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Topic: im so sad
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monad
Knowflake Posts: 366
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Registered: Dec 2004
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posted March 03, 2005 10:08 AM
 
I try and stay happy and you come along.
And ruin it when you walk away.
I tell myself i know you like me.
And i know we will be together
But i am prepared for failure
Which is certain.
I need you.
Which is obvious.
Although I can be happy by myself.
I would die without you.
Have you forsaken me?
Or is it I who have forsaken me?
In a land devoid of light.
A world where I feel I do not belong.
When all hope is lost.
Where have all the lovers gone?
Is it not cool anymore to be in a relationship?
Help Me!
I see people together but not me;
I see people alone like me.
What about me?
Do I have a choice?
Is my twin self really truly always really really near.
There must be someone here for me somewhere.
I have no idea who though.
Theyre all already in relationships.
Should I try and break up someone elses relationship if i know that the resulting relationship with me instead is better?
Do I have a choice?
I dont know.
No really everybody there is absolutely nobody in this entire world who would want to be my girlfriend.
You either want me or you dont youve had plenty of time to decide.
So I guess the answer's no then?
I need you I need you !
Is that ok?
I need you because it is better together.
There must be someone that wants to be my friend.I choose to ignore a sad perspective.
And continue to be happy still.
Happy but cynical unhopeful worthy doomed
crying alone who needs to be alone?
I understand that you have a right to make up your own mind. Does there comes a time when I tell you what you need?
Why have i never been approached.
I would love you.
Dont you know?
Or is it you who has the low esteem now?
Or did it just get bigger?
I hope your all where you are supposed to be.
I know I am not.
Appreciate the value in me, as I appreciate you. Let me love you, let me be your friend.
Who am I kidding who would want me.
I have no need for children or extra money
I am happy just the way I am
Wont you come join me?
Of course it would be great.
Why would I want you if I didnt think you wanted me too?
There seems to be no one here or anywhere anytime for me and I am sad.
Please join me it can be as serious as you like.
Do I really need to explain myself?
Dont you know how you can be happiest, on earth?
Together in love.
Is it too much to ask?
I dont think it is too much to ask.
Im not that bad am I?
Dont be so mean to me.
Kiss the son lest he be angry.
Please recognise my desire for you when you see me I hope you realise your true desire for me, too.
Let us never part again.
OK?
*No reason to believe but hopeful now*
I know what you want -or do I?
The not knowing is hell.
Please be a little more obvious.
I know! you let me know what you want somehow and I will take it from there.
Or is that how its always been?
I sure do hope i see YOU soon.
Otherwise stay the hell away from me and stop playing games with my heart.
When you turn me down time and time again.
I feel like giving up.
And I am sad again.
I dont seek to control you
My feelings show
You dont want me I know
Who would ?
The world around me is evidence enough
That we can never be together
Me and not anyone
Its certain
What can i do?
Who wants to be anything more than happy?
Who wants to be rich?
Who cares?
All that disappears when you are here
My world is you
If you let me
But you are certain that we can never be one
Me and not anyone
It is done
It can be seen
How much happier can we be than when we are in each others arms?
How much of a better place is the universe when we are so happy together?
Dont you get it?
Would I die without you?
What more of a reason do I need to want you?
Dont even worry about it.
There will be another one for me.
So dont feel sorry for me.
Will my time come again?
I dont know. You just sit back and watch the world go by.
Im a relly nice person
Dont you know?
Has someone told you lies?
Surely I say to myself that this emptyness cannot go on forever...Or can it?
How do I know that you will want me?
Why should I make you my god?
When you leave me time after time alone.
And I get back up anyway. IP: Logged |
Xannie
Knowflake Posts: 16
From: Arizona
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted March 04, 2005 05:10 AM
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26taurus
Knowflake Posts: 10916
From: Death
Registered: Jun 2004
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posted March 04, 2005 01:24 PM
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Bluemoon
Knowflake Posts: 4018
From: Stafford, VA USA
Registered: Feb 2005
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posted March 04, 2005 06:49 PM
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LeoSweetHeart
Knowflake Posts: 539
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Registered: Nov 2004
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posted March 04, 2005 07:05 PM
Sometimes I see the world as you do, full of single people who just want to have fun and not be in a relatioship. Then when I am happy in mine, I see everyone together and in Love. But I do have to say that the idea of a relationship is not as stressed anymore and casual dating is on TV and in schools (in my small social world  ). But do not give up hope in falling in love if that is what you want Monad because It IS True and does exist. Why did that girl leave? If she doesn't return, there WILL be others after her. I have also found when I put pressure on something happening for me that I want, it takes that much longer to get it. I think that is the Universes way of telling me "No no no, your not ready for this blessing because you are placing too much importance on it..your not ready for it". You will come to learn that Love is freedom and independance as well as sweet comprises and sharing of hearts. By independance, I mean each person is usually better off if they are both strong and happy alone, so they don't smother the other. I recently learned that one  Anyways sweety, I'm sorry your so sad lately. I sincerely wish the best for you  What I said is just advice, I don't mean to judge or tell you what to do. I just like to offer my words of "wisdom"  (at least for ME) IP: Logged |
zoso
Knowflake Posts: 703
From: Death Valley USA
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 04, 2005 08:32 PM
Maybe she feels the same way about you. I always push people away when I love them too much, especially if I love them too much, because I can't take rejection very well (who can?)Try to find the little hints that she gives you, sometimes those little hints mean so much more than anything else. Everything will work out, don't worry. IP: Logged |
zoso
Knowflake Posts: 703
From: Death Valley USA
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted March 04, 2005 11:16 PM
By the way, Monad, do you think your special someone knows how you feel for her?IP: Logged |
BlueTopaz124
Knowflake Posts: 1181
From: Portland, OR
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted March 06, 2005 11:43 AM
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