posted April 16, 2005 01:59 AM         

I may well have been dreaming, but this seemed to be reality. I wasn't afriad at all. In fact I was thinking "why is she coming into my room? i'm going to pretend i'm sleeping and just watch"... but the figure came to my bed and it had this weird face, like... hollow eyes and suddenly it spread its arms over me and it's face seemed wretched with fury and I screamed as loud as I could and started kicking the air wildly!!!

I rushed up to turn on the light, but nothing was there. I got up and made a cup of tea. I wasn't terrified. Just a bit spooked. It was only 1am.

No one else was home... I did go back to bed, but I left the light in the hallway on.

I can't stop thinking about this today. It was so real. I want to say it was a dream, but... It doesn't seem that way at all in my mind!

What do you think it was? Do you think I dreamed it? I was wide awake the whole time... There was no "waking up" kicking and screaming... I consciously kicked and screamed when this swirl of shadows swirled around over my bed and jumped up and turned on the light.

I can still see the whole episode clearly in my head.

I just don't know what to make of it.

The only similar thing that happened to me was about 6 months ago. There was a serial rapist in my area and I admit I was a little anxious and paranoid about it, locking all my doors and windows and checking twice, etc and freaking out a little if I thought about it too much in bed (he would break into houses where single women lived).

Anyway, this time I was laying awake at 3am or so and my door was ajar. I watched the door open and a figure come in. I thought it was my roommate again until the figure was in my room and I realized it was a man!!!

I was so petrified I hid under the covers and tried to talk but all that would come out ws "mmm... mmmm"... whimpering!!! I finally got out "what do you want?"... no answer. After sweating under my covers for a period of time, I finally had the nerve to peek and nothing was there. I think I wrote about it here too. Maybe not. I thought it was a man. A real man. Solid. A human. Not a ghost. Not a dream.

I'm wondering if I'm crazy or if anyone has any sort of explanation or something similar that happened to them.

Could I be doing something that is attracting some sort of malevolent spirit? Last night's experience, if it indeed was a spirit... was definitely malevolent. The man did not scare me or do anything malevolent. the only reason I was petrified was because... I thought a strange man was in my bedroom at 3am. I thought it was the serial rapist.

posted April 16, 2005 08:34 AM         

I don't ever ever EVER "meddle" in things or try to "contact"... stuff... if by that you mean ouija boards and related things...

The only stuff I get up to is read my astrology books, occaisonally read my tarot cards and before I go to bed I do affirmations in my head... that's all.

posted April 17, 2005 07:50 AM         

However, the "Old Hag" syndrome involves sleep paralysis... I wasn't paralyzed at all. When the figure entered, I sort of sat up on my elbows and watched it come towards me and when it swirled above me, I was freely kicking and audibly screaming...

I prefer to think it's some psychic energy my roommate sent out cause anything else is beginning to freak me out :/