posted April 08, 2015 04:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Yes, gladly.

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posted April 08, 2015 04:15 PM            

thanks for reading for me. And I like to think getting the same card speaks of the consistency.

"I think the origins are very romantic, perhaps a platonic courtship kind relationship from the old days, when the leady was a lady of the court, and the knight a romancing platonic knight, very poetic stuff."
LOL
You say that now after me having come back from visiting Tintagel and Glastonbury Abbey, where King Arthur is said to be buried with Guinevere?

I mean seriously, the man himself played Arthur, and Mr Eyecandy played Lancelot, and though I did not ever play Guinevere, I find it intriguing how Mr Sag`s Arthur is conjunct my Guinevere and last saturday Tr Lancelot was conjunct both. lol

"It seems a travel is involve for your FM, for both sides."
We actually did.

We are living 66 kilometres away from each other (which is actually pretty close if you think about it. lol)

but we met in a city, 270 kilomentres away from where I live and 200 kilometres away from where he lives.
The actual first meeting.
The first sighting actually took place in a village 50 kilometres from where he lives and 67 kilometres from where he lives. almost in the middle. lol

"Oh, my, I hope you’re in love with each other…wow! "
Wow, those two hearts together, never had such a draw either.

Not sure about in love, but I do think we harbour some affectionate feelings about each other, mutually, though of course they cant be really expressed, as he has attachments we both have to honour.
Or maybe I amd eluding myself and I am the only one with a heart here.

"he remains a mystery."
He truely does.

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You are Starseeds!"
IQ actually said that, too, when doing our charts. lol

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Look at that mystery. News or action are bringing a turning point, a change of pace, with Rider Key (a new man is possible also, could it be Mr Newbie?) mystery, waiting, contemplating, open outcome with HP and 3 of Wands. Trio comes to mind as well. But a solution is at hand with Rider Key, a clear cut solution. Positive cards!"

posted April 08, 2015 04:29 PM            

1 and 6 - origins of the relationship
DOG + CLOUDS
It seems in the beginning this was a friendship, definitely of soulmates but more or less platonic, at least from your perspective, while from his perspective boundaries got blurred (probably unclarity and confusion about the real nature of his feelings, which clearly seemed to have been not purely platonic)

2 and 7 - Where it is coming from
SHIP + HOUSE
a home-move? LOL

Nah kidding, but it certainly came from movement at home, in your family or the neighbourhood. To me it also seems to indicate a feeling of belonging, of home.

3 and 8 - where the relationship is now (present)
HOUSE + MAN
Hmm, either there are other people involved, a man and a woman, or this simply shows that there is not much change or movement at the moment, and you are moostly caught up with issues at home.

4 and 9 - where it is going
SCYTHE + FOX
I think there will be a decisive action (possibly on your part), something unexpected will hapen that will cut through all the lies, the deception and also unclarity.

posted April 09, 2015 06:56 AM            

thank you for this reading.
I`d very much appreciate a bit of clearing the fog. lol
Nevertheless, I sincerely doubt he is going to end his relationship anytime soon. Beside everything else he has a little son to care for, and his son has - and should have- top priority.
Besides, we don`t even know each other that well, though of course there is some sort of attraction there. But attraction is just that. Attraction.

Nevertheless the weirdness is still there as well.
I remember having had this very intense dream the night after coming back home from Cornwall, which was not really a dream, as I did not quite see him in it, but just sensed/ felt him but was very sure it was him. Felt more like an astral something than a dream to be honest. And it was well the stuff quite some wet dreams might be made of.
Not getting too graphic here.

Anyway, I was surpised about that, cause when going to bed, nothing could have been further from my mind than sharing an erotic dream with him (strange, but my fingers wanted to type: share. lol).

Nevertheless just after waking up the man himself decided to break a bit of his facebook silence and post some very "motivated" pictures of his stage rehearsal for "Paradise of Pain" (which means he is away from his family, which usually is when I can sense him very clearly. Like something cutting through a bit of fog, maybe it is not really me, but even him, giving him too much time to think about what he probably should not think about. ).

Anyway this one picture (please do not quote, I am going to take it down when you have seen it) touched me.

Well, seriously if that is how his MOTIVATED look is, I don`t know.... lol

Something about that look startled me, to be honest. He looks so serious here, well he probably was just tired.

Others have remarked of his less than motivated expression, to which he explained that it was "early in the morning". Hmm I wonder if he had any interesting or shocking dreams the night before that justify him looking so unlike his usual cheery Sagittarian Self.

posted April 09, 2015 07:52 AM            

"he first thought that came to me when I saw this pic: "I'm thinking of you and missing you." "
Funny you say that, cause my first instant thought was: "I miss you, too, big boy." lol

Of course he might just be missing his son or his wife.
He put some pictures of the family trip online, just two, one with his son, one of him kissing his wife, and they looked like a perfectly happy family.

See?

To be honest, I was partly very happy for him, especially the pic with his son is so cute and he is so in love with the little one.
Of course the other pic was stinging, but even before he posted those I had some moments of utmost clarity and just seeing the situation as it is. He chose her and for a reason, possibly he simply fell in love with her 2 years ago or so.
Well, and so in a way, I did withdraw a little, spiritually mostly I think, emotionally maybe to the point this is possible. Definitely in terms of talking about some other gentleman.
And very certainly in my traces on his facebook. Step by step, I think I did not even like the last pics he put online, and haven`t commented on anything for many weeks (not that I was doing it THAT often, but the frequency had increased I admit; he on the other hand has also withdrawn from talking to fans in general - well I did as some question about a certain date and performance at the end of february, which he answered, but from that one I pretty much disappeared, because what`s the point really? ).

Yeah well, and so I welcomed getting away to Cornwall a bit, to gain a fresh perspective, and then I come home (with new and fresh impressions and distractions) and he posts a picture like that, that feels like it is aiming to pierce my heart. LOL
And he does that every time. As if he can literally FEEL I am slipping away, and for some reason he doesn`t want that.
Of course this is a coincidence, or maybe subconscious?

It´s not quite fair I think. Slipping away would b easier if he did not continue to remind me of those occasions last year. lol

"I didn't officially have a dream of him but a vision of us in "deep physical intimacy" crossed my mind. "
Wow, how interesting we had a very similiar experience then!

"shove it out of my mind and go "blank" - almost like the intensity was so strong, "
I know what you mean.

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Let me know if I can do pull for you on anything else-"
How about that other spread LEeloo mentioned on the preceding page?

posted April 09, 2015 08:12 AM            

This one? ^

posted April 09, 2015 09:11 AM            

Just been gone for lunch. lol

Well I know what you mean about the happy pics. Maybe they are genuine, but I have also noticed that people tend to emphasize their happiness (unless very freshly in love of course) usually when happiness is more the exception than the rule in their daily lives.

He seemed a little stressed out on the last concert, too. I mean I just remember how he left stage to walk to his family in the background, cuddle his son, and I think shortly stroke his wife`s cheek or temple (could not see that too well as sh ewas sitting in my back but further into the background), and from there, all the while singing this song he likes to sing so much: "How to get rid of one`s shadow" and well walking from ther straight into the first row to the centre where I was sitting and well I guess we were pretty much staring at each other all the while he was getting closer, but he didn`t address me in any way, just that silent gaze he sometimes sends into my direction but then he was tousling the hair of the girl sitting beside me (maybe 12 or 13 years old, with her parents beside her), possibly to emphasize the lines he was singing, and then climbing back onto stage, and from there blowing a kiss to his little family in the back. All this within maybe 3-5 minutes, that felt a tiny little crazy and fraught with some strange tension to be honest.

But well I am happy for him if he is happy with his family; I just don´t understand that attention he is giving me, and sometimes almost like it is against his own will.
You know like when you KNOW that you will get your fingers burned if you get too close to the stove, but you do it nevertheless.

Actually yes, that is one stanza in the theme song of his concerts

"Why do we play with fire?
Why do we run our fingers through the flame?
why do we leave our hand on the stove
although we know we`re in for some pain?"

EDIT
Icarus-synastry? LOL Maybe?

Well my ICARUS is on 28 Capricorn. LOL Same degree as my ANUBIS and my Draco Pluto, Interestingly it is widely conjunct his Venus (2°37) and opposing his JUNO, conjunct his ISHTAR exact (babylonian Goddess of sensual love and war. of course she plays a big role in the sacred marriage thing, originating from there, and his Ishtar happens to be square my ADONIS, Ishtar`s counterpart, which is conjunct both of our Unions on 29 Libra, and actually we also have a conjunction of Link-Link on 25 Capricorn exact, right on his Venus.

So my ICARUS gets burned when it gets too close to his Venus-Ishtar-Juno I suppose (all archetypes of the feminine, and most of them more of the sensual kind) plus this is attached to our LINKS and UNIONS

his ICARUS on 12 Capricorn is conjunct his ARTHUR-CASANOVA on 11 Capricorn which is conjunct my GUINEVERE-ADELAIDE on 10 and 11 Capricorn. Oh and my SPIRIT is there as well. it`s also pretty exactly square my warrior-goddess ERIS on 12 Aries and my APHRODITE on 13 Libra.

How funny how my Icarus is aligned with his Venus-ISHTAR, and his with my APHRODITE, all of them being emanations of the same principle.

In the composite ICARUS is sandwiched right between Venus and Moon (on the midpoint of this 6 degree conjunction we have there) and exactly square the nodal axis with Amor-Cupido-Camelot on top.
So getting too close to the sun is our skipped step? LOL

posted April 09, 2015 09:41 AM            

1. what he likes about me physically (the most)
LILY + MAN

Now, seriously, I am puzzled about that. lol
But I think it means that he likes your calm, composed but very sensual way of showing yourself.
Also been thinking that your independence might be a turn on.
He also seems to like your eyes very much.

2. what he likes about me personality wise (the most)
CHILD + TOWER
The fact that you can be innocent and curious and enthusiastic like a child but at the same time know how to behave in public as well, and not blurting out just everything.
Also probably that you are protective and caring about children.

3. what he would like me to change in my behavior towards him
MOUNTAIN + STARS
PUtting obstacles in obtaining the fulfillment of your hopes and dreams.

He probably really dislikes the distance that is between the two of you and keeping you from having at least communication with each other (online maybe) but also your hopes and wishes for a afuture.

4. what he is willing to do/change for me
CROSS + BOUQUET

He might be willing to give you compliments and show you affection despite this also bringing possible pain and trouble into his life. But in a way this is fated.

5. the role I play in his life right now
COFFIN + HEART

Heartache. His heart aches because of you.
Other possibilities:
Transformation of his love life or heart itself. Opening up to you once more.
or:
the End of a love relationship (maybe a divorce?)

posted April 09, 2015 09:55 AM            

" Has he ever held your hand in some way?"
No.
Well, last time we talked, there was some sort of barrier/ bar between us, and I noticed that our hands sort of happened to lie on that table rather close to each other (without really knowing how this happened), but without really touching.

"Letter usually means hands but when I first saw it, in your case I thought of the mouth and the lips. Also he likes your full feminine figure and soft curves. "
I would like to believe that. I mean I am still rather voluptous.

"I believe his wife is really tiny right? "
Yes, she is.

Funny enough though, I have seen a pic of her as a child, and at that age we could have been mistaken for sisters (in fact I shortly wondered how one of my old pics as a child ended up on her facebook, it took me really a few seconds to realize that this was of course not me, but her. lol Nowadays we look VERY different though, but it really surprised me to see how similiar we must have looked as children, though of course she is much younger than me).

"This one I struggled with...maybe your down to earth nature, practical, modest? What do you think?"
Yes I think so. maybe also my patience, loyalty whatever?
Tree is also a very karmic card.

"I don't think he wants you to change anything!"
LOL Nice.
Or he wants me to be more sun-like?

"5. Snake-stork
Again, plain as day- he sees you as the other woman (the affair)"
Yes, that makes sense, I guess.

posted April 09, 2015 10:18 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
your spread

1. what he likes about me physically (the most)
LILY + MAN

Now, seriously, I am puzzled about that. lol
But I think it means that he likes your calm, composed but very sensual way of showing yourself.
Also been thinking that your independence might be a turn on.
He also seems to like your eyes very much.

2. what he likes about me personality wise (the most)
CHILD + TOWER
The fact that you can be innocent and curious and enthusiastic like a child but at the same time know how to behave in public as well, and not blurting out just everything.
Also probably that you are protective and caring about children.

3. what he would like me to change in my behavior towards him
MOUNTAIN + STARS
PUtting obstacles in obtaining the fulfillment of your hopes and dreams.

He probably really dislikes the distance that is between the two of you and keeping you from having at least communication with each other (online maybe) but also your hopes and wishes for a afuture.

4. what he is willing to do/change for me
CROSS + BOUQUET

He might be willing to give you compliments and show you affection despite this also bringing possible pain and trouble into his life. But in a way this is fated.

5. the role I play in his life right now
COFFIN + HEART

Heartache. His heart aches because of you.
Other possibilities:
Transformation of his love life or heart itself. Opening up to you once more.
or:
the End of a love relationship (maybe a divorce?)

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posted April 09, 2015 10:57 AM            

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Well, seriously if that is how his MOTIVATED look is, I don`t know.... lol

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posted April 09, 2015 11:15 AM            

1. his thoughts upon meeting you
BOUQUET + SNAKE

You will represent the other woman for him, but it also will feel like a gift of the universe to him, meeting you again, and he will harbour very affectionate feelings for you and experience your tempting seductive appeal to him.

2. his thoughts about your physical appearance
WHIP + CLOUDS

Hmm, sexy comes to mind.
Very fit, maybe a little teasing and playful, which even enhance your appeal, which might leave him a little confused.
I suppose your physical appeal to him will also trigger some shady thoughts in him (for some reason this combo reminds me of "Shades of grey" lol)

3. how he will feel about you
SHIP + MOON
Very very romantic. There will be a definite change and movement into a more emotional and romantic internal involvement for him.

4. how he will act
STARS + STORK

Again, change is in the air (this seems to be the theme of this spread) and it will be a change to the better. Probably he will keep up the communication with you again, and he might have some stars in his eyes and will act more optimistic and positive towards you.
He will possibly also experience a change of mind and show it more openly, which is going to be very very good for you.

posted April 09, 2015 11:18 AM            

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Originally posted by Aunt Anomalia:
[QUOTE]Well, seriously if that is how his MOTIVATED look is, I don`t know.... lol

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posted April 09, 2015 02:29 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
T-gem,

1. his thoughts upon meeting you
BOUQUET + SNAKE

You will represent the other woman for him, but it also will feel like a gift of the universe to him, meeting you again, and he will harbour very affectionate feelings for you and experience your tempting seductive appeal to him.

2. his thoughts about your physical appearance
WHIP + CLOUDS

Hmm, sexy comes to mind.
Very fit, maybe a little teasing and playful, which even enhance your appeal, which might leave him a little confused.
I suppose your physical appeal to him will also trigger some shady thoughts in him (for some reason this combo reminds me of "Shades of grey" lol)

3. how he will feel about you
SHIP + MOON
Very very romantic. There will be a definite change and movement into a more emotional and romantic internal involvement for him.

4. how he will act
STARS + STORK

Again, change is in the air (this seems to be the theme of this spread) and it will be a change to the better. Probably he will keep up the communication with you again, and he might have some stars in his eyes and will act more optimistic and positive towards you.
He will possibly also experience a change of mind and show it more openly, which is going to be very very good for you.

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posted April 09, 2015 05:04 PM            

I just realized that it is Mr Eyecandy`s birthday today.

Interestingly I woke up today with some lines of a song from that musical I saw him in, and it is so rare that I "dream" of singing or recall hearing someone`s voice.

Well the line my subconsciousness chose to re-call was a startling one: "I come for those who are mine"

Yeah, I have a weird subconsciousness I know. lol

"Yes it's karmic-something about your physical appearance triggers emotions/memories in his soul"
Yes maybe that is true. He has KARMA conjunct DESTINN in his chart, and both are conjunct my own KARMA by 1 degree, completng a tight Grand trine with my Moon and his Pluto.

"..also he likes your voluptuous figure...liking those full hips "
LOL
Well I certainly have enough of that!

"Are you preggers??!!"
No most certainlyn ot!

Celibate here.

" J/K he likes your innocence, the youthfulness about you "
Well, maybe that was why he seemed to look at me last time, during the bows. I happend to wear a very white long shirt, and well my mom always sais I have a "young face" (for my age). No clue if that is true (my hair certainly starts to display some grey, but luckily along with a lot of other colours, especially when I was in the sun, everything in there from grey over blonde and light copper to brownish. lol)

"Hmmm, this looks like he would like you to stop going in circles as to how you feel about him and make a decision."
Well we did not even really meet!

Unless you count him being on stage and me being in first row last year during the Artus-musical. lol

He was looking at me then though, and well, he possibly noticed the way I was looking at Mr Sag. *sighs*
At least I caught him looking at me, just after I had stopped looking at Mr Sag. It was.... surreal. Like a play within a play. lol

"4. Key-garden
Interesting, I think if you did the above he would definitely reciprocate and ask you out or at least increase communication between you two"
I would seriously be surprised about that.
I get the feeling he likes some separation between his professional and personal life and not wanting to mesh it too much.
Hence I was a little surprised for him to look at me (and he must have looked at me pretty hard for me to notice, as I usually don`t. You really have to hit me over the head with a hammer and put on some glaring neon signs and even then I will probably think it is too subtle. lol )

posted April 10, 2015 07:25 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
BTW I think it is a good advice to take out the expectations from any kind of connection, no matter if it relates to you and D or to me and whoever.
Expectations tend to fence you in, make things so very narrow, when we should just go with the flow.

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posted April 10, 2015 08:54 AM            

But it`s still a good start. And every journey has to start somewhere with the first step.

I find it helps to not soley circle around Mr Sag in my thoughts,s o for me that means, letting my eyes or mind wander here and there (but being careful to not let another crush get out of hand. ).

Though I find that usually when I do that, he starts tugging on the other end of the cord for some reason.

I mean last year around that time I was totally in balance (though not happy) and okay and detached about him and his then pregnant wife, and had started to settle into acceptance-mode that I probably had just been delusional, and just then when I was at that point (a safe and settled point, though not a very blissful one of course), he had to start getting a little crazy.
I mean he LITERALLY communicated that I was driving him crazy at least on two occasions, well those I realized at least.
The first one when he was literally saying it that i drove him crazy, the other was when he was on stage, singing a song, not taking his eyes off me for almost the whole song and suddenly abruptly changing the song and breaking out into another chorus, belting out: "Crazy, why are you sending me to hell?"

Yeah crazy is a good word, it was, but maybe since I haven`t seen him since january, and there has not much of any kind of communication, maybe that serves to let this kind of craziness simmer down, let it settle into acceptance mode.

Well I feel I am pretty accepting (and letting my mind wander ) and busy doing other things, and I hopefully will still be when seeing him again on stage at the end of may, If I will see him then and not back out of it again. lol

On the other hand before that there will be the concert on 16th may, having Mr Eyecandy there, and I am kinda looking forward to it as well.