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Topic: Twin Souls
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Bev1965
Knowflake Posts: 8
From: Roselle, IL
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted January 07, 2005 10:47 PM
 
i believe my ex husband and i were twin souls. Except for his alcholism. it created much chaos in our life and he ended up sabatoging the relationship thru drinking more and more, having an affair only two months after our marriage. He ultimatley ws put on admin. leave due to his reckless behavior and it did involve his girlfriend too....here i sit. Pondering, what if's He was my second alcholic i married. my sons father and i divorced when my son was only 1 yr old. He evetually died in 1998 at age 38 from complications of alcholism. The thing about my latest ex husband...LEO i will call him (hes a leo/gemini rising ...me CAPRICORN/gemini rising too.) I do astrology too, we had som good trines, between mervury/venus. hard aspects were my saturn squared his moon (as did his own natally) I have been searching for signs in astrology regarding "RECOVERY/SOBRIETY" transits to look for. I have detereimed that his MARS progressed from Libra to SCOPRIO plays a huge part of this progression in his disease. But I just wonder if the natal has more influence over the progressed. He had major transits this past year too. Uranus square moon in the 12th (the affair-she is a controlling/drinker too left her husband of 15 yrs and 3 kids) She is an Aquaruan too!
So that explains that, and then he had Pluto Oppose Jupiter in his first house (the job he is a police man) so....i am searching min eand his to see what the story is. I last spoke to him and he told me he loved me and he is working on himself (on/off drinking and in AA) he revealed alot to me about how he and his drinking ruined us. He made me cry. He said he loved me and always will...ect..maybe someday...I dont know what to think. I guess I am waiting, because without the drinking we get along. He knows this, but he just couldnt handle it/us./me.
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NeoKitty
Knowflake Posts: 307
From: Heaven
Registered: Dec 2004
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posted January 10, 2005 09:18 PM
I don't know what advice to give...
I can partly relate though...   I detest drinking spirits/alcohol, I find one becomes possessed by evil type spirits. Seemingly anyway, it's like they are not themselves and they're eyes, oh their eyes are no longer windows to THEIR soul, but, instead to a mean demon, that you don't know. 
Until the next day, and they're back again. I feel the pain.
Be strong.
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Bev1965
Knowflake Posts: 8
From: Roselle, IL
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted January 10, 2005 09:29 PM
thanks for listening...IP: Logged |
sesame
Moderator Posts: 647
From: Brisbane, QLD, Oz
Registered: Nov 2003
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posted January 11, 2005 12:55 AM
Yes, a good book to help understand is "Relationship Signs" (Linda Goodman). I thought it was very insightful in understanding aspects you didn't know were there. I am actually going to buy it for a friend who has problems with alcohol and I will just do there chart through the book. I wonder what will show... I'm thinking this person has many conflicts, and by giving them the book with all relevent sections marked, hopefully they will learn more about themselves and discover ways to help themselves. As Pearl Jam say
"Help me
to help you
help yourself!"Dean. IP: Logged |
miss_apples
Knowflake Posts: 352
From: white bear lake, MN, USA
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted January 11, 2005 01:20 AM
I am reading "Star Signs" and Im currently on the chapter about Karma. This makes me wonder if there is a karmic reason why you have married 2 alcoholic husbands, which could hold the awnser on what you are supposed to do or what you are supposed to look forward to dealing with this guy. Just a thought  IP: Logged |
miss_apples
Knowflake Posts: 352
From: white bear lake, MN, USA
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted January 11, 2005 01:29 AM
By the way I would like to correct myself, the chapter in "Star Signs" I am currently reading is called "Deja Vu" but it touches on Karma a great deal IP: Logged |
26taurus
Moderator Posts: 4223
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
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posted January 11, 2005 01:42 AM
Welcome to LindaLand Bev, I'm sorry to hear you are in pain. Alcoholism is so prevalent in our society and affects so many peoples lives unfortunately. He probably IS one of your soulmates, but I dont believe it is in all of our "scripts" to be with one of our soulmates for the rest of our lives. Sometimes you come together, do the things you need to do with each other on this earth, and seperate when youve reached a certain point. That doesnt mean you will never love again or you dont have another, even better, soulmate waiting out there for you. It is okay to feel hurt. You can only heal yourself by going through the hurt, but not getting so down that you give up. Make this a time for you to heal and learn to Love yourself better. I dont think it is a coincidence that you married two alcoholics. You need to look within and figure out why this is. Most of all forgive yourself. You are learning like we all are on this earth plane. Try to look at these things as learning experiences and chances for you to choose something different next time love knocks on your door. Dont put your life on hold for this man. If he is really going to change, he can only do it himself. And if he does fully turn around down the road, you might consider taking him back. Or, you might not. You are changing too and what you want now, may be completely different down the road. Use this as a time to work on yourself. Because we can only attract people at the level we are at. I'm sure deep down he's a good guy, but I think you deserve better. I know it's hard. I've dealt with alot of alcoholics in my life and it's not easy. Dont let them fool you either. Use this time to learn to love yourself. That is where it all begins.
26 Here is an interesting article you might enjoy. "The One" http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/001239.html IP: Logged |
26taurus
Moderator Posts: 4223
From: the stars
Registered: Jun 2004
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posted January 11, 2005 01:44 AM
Also, if he was truly your twin flame, you wouldnt be in pain right now. You wouldnt have to ask these questions. IP: Logged | |
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