posted May 14, 2012 04:30 AM            

She did manage to get on food stamps but that won't really get you through the month unless you stick mostly to PBJs, and it won't pay for paper products. She also had a cat that she didn't know how she was going to take care of, and that's what distressed her the most.

I got a gig that paid me extra and I bought her paper towels, toilet paper, a big bag of cat food and cat litter, an envelope with $20, and a sack of other things (mostly food for her and her cat).

But in addition to worries that she might try to lean on me (and my charity is as fickle as my income) I knew that if it were me I'd feel nervous about accepting such a gift from someone I didn't know well as I'm wary of hidden strings attached, even from females, and would be nervous, so I snuck over there late at night (worried about the cops stopping me and not believing the truth if I told it--I carried it over there in a wheelbarrow, too, and it was around 2 AM) and left the groceries inside her fence just outside her back door. That way she wouldn't have to worry because she couldn't know who she "owed" and thus could rest easy knowing no one was going to make demands.

Strangely, she knew it was me (seems I do a lot of things "no one else would think to do" though this is usually me getting busted for practical jokes) and thanked me for it, and was nice when I said I couldn't make a habit of that. But what was really cool is she ended up getting a job as an assistant manager at a health food store (and later promoted to manager) and she got me her employee discount on my favorite strawberry spritzers I loved back then, which was a huge help for me. For once it was nice that my good deed actually went rewarded.

posted May 14, 2012 09:25 AM            

I have received help seemingly out of nowhere when I needed it, and I have given help whenever I can. There doesn't seem to be any short-term connection, just a general demonstration of the truth that "what goes around comes around."

When I was young, I would always give my stuff away to whoever needed it. I'd give my siblings my candy, my money, anything they wanted. I am the youngest of six and apparently the first child in my family who was this way. My mother was delighted that I shared so much.

I guess it's my Pisces moon, and being born in the Year of the Hare. I'm empathic, I give as easily as I breathe and can be self-sacrificing to a fault.

So...years later I got engaged to my now husband. It happened really fast and at one point he did something that startled me and made me think twice about the wedding (he has sun conjunct Uranus exact- but I'm used to it now! Sort of. )

Anyway...while I was having these doubts, I met his parents. And they were very old and sweet, and they had no grandchildren. I met them and thought, "I could give these wonderful people some grandchildren!"

So that settled the matter for me. I was getting married and would have babies and my new parents-in-law would be happy.

And they were!

I wish they were still alive!!!

Remember that as I tell you that I had no idea they were wealthy because they didn't live like wealthy people, and my husband didn't tell me, either. When they died, we inherited a lot of money. That was their gift back to me.

And I'm happy, because now I have more to give away. Though not as much as I want to...my husband won't let me, and I can't say I blame him because we'd be broke.

posted May 14, 2012 12:57 PM            

Every movement I make, every breath I take.

Especially at work, caring for the infrim...

Alot of us only acknowledge the "wow" moments, but I do feel that all is of God, that is the good...

The bad, I feel comes from ego, but one can surely feel the hand of "God" with us, within us in something as simple say, as a smile...