posted May 30, 2005 07:43 PM         

All I ever wanted was to be wanted.
I was never the type to want to take care of you.
To want to be in love.
Yet here I am.
I was this girl who wanted to be in control of every aspect of her life.
I wanted to dictate just what happened when it happened.
What I never expected was for you to kiss me like that.
What I never expected was for you to tell me that you had never met anyone like me and that I was a "sight".
What I never expected was that you think I am beautiful.
And what I least expected...was that you wanted ME!
There are so many things I would like to say.
There have been so many times lately that you made me cry.
I know how in love with you I am now, and I know that even if you never say the words or feel the same way, I'll love you anyway.
But that doesnt' mean I don't want to hear you say it.
And until I'm sure and not so afraid of losing this most precious gift, I won't utter the words.
I'll just think them really loudly.
Sweety, you are my all.
You and your daughter are my everything.
Ya'll are my life, my hopes, my dreams, my soul.
And through the thick and thin, I'll make this promise: I will stick to it.
I'll be there.
I'll stay there, and good or bad, I'll never let go.
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Its been a long road for me. Its been a really hard road too, but I've found it and I'm know this is it. I've been too choosey, and careful about who I spent my time with to doubt that I've found a keeper in this guy. LOL...4 days and I'll see him again, I'll kiss his forehead and think what i feel really loudly..lol
xxx
Kt