posted May 18, 2009 04:01 PM              

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So,...

If I experience these "symptoms"
all throughout my life, does it mean
that this is an entire lifetime of
intense spiritual awakening, or,
does it just mean that I am not
a very spiritual person, at all;
as some people seem to think?

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posted June 13, 2009 03:43 AM            

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Thank you so much for this, I mean really! I really really had to read this. I relate to the first totally, and then many others, and then some others in metaphors, and in the last I relate deeply. What all I will be posting here, and the one post I have already posted alludes to the last point you make. Thanks, once again...

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posted June 13, 2009 02:16 PM            

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i have had a lot of those symptoms,and like gypseewind,i have a buzzing or ringing in my ear,keep waking up several times at early morning,i dont like small talk very much
and occasionally i have felt i dont belong to my family.
none of these things bother me i dont even feel tired after waking up several times

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posted July 31, 2012 05:28 PM            

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Omg, everything, literally. I've thought of it as some kind of weirdness.

And about the self-talk... don't everybody do it? Isn't it natural? I've always talked to myself, and always came to great solutions. I can't remember a day, an hour, a minute when not talking to myself. (Inwardly, ofcourse) As if there was another person in me to whom i can relate when i need to.

Going home?! That's exactly i've been dealing with since i remember myself. I'm never complete. In the sense that there is no real Home for me here. I love my home, where i spent my childhood, sure. It's ok. But i don't feel it as my home. Anyway, that's not the physical home we're talking about here. The longing is somewhere deeper, at the soul level. I remember going along a street, looking at the sky and whispering by myself that i want to get home, please. It was at my worst. Funny, but as much i consider myself a city girl, when i feel worst, i need to get to the nature. It awakes me, watching the woods, breathing the fresh air, looking to wild animals... it makes me feel alive and so much a part of the System as anything else. I don't sense it in the cities, with the most part of people. However, there are people i feel connected in a soul level, and it also feels home when next to them. Like they understand me. Understand what i feel.

Heh, nevermind. Going through one of my self-searching phases, which include depressive and melancholic moods.

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posted July 31, 2012 10:49 PM            

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Those twelve signs reminded me of my all pregnancies!
Twelve signs of the third trimester. *giggles

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posted July 31, 2012 10:57 PM            

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Aeline, I think every body does, self talk. Don't they? I am like you in the sense I can't remember a day or a second when I'm not talking inwardly, except for meditation when I semi-consciously don't.

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posted August 01, 2012 01:35 AM            

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Thanks for bumping this thread, Aeline. It's quite ... well I'm at a loss for words ...

But thank you for bumping it and also to the OP for starting it.

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posted August 11, 2012 01:51 AM            

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Wow lol I am going through almost everything in your list this summer. The whole feeling spacey, feeling alone, can't sleep (that's why I'm on lindaland), loss of ambition, changing careers (goodbye med school). ahh yes. I don't have any 'psychic powers' but this summer I have realized that there is so much more out there than the physical & material world. We are all souls living a human experience. I have also started meditating, which is surprising because I never thought I would do that sort of thing. I am going through a neptune conjunct moon transit & a personal year 7 in numerology. No wonder I have been into spiritual subiects lately.

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posted August 12, 2012 12:38 PM            

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Not being able to sleep is a good thing if it brings you to LL.

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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark

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posted August 12, 2012 02:08 PM            

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I love this thread because what it is deeply saying is a depth of understanding about oneself.

One can not feel all or any of these things without a profound knowledge of one "self."

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posted August 12, 2012 04:54 PM            

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Yes nice one indeed!! Resonated with me too. Many of them.

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posted October 26, 2012 06:37 AM            

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very. cool.

Most of the things on the list I am or have been experiencing.. so of course I am naturally inclined to ponder if almost everyone is feeling these things and it's not something magical as it seems..

but I guess it isn't that common hehe..

even tho I agreed with most of them and found it profound, I decided not to post after all, until I read Sunchild's new list. lol I started reading it and said out loud holey crap.. sometimes I wonder if I'm delusional or if I'm really just that happy.. don't get me wrong, I am dealing with some things and have let an anxiety disorder overcome me for a dozen or more years, so I'm not doing perfect, but yet I've found a certain happiness that can't be shaken and it feels kismet.
one of the things I don't think I really relate to is the yearning for home thing.. I feel glad to be on the Earth and don't long to leave.. but....... maybe my longing to live somewhere else is actually my seeking "home" and I just don't know it.. cuz I don't know where I want to go, I just want to live somewhere new and by warm weather, preferably tropical and near water (with no bugs lol haha I tried googling but it wasn't really helpful for finding the best climate and atmosphere with fewest bugs especially spiders)
I no longer feel strong ties with any family or friends. most of my friends are online anyway, but yea.. I would miss a few people, especially my dad, I'd feel bad.. but the main person I would really miss is my little 7 year old cousin. She's the only person who really makes me feel good.. but she lives 5 hours up north so I don't get to see her often anyways..
well I could go on about each point of these, but feel my post is just for my rambling anyways so I'll snip it here ☻

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posted November 10, 2012 06:54 PM            

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Hi,

Thank you so much for this post and both lists. Tonight I needed to see this! I have been questioning myself and why I have been feeling this way for the last few months and this helps greatly. Deep down I knew something was happening but as I have been through depressive stages in my life before I have just put these experiences down to this. But this time is different as when I have been down before there has alwaays been a catalyst. There is no logical explanation for why I have been feeling this this time.

But I must say it seems I have the lists in reverse as a few months ago I had a deep spiritual mediatation and experienced some synchronicities in my life that lead me to awaken further and I then went on to feeling so connected and happy for about a month, it was amazing, I could feel peoples energies, affect people spiritually and kind of "awaken" them aswell.I hardly needed to sleep and meditating brought me to feel orgasmic in a way lol! And then I had an acting class where we experimented with the feelings of love and hate and the whole class proojected both emotions. When we did the hate one I collapsed in a ball in the floor and could not stop crying, the energy crushed me physically. And after that it was like I was propelled into the other extreme. I feel disconnected, I cant stop crying, (I couldnt before but that was for joy) and I just want to go home. I've quit my acting classes and my job! I think I might travel now, I need change I think. I havent spoken to my friends in ages. I ve turned off my mobile and I cannot stand small talk. Im so quiet. Its like deep down I feel theres something I should be doing but I dont what that is! If anyone else has advice for me on how to progress it would be greatly appreciated. I love people and the world but its like I cant find the right avenue to express that love! Love and light though. This post has made me feel better.

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