posted July 20, 2003 12:58 AM         

take care! *hugs*

posted July 20, 2003 11:40 PM         

When I was seven years old, I literally said to my mother "Mommy, I'm not made for this world."
And ever since then... I know what it feels like to feel different. While kids were playing softball at recess I was at the other end of the courtyard singing songs about loneliness and gnomes (a strange combination). And in college, I unconsciously got by while secretly studying the esoteric. Finding this site brings it all home for me. I still get lonely, like tonight when I have to wait till 2 in the morning to pick my roommate up from the bus station, but reading this thread was good to read. I hope you all feel like you belong now. Because not feeling "of this world" can feel so lonely.

So many of you said "I don't want to sound self-centric or conceited, but..." and I say why not? Be selfish! We need to be more selfish in some ways. Stand up and say you're Somebody.

For we are a bunch of special Somebodies.
yes, we are.

posted July 30, 2003 03:53 AM         

And of course, we are all Children too.

posted July 31, 2003 04:01 AM         

anyway, i loved your post. i think the reason i dont advertise that i think i might be special is because i am a strong believer in equality. insofar as talent, for example, i do believe that everyone has one, but most people dont know it. also some talents arent ones you can slap on a canvas or record on a cd. thats talents though, just an example. i know that i am special in my own way, if only for the fact that i care about people. there are many people who do, but lots that dont so i take pride in that.

im sorry you dont have much time online lately, and i do so hope you come back at some point. i would so like to get to know you. i understand though, sometimes we need a break to gain perspective. as convenient as it would be to simply insert my consciousness into the net, its not feasable nor would it be a healthy situation for me. imagine all the hugs i wouldnt get, and the cheesecake i wouldnt eat!!!! not to mention, im rather fond of my kitty

anyway i hope you are doing well, and i look forward to a time when you can spend more time with us.

posted July 31, 2003 09:45 AM         

I scored a 94.

posted August 02, 2003 12:34 AM         

I would say yes, I do feel that way, but it's been linked to my sometimes uncomfortable experience of being adopted, so I haven't quite finished unravelling it all yet...

I've known for a long time that I felt called to do something, to prepare for something... I used to call it my "messiah complex"! I'm not sure that I'm a space being -- I met one once, and she was a truly different individual and vibe -- but I do accept that I am an old soul who's chosen some difficult tasks to master in this life, and whose purpose includes sharing light and love and beauty with others. Guess that makes me a kind of lightworker, like yourself, and many others who come here to learn, share, and inspire.

I tried to take that quiz and my browser crashed, so when I have some results I'll pop in again.

proxie... 94!? Can space beings commute, because if you are one, I can see you wanting to dash back and say hi, then dash back here, then dash back there, then...

posted August 03, 2003 02:44 PM         

if you would like to email me, just email the moderator email. yes, if you can believe it. as often - or not often- as i am on, i am indeed a moderator. figure that out. but i try. anyway, i think my email address is given if you care to write.

posted August 08, 2003 03:04 AM         

no worries. i can be patient, i am sure we will be around for you once you are able to be back. we all need to step back once in awhile, or the net would swallow us whole. its happened to me. this is my second go round, and im doing a bit better this time.

it sounds like theres some nice change going on in your life. im glad.

yes, ill keep your email in mind. a thought about moderator... isnt that a terrible word? i wonder if anyones lexied it. i much prefer the term mediator. a moderator is like someone who makes people all moderate or, to the same standards. moderating behaviour... it just sounds so conformist and not at all a way to let everyone be their beautiful selves. mediators facilitate by nature. i much like that term better. thats what i call mods in my forum. i should give you the address, you can stop in anytime. nothing much is happening with it, its just a place for people to keep in touch right now. one day i might do something with it, but i dont have time.

sorry, i didnt mean to start a fire, i just was free associating tonight heh. giving my little thoughts a place to live, because my heads too crowded

eek what a bunch of words

take care

~ana

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where i end and you begin there's a gap in between there's a gap where we meet where i end and you begin
and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin