posted August 29, 2015 03:17 PM            

Something has changed and I can tell what it is
I sensed it last night when you looked me in the eyes
All the love you had has been thrown in the sky
Something has changed as I see where the wind blows

I sense you had a sudden change of mind
I didn’t know it, all those half-hearted signs
You were long gone before I could start to see it
And your last glance tells me that I should beat it

Something has changed when we have said goodbye
A love full of wonders withered and it won’t come back
Whatever remains someday soon it will die
Something has changed that made things just crack

Was I truly the guilty, or it was a twist of fate?
Could be the things I confessed or the things left unsaid
Did I make you feel stifled or you just couldn’t wait
Have you ever loved me or I have been misled

Something has changed in the streets these days
Not even your ghostly shadow can’t be seen
Whatever you did it was for me to not go that way
Something has changed that now I feel dragged by the loveless stream

Can you tell me baby, was it all in vain?
The days we had and the songs we sung
As I saw you going to the last midnight train
I think if I did something right or everything was wrong

posted August 29, 2015 09:17 PM            

Sometimes the other person is processing it too. You may come back together a different way, a different time. But, hold still... BE with yourself, be gentle and loving with yourself.

As you said before... this woman made a mark and a difference in your life. And this, is what life is about. To have ALL of you aroused, profoundly, down to your toes and the bottoms of your soul and sole. You'll be okay..

Wait. Be. Write.
Vive l'amour.

posted September 01, 2015 02:43 PM            

That's basically the reason I don't show my emotional side that much in romance, unless that I'm confident enough, or crazy enough to show them, I fear the commitment, I fear rejection and I fear showing up my emotions, those deep ones that makes me lose control. It's my deepest fear, the greatest one, the one that if I finally face it, I know my life will finally be a happier, less stressful one, be it if it is mutual or not, I believe for what I've seen and experienced so far in this story it's kinda mutual, but who knows what will happen tomorrow.

I don't know the reason for saying all of this in here, but I consider this place like a safe place to tell it, thanks to the kind souls around.

It's hard for me being in love, and it's hard being in love of a scorpio, like me.

posted September 02, 2015 05:15 PM            

In the footnotes Mr. Oken quotes R. Collin, The Theory of Celestial Influence, page 150 in the Collin's.

Quoting Oken, p.263 A.O.Astrology book...

"(Sex) must be connected with the ultimate principle of two sexes, and their joint power of creation. And it will include all the deepest emotions which arise from this interaction, and which, besides children of the body, give rise to music, poetry, the arts, and the whole aspiration of man to create... in emulation of his Maker."

Sexual forces are powerful...

Can be used for lustful purposes, or, as Mr. Oken says, "...it can be felt as the desire to merge the Self with the infinitely loftier planes of creative consciousness, thus becoming an instrument for the resultant outpouring of energy.
It is this latter principle which is at work in the lives of priests, nuns, religious hermits, and other consecrated persons."

In a different book, the person suggests that one needs to have a deep all-poured-out affectionate emotional relationship with at least one other person in their lifetime, in order to grow as an emotional being. If someone is looking for any kind of experience of the dimensions of Higher Love, then the way TO that sacred experience is through having had a genuine deep soul-stirring intimate relationship with at least one real person in your lifetime.

DX... You are so blessed. And we are here, with having you share. Your deep feelings are accepted here. Keep dancing!