posted January 22, 2015 08:13 AM            

I recently started to see mountain that way, too.

Funnily also he is calling himself a "mountain-boy at heart"; that is cause he was born and is living in a region where there are some mountains, not relaly the high kind, more like hills, but it is mountainlike.
I know the region also, cause my great grandmother used to live there (and my great aunt and her husband), so we spent a lot of time there during childhood, and everytime we now drive up the serpentine to that town, I don`t know, it just feels so elating to me. Like coming home in a way. Beautiful sight this village/ town in the midsts of the mountains, too.

posted January 22, 2015 08:15 AM            

P usually comes up as Fish or Lily in my readings, too.

posted January 22, 2015 08:18 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
T-Gem,

P usually comes up as Fish or Lily in my readings, too.

I suppose fish might also be cause he has a Pisces-ASC. And Lily, well, he FEELS like extended family (of course on top of the sensuality that is there), so maybe that is why.

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posted January 22, 2015 08:19 AM            

The only cards I don't see as good are mice and scythe... the others are fine (even coffin!! )lol

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Dani,

I recently started to see mountain that way, too.

Funnily also he is calling himself a "mountain-boy at heart"; that is cause he was born and is living in a region where there are some mountains, not relaly the high kind, more like hills, but it is mountainlike.
I know the region also, cause my great grandmother used to live there (and my great aunt and her husband), so we spent a lot of time there during childhood, and everytime we now drive up the serpentine to that town, I don`t know, it just feels so elating to me. Like coming home in a way. Beautiful sight this village/ town in the midsts of the mountains, too.

That is what nowadays the Mountain reminds me of. lol

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posted January 29, 2015 09:43 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Leeloo,

thank you.
I love your interpretation but have some thoughts about it as well.

"Your bi-soul

Emperor
6 of Cups
Judgement"
This is actually a little flabbergasting.

Some years ago I got a tarot reading on him and me, the very first one (must have been around 2010) and the reader pulled the 6 of cups and Judgement as well!
Well, the third card was not the Emperor but 4 of swords, yet I can`t help noticing that the emperor is the fourth arcana.

The Emperor makes me a little nervous to be honest. While he is not the most romantic card to get, he is such a no-nunsense-card, and - at least to me- a very official card coming with a lot of responsibility.

It makes my little Uranian-Neptunian heart quake with fear to be honest.
(but speaks to the Saturnian-Plutonian side of me obviously)

That`s the thing about P and me, or about how I feel in respect to him (or to "us" ), while we are both very much Sagittarian, and he is so playful, and I love how he reminded me to be playing as well, carefree and just having fun, basically, at the same time, there always has been the gnawing feeling in my marrow, that the "stakes are real high", maybe even too high. Like this cannot be ever "just a little bit", but more or less means that either we are in it for the real thing, or we are out of it. NO real middle ground, which does not relaly make sense, given our current status. But it is just the feeling I got, and which - honestly- made me run as far as I could when I met him, and now it feels the stakes are even higher than before.

Having alittle crush, experiencing some attraction is one thing, bringing that onto a manifestation-level is a WHOLE DIFFERENT scenario.
It is scary.

I mean if he were to really be into me, and wanting to be with me, that would mean that he would break up his family for that, and I am not sure that is a responsibility I am even willing to take!
Or let me put it this way: that is a responsibility that I CANNOT take, as it would tie me to him, not through love and attraction and a sense of togetherness, but through duty and sacrifice. And that could NEVER work with me.

So all the while I hope he really likes me and quite honestly is even more attracted to me than to her (yes I am vain and superficial and selfish enough to want that, and believe me I know it`s wrong), at the same time I hope he does not make me the cause for any kind of breakup scenario.

If they shall break up, they shall do so, because they feel they don`t love each other enough or do not fit together enough to be happy with each other in the long run.
But I do not want to have anything to do with it.

It needs to be a decision completely independent of me.

I am not even sure how I got into musing about that here. lol
Maybe the Judgement card, it seems that we have known each other before, yes.

As for the NOW energy, I love your interpretation, but I also saw another thing depicted here, and that is me.
Before I was very much the Queen of Swords (heck when I am insecure I still act like the Queen of swords - and I know it drives him nuts), very very intellectual, arrogant, detached and completely guarded and closed up.

But in recent months I have more and more become a Queen of Cups like figure, not totally, not always, but much more than before. Well of course it was always in me, but I always chose to mask her up as Queen of Swords, and I was so good in misleading almost everyone, making them believe that was me, for real.

Well, except him. From the very first time we met, he looked at me, and treated me, like I was a Queen of Cups. lol
And I was more than a little angry with him for that. am I transparent or what?

However it seems that we are really taking turns in bringing the Swords and Cups suit across to each other. Maybe one day we will be able to meet each other on the same level, hopefully a cups one.
I have the suspicion we are just too much alike. It is like I literally can SEE when he gets into insecure defensive mode (even if outwardly not much seems to change).

I remember one concert when he was very very funny, selfdepreciating even, and the audience were talking about how amusing and how cheerful he was and I was just thinking: "Are you blind and deaf? the man is DYING inside." (what I did not know is that this must have been shortly after the breakup of his longterm relationship).

Unfortunately he caught the way I was looking at him, and it was like he realized that I was seeing a little too close, too deep. At least he did his best to ignore me for the rest of the evening.
I can`t help it though, sometimes I jsut see too much I guess (well others have told me about that as well, and as an actor he obviously is sensitive enough to realize that).

Unfortunately the x-ray look into each other`s mind and soul does nto work reliably, and is working VERY unreliably when there is verbal communication involved or I am too much emotionally invested (and hence letting own insecurities surface, which overshadow the true perception)

I love the bridge, the 9 of cups.
Like in all the 9 cards, it is not yet a card of togetherness, but it is the preparation of togetherness, and in this instance it is full of anticipation and contentment. Not just counting our blessings but being all prepared for the party to begin.
And the guests shall arrive every moment.

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I loved every word you wrote here, Ceri.

I'm also thinking however that the 9 is completion, in a way, some sort of completion, considering the movement from the transformation/intimacy in the 8th house to the higher purpose/bringing it to the world/spiritual connection/the shared dream of the 9th. I think with the 9 the spiritual connection between two people is solidified, the awareness of being together is complete and it's the first step to bringing it into the world (which continues with the 10th 11th and the 12th house), they are a certified team. For example, the individualism discussed about the 9 of Pents is true in a way and VenusdiSirius is right, but I see it in the sense that the couple becomes an individual, a unit-my way of seeing it, just one way. On the other hand, apart from the journey from 1 to 10, where there's always something to add, as a paradox, each number is complete within itself

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