posted December 03, 2011 03:49 PM            

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I must perhaps resign myself to having only stolen and brief tastes of happiness,
for it appears that I may never be invited to the feasts.
~LEXX

posted December 03, 2011 04:44 PM            

No matter what life brings me, Christmas washs it all away in the glow of good will, beautiful sights and celebration of the Christ`s birth (I know it`s not the 25th but ...)

I wish you all the best this season and always Lexx.

posted December 03, 2011 05:13 PM            

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Originally posted by LEXX:
Lucky you
Thank you for the well wishes.
I do not object to folks loving it all.
I wish I had reason to.
Sigh
I see all the love but its not for me.
I see all the pretty lights and cry.
I see people with kids all excited and cry.
I see lovers so in love, and I cry.
I miss my grandparents and great grandparents,
the last folks who made it really special safe loving real.
I miss my son who ignores me because I did not go to his wedding because I was ill.
I have not even been permitted to meet my almost grandson born in April.
I might go hang out with the poor folks at the food pantry since I am one of them too.
Or just try to ignore it all.
My ex to be got an invite from his sister to stay in Texas betwixt Xmas Eve and New Years Eve.
I wish he would go rather than hang out with old gloom and doom me.
She is wealthy and wanting to pay for it all, plane fare and all for him.
Being alone during the holidays is something I have come to expect anyhow.
Usually too infirm to go out anyhow.
All I'd really like is for someone to hold and to hold me, say "I love you", that would be enough.
Sigh
But they who cared/care are all either long dead or far away or busy doing their own things.

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Well, I know that this might not make you feel better, Lexx, and I don't pretend that I can relate to the situation that you are in right now or that I "know" what it's like (to do so would be dishonest), but just know that there are many people here who care about you and who enjoy your wisdom and insight. I've only been here for a short time, but I appreciate your posts and am glad that you're with us.

So, even if we can't be with you in person due to distance, practical things (like money and travel arrangements and whatnot), other stuff like that, please know that many of the Lindaland folks here will be thinking of you.

::big hugs::

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*I use the whole sign system*

Personal Planets:
Sun, Mercury: Libra
Venus: Scorpio
Moon: Cancer
Mars: Capricorn

posted December 03, 2011 05:19 PM            

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Originally posted by RegardesPlatero:
Well, I know that this might not make you feel better, Lexx, and I don't pretend that I can relate to the situation that you are in right now or that I "know" what it's like (to do so would be dishonest), but just know that there are many people here who care about you and who enjoy your wisdom and insight. I've only been here for a short time, but I appreciate your posts and am glad that you're with us.

So, even if we can't be with you in person due to distance, practical things (like money and travel arrangements and whatnot), other stuff like that, please know that many of the Lindaland folks here will be thinking of you.

::big hugs::

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I must perhaps resign myself to having only stolen and brief tastes of happiness,
for it appears that I may never be invited to the feasts.
~LEXX

posted December 03, 2011 06:00 PM            

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Originally posted by RegardesPlatero:
Well, I know that this might not make you feel better, Lexx, and I don't pretend that I can relate to the situation that you are in right now or that I "know" what it's like (to do so would be dishonest), but just know that there are many people here who care about you and who enjoy your wisdom and insight. I've only been here for a short time, but I appreciate your posts and am glad that you're with us.

So, even if we can't be with you in person due to distance, practical things (like money and travel arrangements and whatnot), other stuff like that, please know that many of the Lindaland folks here will be thinking of you.

::big hugs::

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Originally posted by LEXX:
Thank you
That does help.
Gods I sound pitiful.
Buy you all ARE my "chosen" family, my community.
You are all real to me, not just internet illusions.
Without you all,
I just don't know.
OK...
losing it here.
gotta go.
PS.
Yes...it is one form of Olde English font.

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I chose the blue roses because I find blue peaceful and soothing, and wish for you to experience peace and healing. I chose the candles because the color white often makes me think of hope, and I hope that you will be able to have hope this Christmas season.

Take care, and have a good evening! And thanks again for all that you contribute!

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*I use the whole sign system*

Personal Planets:
Sun, Mercury: Libra
Venus: Scorpio
Moon: Cancer
Mars: Capricorn

posted December 03, 2011 06:34 PM            

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Originally posted by RegardesPlatero:

I chose the blue roses because I find blue peaceful and soothing, and wish for you to experience peace and healing. I chose the candles because the color white often makes me think of hope, and I hope that you will be able to have hope this Christmas season.

Take care, and have a good evening! And thanks again for all that you contribute!

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Re-posting because my post disappeared as did another post from???????????
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Now you have me here crying and blubbering with happy tears like a big super emo baby.
Thank you!
And seriously your post means more than you may realize to me.{{{hugs}}}

posted December 03, 2011 07:11 PM            

This was part of your post to me

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Originally posted by LEXX:
Re-posting because my post disappeared as did another post from???????????
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Now you have me here crying and blubbering with happy tears like a big super emo baby.
Thank you!
And seriously your post means more than you may realize to me.{{{hugs}}}

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Originally posted by RegardesPlatero:
aww

Here's something funny to cheer you up:

(This is from the British "Blackadder" comedy series; it's a parody of "A Christmas Carol". The premise: this Blackadder is actually good, unlike his predecessors (the other Blackadder characters; the series takes place over many different eras, each with its own Blackadder). He is SO good that people take advantage of him. So, he ends up being bad instead. Hugh Laurie, Rowan Atkinson, Stephen Fry, and others are in it):

Part the First: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJX8coNc2J8

Part the Second: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwOckfTkFfQ&feature=related

Part the Third: ]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ON2LAtJ38DM&feature=related

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posted December 03, 2011 08:06 PM            

If it was not your post...then my thanks to whomever it was.

My apologies for posting this here also....
but damn I hate it when my threads glitch out at two other forums.
Like wtf already?????????