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Topic: My Blessing
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Brobian
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From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted May 31, 2014 12:12 PM
  
On a warm May day.
In a time since past.
My life forever changed.
So very very fast.I was blessed with a blessing.
A gift from up above.
From Angel's in the Heavens.
To me they gave a love. Please read with me one moment.
For that you may behold.
This story of a daughter.
It's a tale that needs told. Seventeen years ago it happened.
This life changing event.
A little girl came to see me.
This is how it went. A cry filled my ears.
I rushed right over to see.
Then stared down in amazement.
To what looked up at me. Now at this very moment.
A new life began to start.
Plus a Father, Daughter bond.
One which will never part. I reached down and grabbed her.
Then held her in my arms.
As I stared into her beauty,
I got lost in her charm. Her skin was that of silk.
The softest I've yet felt.
As I slowly caressed it.
My heart began to melt. Her face, bright like the sun.
Which ever shines on me.
Her eyes like that of Diamonds.
The most precious I'd yet to see. Her cheeks a red like roses.
The reddest of there kind.
A nose so smell and slender.
Yet with beauty so divine. I held her in my embrace.
Tightly into my shell.
I welcomed her to this earth.
Then promised to keep her well. Now this concludes my story.
I pray you all can see.
How deep this Fathers love goes.
Plus what my daughter means to me. Thank you all for reading.
This tale I needed to tell.
Behold everyone, my daughter.
For her name is Abigail.
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Pearlty
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From: Ohio
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posted May 31, 2014 02:02 PM
Such a heart warming dedication and sentiment.  I've tried on occasion to write poetry with my daughters in mind..it's difficult and I end up crying like a big baby- because they've touched my life so beautifully.  IP: Logged |
Brobian
Knowflake Posts: 251
From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted May 31, 2014 02:09 PM
I cry while writing all my poems and everything else. I don't even have to have lived it and I'll cry. I can completely make up a fictional tale and see it so keenly that I connect with it emotionally and I'll know exactly how much it would hurt. ------------------
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Pearlty
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From: Ohio
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posted May 31, 2014 02:32 PM
Well I think because you connect, others then connect with your thoughts, feelings, and words- which makes for a wonderful butterfly effect to transpire. I can detach a little-but I too cry when writing something that stirs those sensitivities..it seems to just go with the poetic territory. Many times one is taking something and looking at all it's fine points and angles when writing, then combusting outwards..which heck ya creates much emotion and churning.  IP: Logged |
Pearlty
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From: Ohio
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posted May 31, 2014 02:38 PM
Oh and I meant to share this link with you- if you're not already familiar, they have some neat poetry related outings and events offered throughout the state.
https://sites.google.com/a/ohiopoetryassn.com/the-ohio-poetry-association/homeIP: Logged |
Brobian
Knowflake Posts: 251
From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted May 31, 2014 03:44 PM
I have had such and amazing year, this year, and it is only half way over. My life has been changed in about every aspect of it and then some. My biggest accomplishment this year, has definitely been finding myself, my inner peace, and my truest happiness. I, after 36 years, have realized that I am me and I can never change that. I've always feared the judgment of others based on the judgment I had for myself, which I would always be overly judgmental to me.
I've been extremely sensitive and emotional since birth, though I hated it or my mind did. I started to hide who I am and demand that my heart be normal and for 36 years a war was waged within me. A battle between heart, demanding I be who I am, and mind, demanding I stop being weak and to be normal.
This weary war has ended and as I look within myself at this moment, I find not a shred of evidence to prove it even existed. The conflict has ended and in it's wake you'll find the merger of heart and mind. They have now synced together and are one. Also, you'll find complete peace and harmony. I have accepted who I am, I have stared my ghosts down and judged them for what they truly are, this being nothing at all. No longer will I care what others see within me, not even a bit. This is what I now know; I'm the man I am and I'm not the man others might want me to be or even the man I'd pretended to be. I'm me and me alone and the me I am is very sensitive, very emotional, and very compassionate. I now have complete control of my emotions, and I acquired this because I stopped fighting them. Instead of fighting them back, which is what I've always done, I opened my heart and let them in to control me. This I did because I knew that, if I wanted to control them, I must first allow them to control me. ------------------
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Pearlty
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From: Ohio
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posted May 31, 2014 06:05 PM
Your words are truly inspiring..and praise be when life is going well.  I love hearing that..I've never been one to live off the drama pile. Successful connotations help rather than hinder are my feelings. And ahhh judging and worrying what other's perceptions are- don't even get me going on that! Because conclusively you are right-it does not matter, life feels much more well rounded when you're true to you. I also understand your thoughts on being hard on yourself- I'm a recovering perfectionist per say.. and I don't know if it was Saturnian or what not- but nothing -even the slight criticism phased me..I had already replayed every flaw imaginable in my own mind and had that mechanism working through me for years. It kind of renders a 'I'm untouchable' feeling in a way, yet you recognize your best and worst side-which is the good thing and learning aspect about all of that. I was telling a dear friend yesterday I've been having insightful "light bulb" moments lately, it sounds as though you are as well. Contemplation is breath and a profound necessity in my book. IP: Logged |
Brobian
Knowflake Posts: 251
From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted May 31, 2014 06:45 PM
The fear of others judgment onto us. This is actually very silly, to be quite honest, and unfair for us to put ourselves through such torment. The majority of our earth's population won't even recognize these faults that we deem flaws. Inside our psyche we are ruthless on our own character. Our judgment of our self is baseless and completely unfair. It is actually a form of psychosis that we allow to hinder and harass us. Inside my psychological realm I know longer see faults or flaws of any kind. I now know that we do not have these, rather, we have our own personal characteristics that make us who we are. Milady, you have not one, nor have you ever had, single flaw in your entire physical existence. The traits you have that might be deemed this are not flaws. These are the roots of the blossoming oak that is you. You are a unique lady and these roots are what make you this way. There will never be another oak like you because none again will ever be as special as you. I have learned a lot about myself, about the world, about other humans, and about life itself this year. There was a 6 day stretch back in March that I had something happen to me. Over this stretch of days, My every nerve cell that is within my skin tingled for these 6 days straight. I kid you not, I had goose bumps this entire time and my hair on my torso, arms, and legs stood up straight. Once this had ran it's course, I came out of it an entirely different person. I had gone through a complex psychological transformation, one that would change my entire existence and even touch those that were in my life but not true to me. I have very keen empathic abilities and can absorb the emotion of anyone. However, I can now ground myself with our earth, become one with her, and use her energies to recharge myself and to connect with the emotional currents of those I'm connected too. Regardless to where they are on this planet, I will know their emotions at any time I desire. ------------------
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Pearlty
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From: Ohio
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted May 31, 2014 11:49 PM
Thanks for your kind thoughts..and sharing your interesting testaments within your life.. Reminded me of a message I received in a fortune cookie, after dinner one night...snapped a picture and have refereed back to when need be-ever since.  IP: Logged |
Brobian
Knowflake Posts: 251
From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted May 31, 2014 11:57 PM
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Originally posted by Pearlty:
Thanks for your kind thoughts..and sharing your interesting testaments within your life.. Reminded me of a message I received in a fortune cookie, after dinner one night...snapped a picture and have refereed back to when need be-ever since.
This would most definitely hold true to ourselves as well. You are welcome, however, I have a very strong desire to tell me story to the entire world, for some odd reason. IP: Logged |
Pearlty
Moderator Posts: 655
From: Ohio
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posted June 01, 2014 12:32 PM
If you have a strong desire to tell your story..Then why not? It's important to follow those "callings"..and now is a good starting point as any. IP: Logged |
Brobian
Knowflake Posts: 251
From: Brewster , Ohio USA
Registered: Mar 2014
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posted June 01, 2014 12:34 PM
Hmm, I guess I've never given much thought into it or where one would even start. ------------------
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Pearlty
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posted June 01, 2014 01:12 PM
I wish I could offer more help/advice. I do know when I was doing a lot of self-journaling by way of different blogs I've had. It's basically comparable to opening a flood gate and letting it flow. Creating an informal timeline and having stories, experiences, and memories spring from that. I know when I was finished for the time being and looked back I was in awe of all the metamorphosis that had taken place and how I "knew" myself much better. Hope you have a relaxing peaceful Sunday..My daughter is taking me out for an early dinner, and when the tables turn and they wish to take me out for a change.. Can't pass that up!! IP: Logged |
mirage29
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posted July 09, 2014 12:10 AM
You are a Lucky Father, Brobian.... I know what you mean about the crying lately.. I have to make sure this keyboard remains north of the drip line. Pages of books with telling tear puckers and indentations. Have to make sure the pages have permanent ink... Pearlty!... What a great quote you found! quote:
If you judge people, you have no time to Love them...
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