posted July 20, 2011 11:40 PM            

"A Dark Night of the Soul is a religious experience where God, upon feeling that you are ready, begins to show the Fullness of His Glory to your soul. His might and power radiate out, and your soul is blinded by it. It's an incredibly painful process, as God's holy fire purges your soul of its imperfection slowly, allowing you to see Him more clearly and follow his Will more perfectly. During the dark night, you are frought with feelings of doubt, confliction, and sorrow, at the very least, as your soul writhes in the pain of God perfecting it."

"As you've likely guessed, this is what I'm going through now, what I've been going through for months. At first, it was merely religious doubt. The first part of the Dark Night is that God no longer appeals to your senses and you must learn to feel Him with your soul, but until then you are blind to him. The Dark Night of the Senses. What I've begun is the actual Dark Night of the Soul. It's torturous. More than torturous."

posted July 20, 2011 11:44 PM            

The first two stanzas describe the effects of the two kinds of spiritual purgation that take place in a person: one, a purification of the sensory part; the other, a purification of the spiritual part. The remaining six stanzas speak of some of the marvelous results obtained from spiritual illumination and union with God through love.

Stanzas Of The Soul
1. One dark night,
fired with love's urgent longings
- ah, the sheer grace! -
I went out unseen,
my house being now all stilled.

2. In darkness, and secure,
by the secret ladder, disguised,
- ah, the sheer grace! -
in darkness and concealment,
my house being now all stilled.

3. On that glad night,
in secret, for no one saw me,
nor did I look at anything,
with no other light or guide
than the one that burned in my heart.

4. This guided me
more surely than the light of noon
to where he was awaiting me
- him I knew so well -
there in a place where no one appeared.

5. O guiding night!
O night more lovely than the dawn!
O night that has united
the Lover with his beloved,
transforming the beloved in her Lover.

6. Upon my flowering breast
which I kept wholly for him alone,
there he lay sleeping,
and I caressing him
there in a breeze from the fanning cedars.

7. When the breeze blew from the turret,
as I parted his hair,
it wounded my neck
with its gentle hand,
suspending all my senses.

8. I abandoned and forgot myself,
laying my face on my Beloved;
all things ceased; I went out from myself,
leaving my cares
forgotten among the lilies.

posted July 24, 2011 02:04 PM            

Blessings and love to you all

Now working on getting my body to recognize it need not be in near constant pain and or near intolerable agonies.
During those moments it is so hard to keep the madness from taking over.
Clang clang bang bang twist wrench pound gods pain tortures the mind and takes over and one is left just lying there and all that exists is the agony. So one must just be still and fully experience the pain and not think of what one cannot do because whilst the agony has one in its grips and wave after wave of omg horrible intensity, thinking of what one is missing out on in life could cause one to in those nightmarish moments, to down the entire bottles of pain killers and be done with it all.
And so, I put the meds out of my reach, so I will not do such in a pain crazed moment.

Also riding out this living conditions hell I am living in.
I know I speak of suicide often but damn.....
I feel if something is trying to destroy me....screw that!
The best revenge against negativity is to live well or at least the best one can live despite extreme hardships.
Stubbornly I shall continue on and see what comes next.
I just sense a breakthrough is coming.

posted August 01, 2011 02:14 AM            

"Are you willing to be sponged out, erased, canceled?
Are you willing to be made nothing?
Dipped into oblivion?
If not, you will never really change."
Linda goodman used the phoenix as a symbol for the most evolved aspects of the sign of scorpio, as pluto is connected to transformation through an destructive, and often traumatic experience, but therein lies immense strength of spirit at the ending of such a journey.

posted August 01, 2011 02:19 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
When you have a horrible tragedy you go through this.

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Ami, Im sure you must have gone through this as well.Can you please share it with us.Was it when you lost your son? or Was it when you broke free from your mom?
If so how has this changed you as a person?

posted August 01, 2011 08:38 AM            

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Originally posted by rajji:
Ami, Im sure you must have gone through this as well.Can you please share it with us.Was it when you lost your son? or Was it when you broke free from your mom?
If so how has this changed you as a person?

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posted August 01, 2011 12:43 PM            

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Originally posted by rajji:
Dear Lexx,
I dont see you stating the intimacy that you developed with God as a result of the trauma that you have gone through.
How close did it bring you to him?
Did the experience cleanse you of all your
Imperfections?A Dark Night of the Soul frees you from those ideas, perceptions, conceptions and beliefs that you have built up to separate you from God by redefining the very basis of your relationship with God.

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