posted May 13, 2008 11:28 AM           

"Let me introduce me. Hi, I'm new to Lindaland but not to Linda's Books.

My life is rather different than most (well,at least i tend to think so). I'm from Newcastle, New South Wales, Australia. My First name was the same as Australia's richest man until he died Boxing day 2005, but i can say now my first name is the same as Australia's 4th richest man (worth AUD$4billion). My surname is the same as a leading international conglomerate bank worth GBP19billion & handles over a trillion of the world's money. That bank,interestingly, was the first bank in the world to introduce a cash machine (or atm) & that was in the year i was born.

I have 8 siblings(6 sisters & 2 brothers). I am a twin. My twin brother was still-born. According to research, psychologists say the bond between mother & surviving baby is closer than other siblings because of the mourning the mother goes through she treats the surviving baby as special. Psychologists say there is more eye-to-eye contact, more hugging, more kissing, more talking etc between mother & baby.

My mother is what u could say 'different'. Looking back on my family's childhood, when a brother or sister got to the stage where they were interested in the opposite sex, my mother got physically abusive with them but we didn't know y. It was like there was something in the air & she just went bezerk. Well there was something in the air, it was love. Mum never knew what was going on in our lives at that stage. Doctors had tried alot of times to put her in a psych ward but she refused to go bcos of the stigma attached to it, especially in that generation.

What i'm getting at is that my brothers & sisters got over it easily, but for me it was different bcos of my "extra attention". It took me, at the age of 22, studying psychology to find out y.

I found Linda's book "Sun signs" at the age of 18 in 1986 on a flatmate's bookcase. Found that it described me perfectly as a Leo & a girl that i was interested in High school as well(an Aquarian). About 2 weeks l8r, I was at a bus stop, there was a bookshop nearby so i popped in & bought "Love Signs".

I was hooked, especially the front of the book about twin souls. Now at this time, i didn't know till studying psych that psychologists say that twins who survive birth but their twin dies, will always feel incomplete , half of a whole, until they find their twin reincarnated & then they can live together forever. So that explains my obsession with twin souls.

That obsession with twin souls led me into a psych ward at the end of my 1st year of Uni study. I had made an agreement a few months earlier with that aquarian girl i liked in high school. I actually had felt a "soul oneness" with her about a month b4 that agreement.

That leads me to my father. in the first few days in the psych ward a man was brought in & he had a huge arguement with the psychiatrist " saying ur not going to electrocute me again". The psychiatrist asked him if his dad was dead to which the man replied he was. One of the 1st things the psychiatrist asked me was if my father was alive, to which he is... With a name like maxWELL, dad is always going to be fine.

Since those early stages, on my search for my twin soul, i've noticed alot of changes in my dad, & brothers & sisters, but not my mum. From the simple things, like for eg, colours of shoes. My family went from wearing white shoes to grey, to black & some r wearing brown. But my mum has always stayed with the white shoes. The changes have lead to other bigger, more significant things. This change that went through my family also went through my father's brothers & sisters as well.

One time in the town i grew up in, i was in the Catholic Cathedral sitting under one of the stations of the cross & saw that it read "Simon carries Jesus cross". As a catholic as a kid, i chose the confirmation name as "Simon-Peter" (typical Leo - i had to have what i thought was the best) but my dad said u can't choose 2 names so i shortened it to "Simon". Now also in Mel Gibson's Movie "Passions of the Christ" when the Romans ask Simon to help carry Jesus' cross he refuses but they insist so he says 2 everyone "Let it be known that i, Simon, an innocent man am forced to carry the burden of a condemned man". I believe there is some relevance to my dad there. I believe this because in 1991, 2 years after my initial breakdown, my uncle Bob, Dad's brother was diagnosed with cancer all through him. He died within a month. He was 51yo, never married, had no kids & worked since the age of 14. The developing changes going through my family, my dad's family of brothers & sisters killed Bob bcos he had no partner.

So far, my life has been not easy. I'm the only one in my family like me. They are & so are all of my friends, at the moment, not in "the know". They r not smart or whatever similar name there is for it. They pass off coincidences just as coincidences. Whereas i know there is a meaning for everything & i look for answers.

My life has been unusual, so far, & i've had to pass a lot of testing times, for eg, the nite of thurs 26th April 2007. That was a tough nite. I had to go deep within me to get through that nite. The girl i was connected to, at that time, refused to dance from 2am & changed the channel of the TV. I saw her with my TELEvision, she was just sitting down. She thought i was evil & told me so by telepathic communication at 6am when she changed the channel back.

i've gotten through this life bcos of Linda. I found out in 1998 by a friend Linda died. When my friend told me i was heartbroken. Through her books i felt she was the only one who truly knew me. No-one else has so far. At times i used to think Linda wrote the front of "LOVE SIGNS" & the whole of "STAR SIGNS" for me & for people in the same situation as me, bcos there are others.

I often wondered why am i the way i am & why have i had to lead the life i have had to lead so far?

Besides my parents, could it be bcos of my Nanna ( on my mum's side) as well? She had a child at 14yo, adopted it out, but the main thing i'm wondering about is that, she was married to 2 men at the same time for a while & had children to both husbands. Now she always told my older brother he was going to be a policeman but it looks like it is going to be me. So she knew. She died b4 i had my initial breakdown so she didn't know it would be me. ( my older brother worked for the police force 4 a while - on the radio. There's that Pink song - "if God is a dj", - when i first noticed i had TELEvision). So if my Nanna knew, she was smart, was more enlightened, more developed, how could she give birth to someone like my mum? Is it bcos of the 2 husbands at the same time? I've wondered this for years.

I initially enquired about "Gooberz" at book stores in OZ in 1991. None had it on their computer's index & had never had heard of it.
A few years ago i enquired about it, got it ordered in but didn't have finances when it arrived. I almost bought one in October 2006 but again finances were short at that time (hey i'm a uni student - yes, still!). Checked on ebay in May 2007 & there it was, bought it str8 away & it is definetely worth the $92.23AUD. Finances for me are not a problem now.

This post was more than i initally wanted to say, but hey u all know me now.

Thanks

Catch ya

posted May 13, 2008 12:02 PM           

Thank you for sharing your story