posted April 16, 2009 08:03 AM           

{{{HUG}}}}

posted April 16, 2009 08:08 AM           

The internet is one way....a brilliant tool....even better if you can find kindred spirits who live near enough to meet up with regularly.

Another is to search for classes, etc in things you are interested in. Go to as many of those as possible and you are bound to find someone who you can gel with.

Money is an issue for me.

posted April 16, 2009 08:36 AM           

I'll sing myself to sleep
A song from the darkest hour
Secrets I cant keep
Inside of the day
Swing from high to deep
Extremes of sweet and sour
Hope that God exists
I hope I pray

Drawn by the undertow
My life is out of control
I believe this wave will bear my weight
So let it flow

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Now Im relieved to hear
That youve been to some far out places
Its hard to carry on
When you feel all alone
Now Ive swung back down again
Its worse than it was before
If I hadnt seen such riches
I could live with being poor
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find theyre touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears

Down
Down

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy

posted April 16, 2009 01:37 PM         

so yes i do have sun in capricorn in 8th and moon in aries in 12th. and gemini asc. its extremely a pull and tug scenario.

posted April 16, 2009 05:40 PM         

but it just makes me feel like an alien and this year has made things its worst it seems. I really do feel like im alone sometimes. but when i talk to others about it they look at me cross. and say dont kill urself. but im like how do u get suicide from feeling like another kind of person? but i cant go forward with killing myself. its dumb and besides, i haven't done all the things i wanted to do in my life.

but its hard because I cant describe what I am feeling to myself or others. i just have all these feelings i feel now and it makes me cry sometimes because i dont know what is wrong with me. and for some odd reason i was scared to go to sleep last night around 2:30-3am so i had to call my boyfriend and ask him to stay on the phone with me till i fell asleep. i know that sounds so weird but its true and he was like what is wrong and i couldnt tell him why i was so scared.

posted April 24, 2009 12:19 AM         

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Yes i'm a capricorn with an aries moon and gemini rising. oh yea...

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I'm not too technical about astrology, but I'm a gem sun, virgo moon, and sag rising. My mum's a cap with (I think) a gem moon or rising. It makes sense to me to think she is anyway, but I don't know for sure. The problem is that gem and cap are soooo different. I love three caps in this world (that I know of) - Mum, Randall, and Eddie Vedder. But the fact you are gem and aries with cap, seems very interesting - the gem and aries get on like a house on fire (not sure about aries and cap). But your numbers might tell a different story. I accept the fact that I'm fairly anti-social, but still love a BBQ here and there, I just don't socialise much beyond that. I'm a 30. 31 is apparantly more severe. My wife is somehow less social than I am, but I feel she's more natural in many situations. I feel you can achieve more without answering to people. People can be competitive.

Anyhow, I hope you figure out what you need to. Some self-help books are good, and movies like "The Pursuit of Happiness". But if you're crying, then maybe you need to talk to someone about it. For me, I just get a little sad or lonely occasionally, but I created my own life, so I accept it.

Heaps of Love,
Dean.

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I realized it for the first time in my life:
there is nothing but mystery in the world,
how it hides behind the fabric of our poor,
browbeat days, shining brightly, and we don't even know it.

Sue Monk Kidd, "The Secret Life of Bees", p79