posted February 26, 2017 12:36 PM            

since then i could see energy. and no not litterally, but just get feelings. see a dude walking down the street, i look behind me and see an area "light up or glow" and then look back later, and see him walk to the exact area that was lit up. i had it in my mind that is what would happen. this didn't just happen once, but hundreds, thousands of times. with different types of things. not just seeing a glow, but other types.

so i sometimes know you can just trust and follow your intuition. in fact god is so synchronis, connected and intertwined down to the billionth capacity. it is so vast and amazing.

with that said.

i sometimes, well always, i get a pull of what god says is a good idea.

i almost always go against it. i think i may be severely damaged. depressed. but i take pride in it. cause im also not like anyone else. i may be a complete loser and the worst state most could be. well i'm not too bad. but that's how an outsider might view me, for my faults. but i know i am gaining info that no one else is, obviously, so i know my place.

so i never listen to these hints from god, even though i spent all this time figuring out that god is in fact there, things are connected, i always just completely do what i want. maybe its wrong.

but nothing in the universe is truly wrong. everything just is neautral. you can do whatever you want. i always try to do what i want. but god is always guiding everything to the billionth degree. i wanted to blend some oranges and ice last night to make orange juice. my own feelings decided i no longer wanted orange juice right when i cleaned it all and readyed it to go. i realized got probably made me do it. i think it likely stopped me to avoid waking someone up at 3 am. lol

posted February 26, 2017 12:37 PM            

some people think that means we should all kill ourselves, and rape people.