posted September 17, 2005 01:47 PM         

First of all she told me my energy was very light....and there was plenty of devilment (sort of fun stuff in irish terms, well mischevious, imp like etc) about me. Then she said "oh you DO feel pulled to the dark side at times dont you"......I wasnt surprised to hear this cos I had feelings and fleeting impressions of dark stuff all my life................

So this is my question friends....do you think that people, maybe yourself or friends that come into this life to do "light" work were often in previous carnations doing "dark" work......well you know I have said that I swing from to ...........and I have proof (thro past life recall work) that I most certainly was involved in .....errrr.....arts of an "interesting" kind......

Is this what the karmic lesson is........to come back and evolve into a lighter vibration........no coincidence as a young one I got drawn to heavy metal.....dressed in black all the time, then went onto marry a guy who is a fan of the same and likes horror films and some unusual stuff (he has a pure side too). So I was not surprised that he was with me in the "caven of horror" ha ha all those hundreds of years ago..........and funnily enough we both have Venus in 8th house..........

Does this make sense or am I ranting again.........???

Love to all

posted September 17, 2005 02:09 PM         

I have been very bad in other incarnations,
cast evil spells and turned people rather ugly.
Please for give me,
that was a very long time ago.

Love and Light to ALL

posted September 17, 2005 02:49 PM         

Magus, I think the Venus in Scorpio in 8th definately has that connotation and in the 8th in general. Yer man I was telling you about, he also had it in the 8th in Scorp, there was a pull there alright...... he has 4 planets in Scorp and Libra at 29 deg, It felt like we had travelled similar dark paths even tho he never displayed it consciously,,,,,do you get me....its just a feeling isnt it? I think its known as reading between the lines?

Isnt that difficult then when you are aware of this, even if I see this guy I feel a bit strange so I have to stay away, and he was one of the most "familiar" Id ever met......and the light side of him was very light, like me, we had great craic together............I dont know, I just have been told over and over....protection, protection............

So........its a challenge isnt it?

posted September 17, 2005 02:54 PM         

I did not feel hate, I felt pain and sorrow,
and I'm glad things are good now.

posted September 17, 2005 02:58 PM         

No matter girl, we live and learn dont we?

posted September 17, 2005 03:00 PM         

Yeh, I SEE alot of polarities now, Love
Hate, yes extreme, I'll tone it down, lol.

Big Smiles for you and me

posted September 17, 2005 04:52 PM         

No I didnt see that one, but will try to now you have spoken of it......sounds interesting.

Thanks for that

Love

posted September 17, 2005 06:34 PM         

I was raised as a Jehovas Witness....very strict and unyielding to put it mildly. My mother got out of that religion when I was 13 or so, so I got to have a life outside of the rules and regulations (and dogma of couse) and the 70s for me was a blast....I was able to go out and really express myself...I was a real rock chic ha ha !!

I am not able for religion at all.....and like I said before my mother used to ram the holy bible down our throats. I can remember as young as 7or 8 thinking "no this isnt for me", I wasnt comfortable with it....I loathed the meetings we were made to go to and could feel the hypocrisy of who we called "brothers and sisters".....

But, what it did leave me with was a huge spiritual belief.....and that has never gone from me....even when I almost died giving birth...I knew it was all for a reason...I didnt think negatively..and when bad things happen to me, I am able to give thanks, thats how strong my faith is, it rarely sways !!

The biggest test of faith for me was 7 months ago....our house set on fire and I ran out of the house with our little one...all we could do was watch the flames leaping out of the roof and the windows...and all we could do is pray. I was so clear in my prayers....such a huge test for me...and exactly what I prayed for came....I was delighted, yet not surprised...and of course eternally grateful !!

I understand the Karmic lessons all too well (wished I didnt at times)...I know I have met one in particular who tore me apart...I know he was my son who I gave away, he was a lot more to me too, and the lesson there was for me to let go of him..which I am working thro now....but still a little pulled, I find it hard to look at him.....I love him very much.

Also I know I will come across others from that life and other lives who will pull me, but I am learning to protect myself more now......I am meeting beautiful souls who I recognise - quite a few in the last year or so...who have "saved" me at times.

So this is a little of what I live thro....hope i didnt go on too much...I find life amazing, one minute down on your knees and the next being lifted up.......never dull, always surprising !!

Love to all

posted September 17, 2005 07:57 PM         

No I don't think your blathering on, I enjoy hearing what you have to say and I think with all the things you've been through in this life, you'll be rewarded in the next.
When you talk about almost dying in childbirth and you said even though it was painful for you you accept it and understand it's a part of life. You can't have one without the other. I suppose in order to really appreciate life we go through light times and dark times?
You made me think about my own experience of giving birth. It was both exhilirating and at the same moment horrifying. I say horrifying because of the pain of feeling the knife slicing into me and being awake for it. Luckily my body has healed in the past year and I'm actually thinking of having another child if you can imagine that!LOL
You brang back another memory when I was a child brought up a Catholic and being forced to go to church on Sundays. Me and my sister Margaret and my brother Matthew would all conspire to play hooky from church!
I think after going to Catholic school all my life has made me unorthodox in my dealings with religion in general meaning that I'm very open-minded about it.
Growing up when I was a teenager I was a headbanger! Went to all the heavy metal concerts and headbangers balls as they were called back then. It was a fun time!
Went through the spandex, dark and gothic, shaved my head at one time.
Ooh! there's a thunderstorm here so I'd better sign off for now!

posted September 18, 2005 11:06 AM         

And thanks for your story....we seem to have similar experiences....me too used to be a headbanger (still am sometimes)...I always felt the need to express myself thro the body/creatively and religion often frowns upon that doesnt it. Our particualr brand of it forbid:

Listening to rock music
having sex before marriage
wearing skirts above the knee (yeah honestly)
celebrating Christmas, Birthdays, Easter (all pagan festivals)
smoking, consuming booze
dating "others" (outside of the organisation)
dancing (as it provoked the opposite sex)
etc etc etc

I think we were just about allowed to breathe.......but my oh my...it was so tough....enough to make anyone be a heathen isnt it!

I said to my ma a while back "I am a heathen mum" and she said "oh dont say that our Susan" and I replied "well what do you think it means" then I told her it was someone who didnt believe in organised religion. I think she thought it was a worshipper (I didnt tell her I was one of them too LOL).

Oh guys to be F R E E to C H O O S E...........

I am glad to have discovered that I dont need any of that stuff to have FAITH.....its a great place to be..

Love

Sue xx

posted September 18, 2005 07:27 PM         

Have been told a number of things about my past lives and things that I was and did back then. Funny how it all really fits into this one. I lived a many life times with the golden spoon stick in my mouth, Lived the life of royalty, was a King once, taught alot of things to others, so when the student is ready the teacher will come. Some how along the way I abuised my gifts and powers, used them and others for selfless means. Tried to force things to happen, I started to believe in might makes right.

I have always been a man in each life time and this is my first time here as a woman.
Didn't have much respect for women and was told that I thought that they should all be bare footed and pregnant, cooking me pot pie. Didn't they know where their place was, so you see in this life time, if someone puts one of my lady friends down or me for that matter, I will stand up like a truck driver and fend for there rights.

I also didn't have much time for any other race or creed, spent alot of my lives with the northern ones. Fair haired and skin. I was also told that people of all creeds and breeds would be some of my best friends in this life. I guess I caused alot of up-sets for other races with my power. Boy did I every cry the first time I seen the movie Roots and what they did to the slaves.. I was only very little at the time and didn't know anything about past lives yet but when I did I really feel that I may have played a bigger part in something just like that. I was told that the first part of my life would be to clean up negative krama with others and my Mother was one of my slaves and if she didn't have my boiled egg brought to me in 3mins or so, that I would have had her badly beaten. (SAD)
So I didn't think anything was good enough when growing up and I always wanted the best of everything. Father would shake his emty rye glass with ice at 3, 4 in the morning and say make me another one, get me up to make his boss breakfast and took my 50.00 tap once. My parents didn't practice what they preached and were fighting and dranking all the time. Always wondered way the little girl next store had a better life than mine. I was paying up you see.

Will I have to go and make some supper WITH my husband, but will check in later to see whats going on.

Love You SueG!!!

You shine alot of light around here and have some really inspiring thoughts going on inside you girl!!!

posted September 19, 2005 12:22 PM         

Thanks a million for the stories - Wow, and they make perfect sense dont they.....isnt it great to be open to all these amazing things we go thro. Thanks for your kind words too.....means a lot

Thanks Sesame

And I agree about Scorps being attracted to the light and dark.....so true man......so true......form to

posted September 19, 2005 12:42 PM         

thank ggodness

posted September 19, 2005 01:12 PM         

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Why would anyone desire or make haha about the so called dark side?

And I resent the notion that all Scorpios are associated with that pull. Sue I have no desire to walk those paths, and I know it is putting friction between us.

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I also believe Scorpios are attracted to matters of light and dark? i.e. paranormal, death, etc.

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