posted August 07, 2006 03:18 AM         

We had an exercise tonight where we were paired with a partner and we had to combine our funny stories from the past and we had to have our own individual theme. My paryner's theme was on relationships with an introvert and my theme was about the introvert.

I was the last presnter to go on stage and I felt very nervous and I has started talking about introverts......."I'm an introvert and none of us ever go on stage because we have spotlight phobia. I wanted to start a support group for introverts but could never find any cause most of us are in hiding. Most introverts run away from attention and it can be a challenge when an introvert's partner is a major attemntion seeking extravert....." Then I froze up and my mind went blank.

I felt full of energy when I left and needed an outlet. I know that I can no longer sit back and be quiet cause I now must go out and open up and express myself. If I don't I get anxiety and don't want to even go back on meds for it.

I think through time, I shall get used to opening up and expressing myself in front of a lot of people.

Tonight, I can now see how I am hard on myself. I think for a person who has sat in a corner for 30 some odd years being quiet and now getting up on stage to do joke is something amazing to see. My friends are quite proud of me and supportive - encouraging.

I know later on I will need to come back here and "unload" my mind....

Thank you for listening to me.....

ID

posted August 08, 2006 01:16 AM         

I took an acting class and on the first day we had to get up in front of everyone and do a monologue...

I was so nervous I thought I was going to pass out.

It gets better, in time.....