posted June 22, 2006 05:52 PM         

the lies that were told

the souls pre cut mold

the truth concealed

then truth revealed

the suprise of it all

the willingness to fall

the pain of growing

and of not knowing

seeing things from a clear perspective

makes life seem less deceptive

but the hurt still lingers and my heart wavers

now that i know, there is no savior

the loss of innocence

losing my delinquince

remembering what used to be

what made up all that was me

the fragments of happiness tainted with ages happy reprieve

stripping the soul like it's been skinned over the trunk of a tree

the raw nakedness i feel and the hightened sensitivity

the by product, the result of losing my naievity

all the songs, all the poems, all the people live a lie

get a job, get married, have kids, then you die

possiblity is a fear inducing experience

something that coincides with the loss of control and attictivness

alone i don't stand, but what do i have if not that pain

you become reliant on it, and you live it over and over again

gimme something to love for gimme something to be

is what you think will cure the fear inside of thee

you search and search for that something externally

for years i looked for the holy grail, the one solution for everything, the quick fix

only now do i realise the ironic self sacrificing foolishness that this life is

i sit alone with only my thoughts to keep the engulfing darkness of lonliness away

protecting the small light that is my heart, the one light in my day

this feeling is such a unique and grounding feeling

once i've spread my wings and start flying, no longer will there be a ceiling

all i have to trust in now, is what i know and feel

everything else is just a joke to me, not real

no longer do i have to worry about the things that most find a stress

no longer do i have to live as if i can never rest

by my own rules and in my own style will i see my life through

posted July 03, 2006 10:59 AM         

Good poem. And a fundamental subject. Have I been both the traitor and the betrayed in different situations? I don't like betrayal, I don't want to betray anyone whom I consider worth my respect & love (am I putting it in a deadly wrong way?), and I certainly don't want to be betrayed...I fear being betrayed just about everyday, and as life is an ongoing process, even if right now I feel secure (for any special reason), I will never know if I will be betrayed AGAIN...until I find myself having been betrayed...again

posted July 03, 2006 11:05 AM         

D for Defiant..fear of betrayal..please to not feed negative energies..you make them happen that way..what you fear will be upon you..

everthing that happens in Life is part of learning and growing..til you find the you-of-you within

to OverSoul to God..
there is no Fear in knowing thyself and GOD..and walking in LOve and Light. .

all you will find is Truth and understanding and forgiveness for ALL. ...

posted July 04, 2006 12:44 AM         

I guess we could look at betrayal..as karma..
accept it and move on..or fix it..if possible..

here's to True LOve..twin souls re-united
to

posted July 04, 2006 09:25 AM         

and im glad that i am not alone in my sadness

posted July 06, 2006 10:15 AM         

Thank you for reminding me that there's no need to fear, and the importance to not fear...for negative energy such as fear, could only draw more of what I fear and consequently I would suffer more...

I not only fear being betrayed. I resent being betrayed. I know I should re-adjust my attitude...I'm beginning to try to cope...

Edit note: "re-adjust", not "adjust". Apologies for the grammatical mistake(s)

posted July 06, 2006 11:45 AM         

it's hard to understand..why such a thing as betrayal could happen..
but we have to understand karma..the universal laws..we get what we give..through each life incarnation..whatever we do..as a re-action..
betrayal is one of those things..I could tell you a story about my X..but why bother..
yes..he betrayed me..I actually forgave him..
he just never forgave himSelf, I guess..
one can either move on and heal..if this is the ONE..if not eventually you will move on..
you must follow you heart..and not have hold a fear in your heart for the Next One..for this could be the twin One..we must LOve with all our heart..all good intentions..free from negative promptings that we are surrounded by..and most of all listen to yourSelf..only you know..your higher Self will guide you. ...Believe it and soon you will see..you are in harmony with Earth and the Universe..Simply!
through LOve. ...

what is yours will come to you..patience and knowing is key..for we must be whole..not lost..so that we can be found. .