posted December 12, 2005 04:50 PM         

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felt a small bit of her wrath. But who cares? If she wants respect, she'll have to earn it.

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First of all they disrespected me therefore I am not going to respect them.

Second of all...I do not look for respect on the internet. I am not that desperate.

posted December 12, 2005 06:17 PM         

You've called me every nasty thing one can call another woman, I know I don't deserve it, and I know you don't know me, so if you post a reasonable question on a different day, if I can answer it, I will.

Grudges are things that we overcome.
If you currently 'wrong' me, then great.. draw from the experience of the past, and learn from there.... I will speak up in a current frame of reference, with my knowledge in mind...
But don't drag the past into current interactions with the intention of hurtful things. That does nothing for your growth.

posted December 13, 2005 02:12 AM         

Hi fayte,
I know sueg is has a soft heart under a bold exterior. I really do. I can see her beauty very clearly believe it or not. Some people have said the same kind of thing about me. 'One is never too old to feel sad of hurt'....trust me, I know this too. I dont believe I gave her a 'thrashing' and wont feel guilty for the way she chooses to feel. I truly believe the people we encounter are reflections of ourselves. And at some level we have allowed/invited them into our lives, whether we realize (or want to admit to that) it or not. We have something to learn from each of them. No one is a victim.
I'm sorry to hear she is hurting. Alot of people are.

But, there are many perspectives from which you can choose to look at any given situation. It's up to you how you want to see it. Go through the hurt, pain and then get over it. Try a new perspective. What were the lessons and messages for you? The universe is ALWAYS speaking to us. We bring every person and situation into our life. When that really sinks in, everything changes.

posted December 13, 2005 02:12 AM         

If it makes anyone feel better, I wont be posting on LL anymore. I asked Randall to take my name off as Moderator. There are many reasons for this and I feel it's the best choice for me right now. I've grown alot since I've been here, learned alot, made some great friends, had alot of laughs. But lately....or for awhile now, I feel like I dont really have much to say anymore and I've been letting my negative side come out too much. Letting things get to me. I feel off center, like I've gone off track....though I know deep down I havent. Some of that could be 'planetary' stuff going on, or just plain growing out of something, needing to retreat.....to go back (with)In....rewriting how I want my story to go......finding out exactly what that is.......many things. I'm at one of those points where I need to break away or let go of some things. And this time, I'm feeling very good about that.
Anyway, I just dont feel connected to this place or the people here the way I used to. Nothing against anyone! It's not you, it's me. I'm sure we've all gone through it to some extent. But the 'music's over'. And when something's over for a Taurus, it's over. I've allowed this place to take up too much of my time, energy, thoughts.... it's not conducive to my growth anymore.

There are alot of you that I'll miss very much. Youve touched my heart and been lights in some dark times. Some of you know that I dont have really have a family. Dont speak to my mother, father or the other members and havent had contact with my brother in well over a year. So in an odd way, that's what you were to me and I'll miss that. But this is a good thing. Change always is (yes, a Taurean just said that. hahaha).
I'm seeing big changes on my horizon and looking forward to them all. Eager to break down some of these walls and hop over a few hurdles. These are happy times, mixed with a bit of sadness. Yet a strong knowing that I'm where I need to be. A calm amidst some passing storms....

Soooo, just thought I'd give an explanation before I go....done enough dissapearing acts in this lifetime.
You deserve to know. And now you wont be worried. Life is good friends. To the few of you who emailed me, SC, pix, trill: thank you - I will get back to you.

Bright Lights to you All on your paths.
Thank you for sharing yourS-elves with me.

posted December 13, 2005 08:59 AM         

I wish the best, here's my email
if you'd like to talk
lotusheartone@axion.ca

and you are welcome to come visit me anytime
I've got 3 extra bedrooms
Sending you waves of Love and Light
on your journey.
Love,
Stephanie

posted December 13, 2005 10:11 AM         

EDIT/ADD:
26taurus
Knowflake
Posts: 10662
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
posted December 13, 2005 02:12 AM
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(having trouble posting....guess, I'll break it down into two...)
Hi fayte,
I know sueg is has a soft heart under a bold exterior. I really do. I can see her beauty very clearly believe it or not. Some people have said the same kind of thing about me. 'One is never too old to feel sad of hurt'....trust me, I know this too. I dont believe I gave her a 'thrashing' and wont feel guilty for the way she chooses to feel. I truly believe the people we encounter are reflections of ourselves. And at some level we have allowed/invited them into our lives, whether we realize (or want to admit to that) it or not. We have something to learn from each of them. No one is a victim.
I'm sorry to hear she is hurting. Alot of people are.

But, there are many perspectives from which you can choose to look at any given situation. It's up to you how you want to see it. Go through the hurt, pain and then get over it. Try a new perspective. What were the lessons and messages for you? The universe is ALWAYS speaking to us. We bring every person and situation into our life. When that really sinks in, everything changes.

>>>My apologies to you 26taurus
Everything certainly changes.
What a difference approximately a year can make.
I am jaded but wiser.
Autumn 06.

posted December 13, 2005 08:26 PM         

If you happened to e-mail me some bright morning with a poem or a story, I'd consider it an honor. Surprise #3.

posted December 13, 2005 11:31 PM         

Be Well!

posted December 14, 2005 12:02 AM         

You were/are my first friend here at LL. I will always treasure the places where our lives intersected, even in this brief manner.

Here's hoping you get to hear The Byrds version of My Back Pages soon!! Wishing you a wonderful journey -- bless you!!

posted December 16, 2005 08:38 AM         

Had to smile at the "it's not you, it's me..." line. Felt like you are breaking up with us! lol JK

ok anyway, email me at turboradicalmuffler@yahoo.com so I can email you wedding pics!

posted December 16, 2005 09:06 AM         

Good luck 26, and we step back at the same time...how cool is that....great minds and all that.....

Sending you love and lots of Irish Luck.....

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And in answer to this thread question....

Of course she should.....her behaviour is childish, offensive and NOT cooooooool at all...... and if I am the only one who has the courage to say this, then so be it !!!

Love and luck to all

posted December 16, 2005 01:54 PM         

I'll tell you what I observed and felt from you, during the debate. These are just my perceptions and I won't speak for anyone else. I saw bravery. No manipulations for acceptance. No expectations. Bravery to speak your own truth in the moment. And I felt openness from you. One of the ones who I felt were entering with a silent eagerness to learn from the experience. I saw a person with no pretention. I felt you were aware that whatever you were feeling was your truth in that moment was flexible and open. For really all of our truths are that way. From moment to moment. Experience to experience. Forever changing into the next.
Not everyone is going to see these things. But keep in mind that there are many who do as well. Especially here.

Have you always in your life been that brave to stick to your own Truth,with no thought of the outcome of it? If not, be aware of it. If it's new, appreciate that transformation within you. It's powerful.

The Spiritual Warrior instinctively understands the need for timely retreat. Once again...following Your Truth and Own Heart.
You didn't deny the urgings...the timeliness. You were tuned into it for a reason.

But also, "never say things to their completion". Of course you know where that comes from. And I'm confident you're already aware of the wisdom in that. And furthermore that you would understand why I would even write that here, so I needn't explain myself. How cool is that?

Have you noticed yet the acceleration of cycles? The more aware you become, the more frequent and accelerated arrive the tests. "Oh, you think you have arrived? You think you understand?"
BAM. The TEST. The next Challenge. Faster and faster they come, the more intune and aware you become. Age has nothing to do with it. Awareness has everything to do with it. It's as if the shift in consciousness is what invites it in itself.

You're a very cool person.
All the best to you.

posted December 27, 2005 04:41 PM         

But then again I'm not surprised you "forgot".

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and if I am the only one who has the courage to say this, then so be it !!!

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Wow such bravery. Definitely tops William Wallace

posted December 28, 2005 07:03 AM         

No
i would
have
thought not

posted December 28, 2005 10:03 AM         

sorry

Miss L

maybe

time

for me

to depart

just testing

I am a chosen

one asked

to come here