posted October 02, 2007 09:06 AM         

I'm doing fine, Aphrodite.

I quit my weekend job!

I am taking a break from working the extra days/hours for a while.

I enjoyed the people I met there (patrons)... but I never could really get use to or feel good about helping certain ones along in their self destruction. No walking away at the end of the day with a sense of pride.

I'm friends with the owner... he understood and told me that I was welcome back whenever I was ready.

I've been missing the outdoors pretty bad for a while. It's time to get back out there.

posted October 03, 2007 12:35 PM         

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oh yeah, tuxie Two knows this old cat and mouse song, do you?
"Loves to eat them mousies!
Mousies what I loves to eat!
First i bites their heads off!
Then I nibbles on theys feet!"
LOL tuxedo Meow

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posted October 03, 2007 06:09 PM         

I lurv this thread. It's so wholesome.

Well, I have been away (from where I usually am). I am still away and I have been spending time with my mother in the last few days, who I hardly see since leaving home a few years back. I speak to her everyday regardless, but just being around her is so lovely. I'm the youngest so I am unlikely to let go of the apron-strings anytime soon.

I am so inspired(creatively) lately. I am especially proud of the poem I wrote since I suck at poetry. I made a conscious decision, a while back, to write poetry until I can.

Here's the poem.

"Returning Home to You

Falling asleep in your warm embrace
Fears and worries left without a trace
There is someone to hold while I’m sleeping
A sweet lullaby of your gentle breathing

A long-awaited welcome of surrender
As all walls and barriers are broken asunder
Because wonder and adventure now fills my days
And all doubts and pains belong in yesterdays

Imagination left when reality proved better
When intense desires turned thought into matter
Gratitude replacing all wanton incompletion
As longing dwells only in silhouetted retrospection

Choosing to wake up for the day; not just letting it be
For at the end of the day I know you await me
With heart and arms opened in reverence
For one of many returns in your deliverance"

I was writing lyrics when it came up. I usually write rhymes for 'rap' (hip-hop) not poetry in a traditional sense. I also wrote a song, but I do that often so it's nothing to speak of... it's just that this song is so different.

I feel like I am growing as a writer in general, or I am in a different mind-space, like my mind is opened, as if I am connected, together... hmmmm...

I am just enjoying sleeping in the room I grew up in, and having my mother cook me my favourite meals (home cooked food is a god-send!) and maybe being fed and acting like a baby is helping my creative juices to flow... Or... it's that thing I hinted about above (hearts getting fonder) that is making me so creative. I seem to write when I am feeling intense emotions so...

Yeah, that's me.

posted October 03, 2007 10:51 PM         

Unmoved!
That was absolutely beautiful!
Both your lovely poem and your bond with your Mom!

Silverstone!

posted October 04, 2007 03:39 AM         

Hang in there, my friend~

posted October 04, 2007 05:36 PM         

I really like this forum. Its cute, and I like the responces its getting. (I only read the first page... <3 )

I just turned 18 about a few weeks ago. I feel like I've aged a hundred years.

Right now, I just feel like I'm changing everyday, and that who I was before, who I was last week, or last month, is not who I am now. I feel like I'm in the process of becoming someone.

In a way, I feel like I dont know who I am anymore. Am I the wild kid who doesn't give a crap? Am I the studious hard working girl? Am I caged? Am I holding myself back?

I feel like...right now, I'm learning to tone myself down a bit, learning to hold myself back when necessary, and picking my battles.

Its all very confusing, not knowing who you are anymore. But its fun too, watching yourself unravel.

Huh. On a lighter note--

College applications.
Teacher Recs
School.

Lol. Basically.

Oh! And My soon to be boyfriend bought me a huge soft cuddly teddy bear. <3

posted October 04, 2007 11:53 PM         

This is such a difficult country to survive in. Someone was complaining about paying 70k / yr for being put in a nursing home. Do people really save all that money when they grow old? I thought that was really a lot of money.

posted October 04, 2007 11:59 PM         

Yeah the American medical system is busy screwing me over.

And yeah, some fancy nursing homes here cost $500+ a day for anything more than just a waiting to die room.

posted October 05, 2007 12:24 AM         

I know i must be serious after hearing that and start saving.

But honestly I don't fear death. I am more like going to the icy Greenland on a serene beautiful evening. And asking mother nature to carry me away in to the night.

Do I have faith thats gonna happen? I do. But the evil doubth always hangs around...heheh...

Anyhow - October as in Octa = 8. Transformation. How did we get it wrong.

posted October 05, 2007 12:56 AM         

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Anyhow - October as in Octa = 8. Transformation. How did we get it wrong.

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The original Roman calendar is believed to have been a lunar calendar, which may have been based on one of the Greek lunar calendars. Roman traditions claimed that it was invented by Romulus, the founder of Rome about 753 BC. The earliest known version contained ten months, and started at the vernal equinox; however, the months by this time were no longer 'lunar':

* Martius (31 days)
* Aprilis (30 days)
* Maius (31 days)
* Junius (30 days)
* Quintilis (31 days)
* Sextilis (30 days)
* September (30 days)
* October (31 days)
* November (30 days) and
* December (30 days)
http://www.crowl.org/Lawrence/time/months.html#October
A History of the Months and the
Meanings of their Names
A History of the Months
January -- Janus's month
February -- month of Februa
Intercalaris -- inter-calendar month
March -- Mars' month
April -- Aphrodite's month
May -- Maia's month
June -- Juno's month
July -- Julius Caesar's month
August -- Augustus Caesar's month
September -- the seventh month
October -- the eighth month
November -- the nineth month
December -- the tenth month
Sources
See Also
A History of the Months
The original Roman year had 10 named months Martius "March", Aprilis "April", Maius "May", Junius "June", Quintilis "July", Sextilis "August", September "September", October "October", November "November", December "December", and probably two unnamed months in the dead of winter when not much happened in agriculture. The year began with Martius "March". Numa Pompilius, the second king of Rome circa 700 BC, added the two months Januarius "January" and Februarius "February". He also moved the beginning of the year from Marius to Januarius and changed the number of days in several months to be odd, a lucky number. After Februarius there was occasionally an additional month of Intercalaris "intercalendar". This is the origin of the leap-year day being in February. In 46 BC, Julius Caesar reformed the Roman calendar (hence the Julian calendar) changing the number of days in many months and removing Intercalaris.
January -- Janus's month
Middle English Januarie
Latin Januarius "of Janus"
Latin Janu(s) "Janus" + -arius "ary (pertaining to)"
Latin Januarius mensis "month of Janus"

Janus is the Roman god of gates and doorways, depicted with two faces looking in opposite directions. His festival month is January.

Januarius had 29 days, until Julius when it became 31 days long.
February -- month of Februa
Middle English Februarius
Latin Februarius "of Februa"
Latin Februa(s) "Februa" + -arius "ary (pertaining to)"
Latin Februarius mensis "month of Februa"
Latin dies februatus "day of purification"

Februarius had 28 days, until circa 450 BC when it had 23 or 24 days on some of every second year, until Julius when it had 29 days on every fourth year and 28 days otherwise.

Februa is the Roman festival of purification, held on February fifteenth. It is possibly of Sabine origin.
Intercalaris -- inter-calendar month
Latin Intercalaris "inter-calendar"
Latin Mercedonius (popular name) "?"

Intercalaris had 27 days until the month was abolished by Julius.
March -- Mars' month
Middle English March(e)
Anglo-French March(e)
Old English Martius
Latin Martius "of Mars"
Latin Marti(s) "Mars" + -us (adj. suffix)
Latin Martius mensis "month of Mars"

Martius has always had 31 days.

March was the original beginning of the year, and the time for the resumption of war.

Mars is the Roman god of war. He is identified with the Greek god Ares.
April -- Aphrodite's month
Old English April(is)
Latin Aprilis
Etruscan Apru
Greek Aphro, short for Aphrodite.

Aprilis had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 30 days long.

Aphrodite is the Greek goddess of love and beauty. She is identified with the Roman goddess Venus.
May -- Maia's month
Old French Mai
Old English Maius
Latin Maius "of Maia"
Latin Maius mensis "month of Maia"

Maius has always had 31 days.

Maia (meaning "the great one") is the Italic goddess of spring, the daughter of Faunus, and wife of Vulcan.
June -- Juno's month
Middle English jun(e)
Old French juin
Old English junius
Latin Junius "of Juno"
Latin Junius mensis "month of Juno"

Junius had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 30 days long.

Juno is the principle goddess of the Roman Pantheon. She is the goddess of marriage and the well-being of women. She is the wife and sister of Jupiter. She is identified with the Greek goddess Hera.
July -- Julius Caesar's month
Middle English Julie
Latin Julius "Julius"
Latin Julius mensis "month of Julius"
Latin quintilis mensis "fifth month"

Quintilis (and later Julius) has always had 31 days.

Julius Caesar reformed the Roman calendar (hence the Julian calendar) in 46 BC. In the process, he renamed this month after himself.
August -- Augustus Caesar's month
Latin Augustus "Augustus"
Latin Augustus mensis "month of Augustus"
Latin sextilis mensis "sixth month"

Sextilis had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 31 days long.

Augustus Caesar clarified and completed the calendar reform of Julius Caesar. In the process, he also renamed this month after himself.
September -- the seventh month
Middle English septembre
Latin September
Latin septem "seven" + -ber (adj. suffix)
Latin september mensis "seventh month"

September had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 30 days long.
October -- the eighth month
Middle English octobre
Latin October
Latin octo "eight" + -ber (adj. suffix)
Latin october mensis "eighth month"

October has always had 31 days.
November -- the nineth month
Middle English Novembre
Latin November
Latin Novembris mensis "nineth month"

Novembris had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 30 days long.
December -- the tenth month
Middle English decembre
Old French decembre
Latin december "tenth month"
Latin decem "ten" + -ber (adj. suffix)

December had 30 days, until Numa when it had 29 days, until Julius when it became 31 days long.
Sources
These sources are somewhat inconsistent. I have chosen interpretations that are predominate among sources or that seem most reasonable.

William Morris, editor, The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language, New College Edition, Houghton Mifflin Company, Boston, 1976

Webster's Encyclopedic Unabridged Dictionary of the English Language, Portland House, New York, 1989

William Matthew O'Neil, Time and the Calendars, Sydney University Press, 1975
See Also
The Royal Greenwich Observatory provides information on time, the calendar, the date of Easter, the equation of time, leap years, and the year 2000 AD.

The United States Naval Observatory has several systems of time.
Lawrence A. Crowl, crowl@cs.orst.edu, 27 September 1995

posted October 06, 2007 04:07 PM         

Ive been diligently taking cranberry extract tablets twice daily since February, and havent had a UTI since. Going 8 months without one is a record! I was getting UTI about once every 2 months before.

Im still trying to find a good place to get the news. Something published that is short, sweet and to the point. Something that I can quickly whiz through to stay current with morsels of food for thought. I think with the advent of the internet, long written, drawn out articles are starting to fade out. People can get the information they need quicker these days. I just gotta find where my place is.

So, I am heading out to a local coffee shop now to brunch. It was fun going through all the new posts. I agree with the person that said this is a wholesome thread.

Here is a photo of the place I go to time to time for weekend brunch . . . I recommend it for anyone who visits San Francisco.

posted October 06, 2007 04:31 PM         

sorry football is all that is on my mind today. Today is the Red River rivalry game.

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I do it cause I am a joyful girl.
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You are not a human being in search of a spiritual experience. You are a
spiritual being immersed in a human experience.

posted October 12, 2007 02:13 PM         

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Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

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Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.