posted March 03, 2008 09:22 PM         

Is it pain?
Is it pleasure?
To hold on to the feeling that’s growing inside of me.
The whole world has changed

Every thing I look around, has a new meaning to it
The time I knew it, there is another soul growing inside of me
Every second and every minute I wait for it
For the time which would allow me to contribute to the future of the world

As little as it might be in the wholesome part of the world
My contribution to the world is as good as anything can be
Every action of mine, has lost to think of myself
Which I never believed that I would be able to do all my life

Every single moment I breathe, I take it a little more deep
So that it can serve the little one that’s growing inside of me
Every moment I feel the hunger, I take it a little deeper
So that I make sure that little one has enough of what it needs

Every single step, every single movement of mine
I tread with such a caution
That thinking of even a little uncomfort to the little one
Would shake my soul deep into the roots

A deep sense of feeling is filling inside of me
Is this why I was born
Is this what my purpose of life was?
How could I lose all my self in a moments notice?

I search for answers all the time
Only to come up with more questions each time
As the clocks ticks away making the day get nearer and nearer
I am filled with fear, which makes me dream the pain I need to go through?

As I get more and more nervous as the day approaches
Even the overwhelming feeling of fear, that transcends in me every single second
Couldn’t stop me from waiting for the time to come, to hold the little one in my hand
I am sure all the pain I go through, was there for a reason

It’s the way I have to build the future.
It’s the way I will contribute to the world
As little as it can be
It’s the only way the world can move on

If I stop doing it, if I stop experiencing death and regeneration at the same time
Wouldn’t the world would stop
If I stop accepting it, if I stop accepting the fact that I lost my own self in the process
Would the world have any purpose exist?

Even the great god was crucified only once
He was the only man, who accepted excruciating pain for a greater good
How many angels are there in the world who accept the pleasure of carrying another soul
How many times they willingly cross the line knowing that they may never cross it.

By NoSis

It’s the effort of those unsung mothers
That’s pushing the world to greater heights
It’s their efforts to forget their own self in the process
That’s pushing the world to believe justice and truth can exist.

In a way they are part of the mother earth
They are small little parts of her,
How much so ever we exploit her
She gives us a little bit more to have

How much so ever we feed on her blood
She gives us a little more with a little smile
How much so ever we refuse to accept our responsibility
She waits patiently for us to change

She balances every effort of ours to undermine her
Always thinking of builing a better future for us
She smiles even when we dig deep into her soul
Thinking that it would help us be better.

Who said god was up above all of us?
She is there right next to us,
Just open your eyes,
Even the gods some times forget who they are.

Wouldn’t that be our responsibility to remind them that
They don’t belong to world, but the world belongs to them
For what they were, for what they did and for what they will.

posted March 04, 2008 02:08 AM         

Thanks for creating it, strtnash.

"Love one another and you will be happy. It's as simple and as difficult as that." ~Michael Leunig

"Shall we compare our hearts to a garden -
with beautiful blooms, straggling weeds,
swooping birds and sunshine, rain -
and most importantly, seeds."
~Grey Livingston

"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own." ~Robert Heinlein

posted March 04, 2008 10:23 AM         

you have a beautiful heart. cast aside all doubts because you will, assuredly, find yourself living out your most brilliant dreams.

i finde myself powerless to express my gratitude for you and everyone here and what is yet to come.

posted March 04, 2008 01:14 PM         

NoSis, I guess you have started hearing a few questions which I have been asking myself for some time.

"Please don't ever let this wonder dwindle! You must feed it and let it grow! Keep up your writing for the sake of all of us, please!"

I thought I am never going to have the peace of mind to start writing again, that was why I was invisible for a while. So many things are going on in my life at the moment, its a bit overwhelming. But your art forced me do it. And thanks a bunch for having such a power, artist.

"cast aside all doubts because you will, assuredly, find yourself living out your most brilliant dreams"

Yes, I have a small little dream of my own, which I live, eat and breathe all the time. You have asked me to cast aside all my doubts, well when did you hear what I was asking myself all the time, which no one around me knows about.

I hope it happens, if it does it would certainly bring a meaning to my last breath.

posted March 04, 2008 11:57 PM         

I guess I just have good hearing.

Your dream, does it have anything to do with school, education, discipline or refining your skill as a poet? Because if it is, then I would like to talk to you about it if you wouldn't mind. Feel free to e-mail me.

I hope I haven't intruded upon your space. Sometimes what we see is more than what others expected they were showing and I hope it isn't making you too uncomfortable.

posted March 05, 2008 01:11 AM         

I sent this poem and your artwork to someone who dwells in my heart and I told her that my brother drew it. I guess i have answered your question on intrusion.

The dream, its still a long way to go. At least another 15 years away from now, and it has been building inside me for the past 8 years and I haven't spent a single week without thinking about it.

Only two people in my life know about it, one believes and the other does not.

It has been a relentless march for me till now.So much struggle, so much learning, but i am just pushing myself to go on. I planned it in three stages and I am a little happy to tell you that i succeeded in the first one and very close to the end of the second one.

Hence i am in a very crucial stage right now. Come December I would know where I stand and I guess that would be the time I would tell you what it is.

Sadly, even the one I love with all my heart was not even ready to buy it when I told her a very very small part of it. I am certainly not so foolish to think that "I" will do everything, it needs a core group of strong people who have high standards for values and ethics. People who believe that they cannot change the world but they can touch a few lives.

posted March 05, 2008 09:32 AM         

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