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Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted December 28, 2003 06:51 PM
 
I don't think I realized it has been that long since I last stopped in. How is everyone?
Ra, I do not have an e-mail right now. I don't even have a computer. I keep thinking I'll go out and get one but I want to buy a house soon, so I'm trying to cut back on all the expenses.(Even though as soon as I made this decision, I went out and ran my credit card bill way up. Ha! I'm such a dork sometimes.) I won't be back until who knows when so if you respond don't think I'm ignoring you.
I wish I could give you news of my being, but at the moment I'm in the middle of lost and nothing. I failed my Saturn return test. It only took me a year and a half to figure that out. I wish I was more clear on what that meant, but I'm the only one I know who has Saturn in 29 degrees, so I can't compare. I've been a little sad over that, mainly because I KNEW I needed to get it together and for some reason I just didn't. Worse, now I'm rebelling against.....well who knows, I never needed a reason.  But on the bright side, I think I'm on the edge...Finally. It has to go either way.....and if I don't make it in body, just know that I have learned and concurred, something, in this life, even if I don't know what it is. I'll try to get back here soon, I miss this place.
Take care and keep me in your prayers, please.Raines IP: Logged |
Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted December 28, 2003 07:11 PM
Oh yeah, yesterday I drove out to see a friend of mine (still here, her computer) and in the 4 hrs. it took me to drive here, I counted, no kidding, 151 hawks. Think they're trying to tell me something? I'm trying to be aware Mr. I mean MR.SSSS Hawk, honest.IP: Logged |
spiria
Knowflake Posts: 123
From: big 'ol Tejas
Registered: Sep 2003
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posted December 28, 2003 11:56 PM
hello. i am bit new here and i don't remember much about saturn but i do know this: i have needed to 'get it together' countless times in my life and failed, or more frustratingly, started to and then veered off course again. your honesty is inspiring. i have wanted to give up alot lately but won't let myself....i feel like i am given many chances, as i bet you are. my sis told me to take a deep breath today and i realized how much i have been holding my breath lately.....ugh, i need to get back into yoga.
good luck to you, have fun, and don't be too hard on yourself. i bet you are accomplishing beautiful things right alongside of feeling 'not together'. oh, just a thought about the hawks too : my bro told me once that some native american legend has it that whatever animal(s) confront you alot are your spirit animal. if that be the case i am/was a grackle! so from this scrag a grackle to the hawk.....soar on!!!!  IP: Logged |
Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted December 29, 2003 12:47 AM
Thank you for your kind words, I'm kinda past the feeling sorry for myself(unless I'm just now digging deeper) Actually I have a hard time of it, because I'm so "aware" all the time. Neptune plays a big part in me and because I failed this Saturn test, Neptune is going to be that much harder to face. I Set my chart up to succeed....and I will...For now though, I'm just trying to just ride back down to earth and perhaps do my life's work just the same. I will have another chance, may be this life, may not be....the point is I could've had it NOW. Needless to say I'm understanding this lesson well. Make no mistakes I'll be ready for Saturn next time.
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Ra
Moderator Posts: 2641
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Registered: Apr 2001
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posted December 30, 2003 05:02 AM
Raines
You are never absent from my thoughts and prayers. I have felt things have been ... difficult (is that an understatement?) for you, and I am very happy to see that you are making it. But like spiria said, do not be too hard on yourself. What you call failure will, in retrospect, be seen as part of the success. There is a reason, right? Maybe I should step up my prayers a bit?
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Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted December 31, 2003 10:53 PM
Funny how you can find the things when you need them, hence, another computer for a minute.
I know things will be o.k. but only when I let all this go. I never knew I was so stubborn. I think I'm finally 'cracking' though and honestly I say, FINALLY!!Soon IP: Logged |
Randall
Webmaster Posts: 16464
From: Columbus, GA USA
Registered: Nov 2000
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posted January 01, 2004 01:10 PM
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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark IP: Logged |
astro junkie
Knowflake Posts: 1325
From: orlando, fl
Registered: Nov 2003
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posted January 05, 2004 12:07 AM
Hey Raines:I'm a struggling co-soul newbie here. Whoever you are, nice to meet you. For what it's worth, I have REALLY difficult Saturn challenges this lifetime. And I don't mean whenever I have a Saturn return. I mean, EVERY SINGLE DAY. So if you'd like to open up and talk about what in particular your goal was, I'd be interested in knowing and perhaps offering you some help, or sharing in my experience. I couldn't find any birthdate info on you, but it DOES sound like you are being hard on yourself. Just had this feeling come over me like we are the proverbial actors on the stage, our astrological charts being scripts. UH!! Anyways, I've found more and more peace in believing that most of everything we go through actually has very little to do with us. At first it's a scary thought because we feel loss of control. But now I embrace it because it also means I'm not expected to go it alone, it's not all completely up to me. That's where the Source comes in... Talk about a blessing in disguise! with love & support, .gloria ------------------
it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness... IP: Logged |
Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted January 13, 2004 03:41 AM
Thanks astro. My Saturn is in 29 degrees Gemini in the 8th house. I'm 'stealing' another moment at a computer, so I really don't have that long....I'm trying to figure out lots of things right now. The universe has done a 180 on me and I'm not sure what is what. ") Everything is either really good or, maybe I should say and really bad. If you care to look at my chart, my Birthday is 7-31-73. Be back as soon as I can.Ra, I reopened my old e-mail if you want to e-mail me. Boy do I have things to tell you. IP: Logged |
astro junkie
Knowflake Posts: 1325
From: orlando, fl
Registered: Nov 2003
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posted January 13, 2004 06:42 AM
OH BOY! You do have challenges. The first intuitive thought I get is that you would make an excellent novelist!And here's what else comes to mind. Have you ever had trouble with "stealing" things, or thinking about it? I don't know who you are, so you can say as little or as much as you'd like. As for your 29 degrees Saturn in Gemini, this along with many other placements in your chart (at a quick glance only), would cause you to be VERY impulsive! Especially with issues having to do with money and security which ends up going really wrong. You said you didn't know anyone who has Saturn in 29 degrees, (called an Anaretic, but I have a strongly placed Asc in Taurus at 29.48 degrees. The Anaretics are notorius for causing us to procrastinate with issues relating to planet/sign/house placements in question, but then leading to a very RASH decision. Diving into the pool before checking to see if there is any water. Other thoughts: The hurt you are feeling now has everything to do with having let people down, specifically those closest to you. You've made clear you've set your standards high for yourself and them, but then you cannot live up to them. You may be thinking too much about what goes wrong, and get physically ill. with love & support, .gloria ------------------
it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness... IP: Logged |
NikiSpeedy
Knowflake Posts: 280
From: NC
Registered: Jul 2003
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posted January 14, 2004 12:54 AM
Hello -
I also have a 29 degree Saturn--in Virgo in 10th conjunct south node -- WANNA TRADE??Believe me, when i "mess up" -- the whole world knows about it. I seem to be living in that "space" for some time now and surely a new start is on the way with this new ONE YEAR!!! IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 2641
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Registered: Apr 2001
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posted January 14, 2004 04:22 AM
Hi Raines I have no doubt there is plenty to tell. So, your e-mail address is ... my computer has crashed a couple of times since the last time, but I might have it printed out somewhere ... I'll check and let you know.  IP: Logged |
Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted January 21, 2004 03:57 AM
I do have the mind of a criminal but really only to "improve" the techniques of stupid criminals. I guess I could write books on crime.") Most of all you say is true, I'm working on it though.Niki, not on a bet.
I've been thinking of calling you but not sure of a good time.
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astro junkie
Knowflake Posts: 1325
From: orlando, fl
Registered: Nov 2003
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posted January 22, 2004 01:07 AM
...Interesting...Well, I'm a writer (fiction to protect the innocent)... So if ya wanna pass anything interesting on, story ideas or collaborate, let me know... if that is something that interests you that is... and it's got to be something that would help you in some way too... .gloria ------------------
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pocco
Knowflake Posts: 50
From: Bangalore, Karnataka, India
Registered: Nov 2003
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posted January 22, 2004 02:24 AM
Hi Raines.I'm new here too. Don't worry about Saturn too much. I'm sure that the efforts that you've been putting will get you out of the mess. Take care. You'll be there in my prayers. pocco IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 2641
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Registered: Apr 2001
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posted January 22, 2004 04:03 AM
Heya Raines I deleted your e-mail address after I wrote it down. That okay? Sending you an e-mail now - let me know if you get it!  IP: Logged |
Raines
Knowflake Posts: 739
From: Mississippi
Registered: May 2001
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posted February 29, 2004 01:22 AM
That's fine, Ra. Sorry I'm not around much, no computer and all. Life's been boring lately, nothing going on, spiritally anyway. I guess if I put a little effort into it.....Pocco, I can use all the prayers I can get, thanks. ") IP: Logged |
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