posted September 20, 2025 11:51 AM            

Still, I'd like to know more about who makes choices for us. She says in her 2nd NDE that the choice was made for her. WHO made it? Is this person (or council) human at all? Is it one's own Higher Self? Or what?

She also mentions coming back from the first one telepathic, at least for a time. I know someone who had a NDE very young who said something similar, but it was disabling for him. He had to live alone (though he lives with many animals) and while he attempts to do some good, he has to be away to recharge (he also has a Pisces moon). He's not telepathic, but empathic, and the feelings of others can overwhelm him. He thinks he'd found life a lot easier had he never had a NDE, and yet he'd be a completely different person, perhaps the kind he finds hard to stand now (though perhaps also more successful as defined by society).

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When I look upon this world, I have a hard time seeing it as anything other than metaphysical BDSM. About the best I can say is that nature is the ultimate recycler, though that can be horrifying at times.

Though I miss seeing things with the wonder of a child. When I was little, I could be AWED at something as simple as a sunrise. Leaves fascinated me (and the smell of fresh earth could be just as wonderful). The moon and stars were awesome to behold. And I loved rainbows.

Sadly, the breathtaking awe and appreciation of the beauty has faded. I believe I'd have to do hallucinogens (LSD, shrooms, etc) to be able to appreciate it all again, and I'm just not willing to do that. (Maybe, best case scenario, my attempted meditation for God will bring it back, but it seems unlikely.)

I did have a few times as an adult of that kind of beauty. Like once I was windsurfing for the first time on a cloudy, foggy morning. Then the clouds parted, the sea went from gray to blue, and all of it, the now blue skies (with beautiful clouds reflecting sunlight), the sun on the foggy trees, and all that (plus the motion of gliding over the water), and I screamed in ecstasy at how beautiful it all was. Such moments are truly remarkable (and I can think of a few more), but oh so very and depressingly rare since I grew up.

But the utter joy of being alive while very young (with the ultra-rare reminder as an adult) does seem to make it worth it. Still, there is such pain and horror in the world as well.

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Anyway, that all aside, I thought I'd share this:
http://youtu.be/YFETu_5jKwU?feature=shared&t=543

About 15 minutes in all, but I start it about the middle where the Grey alien claims to be more of a shell for a spirit (and "death is a concept that does not exist [for us]"). It goes on to make other claims that I find common to a lot of new age thought.

This is an example of how I think a lot of UFO beliefs are spiritual/religious in nature (and thus more metaphysical than physical or scientific). I don't know what to think of it. And I don't know if I believe it or not, but I found it interesting to watch a few days ago and remembered it now as I saw that woman speak on NDEs.

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posted September 26, 2025 06:56 PM            

Now maybe he was tuning in to when I had a powerful experience involving the tarot in this life (but got cut off from learning it soon after), but he doesn't think so. He thinks I was once a card maker and reader and that I'd have a natural talent for it as I demonstrated once before.

I wasn't willing to spend a lot of money on tarot cards, but then a deck came into my possession by pure chance, one that is connected to the type of tarot cards I supposedly made in a previous life. I've been reviewing tarot readings and have library books on it. Even if he's right I don't expect to become some master overnight.

If I'm astounded, THEN I'll look into investing in better books.