good and happy. Well this is how I read your poem. I guess that's the beauty of art- we all see mirrors in it, don't we?IP: Logged |
future_uncertain
Knowflake Posts: 2177
From: ohio
Registered: Aug 2004
|
posted February 05, 2005 08:41 AM
 whiterabbit... I think you're right!IP: Logged |
sweetlibra
Knowflake Posts: 1155
From:
Registered: Oct 2004
|
posted February 05, 2005 09:06 AM
-----------------------
My body still feels you
No baptism
Or cleansing
Could get you out
Oh, how I've tried!
------------------------
IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1259
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
|
posted February 05, 2005 03:04 PM
26T,Time will tell... the waiting game is never fun for me (doggone Aries rising... always wants everything 'now, now now!!') , but it is my punishment.... whiterabbit, Yup. Yup. 'Xactly. Strange paradox, really... Ghani IP: Logged |
26taurus
Knowflake Posts: 9914
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
|
posted February 06, 2005 12:01 AM
I'm rootin' for you. As hard as it can be to do, know that all is as it should be.IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1259
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
|
posted February 06, 2005 01:05 AM
TY, darlin'. I tell myself that often.Hoping you're well tonight... Ghani IP: Logged |
26taurus
Knowflake Posts: 9914
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
|
posted February 06, 2005 01:20 AM
Yes, I have to remind myself of it often too.I am well actually. Quite odd, I've been feeling very good lately for no particular reason. It's nice!  I hoping the same for you. How are things in ghaniland? *edit* Well, as good as they can be I hope. IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1259
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
|
posted March 16, 2006 12:22 AM
And again... for meter's sakeIP: Logged |
sweetlibra
Knowflake Posts: 1155
From:
Registered: Oct 2004
|
posted March 17, 2006 01:32 AM
ghani, thanks for bumping..
I loved it IP: Logged |
Lindaland
UBBFriend: Email This Page to Someone! 
