posted November 03, 2005 06:10 PM         

If this is very out of the ordinary for you, and has progressively gotten worse, there may be a physical cause to blame, like hypothyroidism, liver disease or chronic fatigue syndrome....even pregnancy and menopuase (any chance you're pregnant or going into menopause early?) Get yourself checked out by your doctor, and have him/her check you out for physical causes (and since you're a woman, this should inculde a pap smear and all that female jazz). In most cases these physical problem can be quickly addressed.

If it's not physical,a nd you're feeling suicidal, you need to see a psychiatrist for evaluation. It may be that you are overstressed and overfatigued, causing a slight serotonin imbalance. That can be remedied with SSRIs (antidepressant liek Zoloft or Prozac), if you are willing to take them (they, like all drugs, do have side effects). Normally a psychiatrist will want you to see a therapists in addition to medication, which can help you understand any emotional issues, life changes or lack of changes that may have trigger this bout of depression.

If you don't want to try SSRIs or can't afford them, you can try goign to a creditable herbalist, and they will mostly likely put you on a detoxifying regime first and then suggest a rgime that can help stablize or improve your mood. However, I wouldn't do the herbal thing before getting yourself to the doctor for a physical.

posted November 03, 2005 06:58 PM         

I experienced 'dark night of the soul' once and came out really quick (a weeks time). One thing is we must not fear at all. What is there to fear about? What is there to be guilty about? You are a good person underneath thats all that matters.

posted November 04, 2005 02:04 AM         

I am also in no place to say what the problem is either, but I can talk about my very recent experience with depression, so that if you feel it may also apply to you, it could help you. Well I just learned that the cause of my long bout of depression lied in the fact that I've been too reflective and turned inwards and not enough outwards. I've been analyzing myself as well as the rest of the world's problems so much so that I forgot to stop and enjoy myself every once in a while. I became too far removed from the people in my life and people who were not spiritually in sync with me, which are most, that I got really lonely and untrusting. Also as much as I worked to not be egotistical through my spiritual quest, I realized that I did have a condescending attitude about those who did not TRY/ WORK to transcend themselves the same way. So in finally learning to accept others with their limitations of self awareness and to love what beautiful gifts each individual has, I've started feeling my dark cloud clearing up and I feel I've transcended even further. I don't know about you but I need social interaction and acceptance of the world to be happy and my former views were holding me back from that. I must be involved in life and doing the things that make me happy/my passions and growing side by side with others who support me. I think its really important to not become to detached from life in order to feel, well alive.

I'm so sorry if all that was giberish to you, I'm only putting it out there because theres a possibility it will help you. Also I may be able to help more if you tell me how your depression feels......

Are you feeling so detached from the life that you see no reason to be here?
or
Are you really sad because something traumatic happened to you that you can't get past? (This may take some searching, it could be something your not fully concious of.)
or
Does the world seem to always disappoint because its not always an ideal place to be? Are you a really sensitive soul?

posted November 04, 2005 08:10 AM         

Reading any good books atm? This might sound trivial, but to me, it can affect my moods considerably. I try to alternate between fictional (usually fantasy) to factual/learning books. Conversations with God is a good one to understand perspective. I wish you the best.

And some light...