posted August 03, 2005 02:16 PM         

I asked him if he was weary of life and he replied "yes", I asked if he had had enough of living,to which he replied "if it wasnt for your mum, I wouldnt bother carrying on". He admitted that to me, and I felt honoured that he could...........you see I have been there, not wanting to live..........we are kindred spirits.......we have an understanding of the suffering and struggle being human can bring.

It was until hours later that I realised he didnt mention wanting to live for his grandkids or his daughters............strange that isnt it? At one time I would have been in bits over that, but not now, I am reaching an understanding which has brought me to a place of calm and acceptance..........
**************************"x**************************My lovely music teacher and I were talking about death - we both being Scorpio have a certain fascination. Anyway he told me a while back his phone rang early in the morning, it was his neighbour, her husband had died and she called my teacher and his wife over. He said there was the poor old boy laid out on the bed and stone cold. His missus was slagging him for all she was worth "he was a right fecker, drinking and throwing all our shagging money away etc etc". He said it was a really bizarre situation, and almost surreal............maybe she didnt do it when he was alive, and wanted to get her two penneth in whilst he couldnt hear her - I laughed my socks off when he told me this story, so Irish
******************************************************And finally......

The same teacher told me that the local pub in the village where we lived lost a very popular woman, she was the landlady and everyone loved her.......the craic (fun) and ceol (music) to be had in their was mighty and everyone frequented it often. Her wake was held in the pub - her coffin was open and everyone danced and sang around her. Oooooh they used to stand the coffin UP in days of old but this tradition has died out now. When he finishes telling the story he said "oh Sue you would have loved it, it was really you" and I replied "how so" and he said "it was really traditionally Irish, the old ways".

When I got home I laughed, cos I am English...........aaahh those past lives seems to follow me everywhere.......maybe in one of them they stood me up in my coffin in the pub, with all the fiddlers playing and I bet I danced my a**** off too LOL!!

Love to all - enjoy life

Sue xx

posted August 04, 2005 12:17 PM         

I'm in a state of 'take it with a grain of salt' right now. Not sure if you've heard of them, but when I read your post, I was listening Megadeth with their song 'Skin O' My Teeth'. I never paid attention to the lyrics until recently...and I think the end is funny, in a twisted way. Here goes:

"I won't feel the hurt
I'm not trash any longer
That that doesn't kill me
Only makes me stronger
I need a ride to the morgue
That's what 911 is for
So, tag my toe and don't forget
Ooh to close the drawer" (then you hear a drawer slamming shut!)

posted August 04, 2005 01:47 PM         

Hey Whale, arent you a Pisces man? My man is Virgo and he attracts a few fishes as friends. I dont think you morbid just hugely sensitivie (my chart has a feel of Pisces with the Neptune/Sun conj), so I am not a stranger to morbidity myself! Although having said that most of the Pisces males I know are well into taking drugs - is this the huge need for the fishes to swim away from the "reality"? I can well understand this and the way my Dad has always suffered. Do you know what I said to him "Dad you are not meant for this world, you are above all this". He went very quiet, I think I made him cry

How strange you should post, I was with a woman the other night, she asked me to help her with advice and a reading. She Virgo, her ex Pisces, she said he found it hard to connect with others and does lots of dope. Isnt this quite common? I wanted to talk to you about this but felt you may not want to reply (I am sensitive to others' feelings - must be my bloody Pisces feel ha ha). Didnt wanna push.

Anyway, I have found Pisces people to have huge insight into life and to be very mediumistic, what do you think Whale. Are you still listening to Alice in Chains. When I listen to Nutshell,I always think, aahh this is one of Whales songs

Good luck to you - keep posting, lovely to hear from you

Love and peace

posted August 04, 2005 02:44 PM         

Whale- have you heard the new Megadeth- The system has failed ?

hahhaa, Dave says a whole lot more in this new piece. "KICK THE CHAIR" !

posted August 04, 2005 02:51 PM         

Weird about your Dad. My 'Papa' as I've always called him, sounds alot similar to your Dad. My Mom is not speaking to him anymore, and the poor guy is taking it hard, just like I would. Nothing makes my day better than when I visit him on weekends, and feel how happy he is to see me. (We usually end up listening to his Oldies from the '60's, and drink alot of beer!) He's so sincere and humble. A real Aquarian he is.