posted April 07, 2015 07:42 PM            

I'm confusedaseff.. i made that username in relation to my first ever post where i was confused as eff about my venus in scorpio. now that i'm not so.. i'm really wishing i can change that username!

recently got into astrology, been skimming it for a few years - just sun, moon etc but only now getting really stuck into it. starting to get into tarot.

got a family history of heavy into occult. some unwilling and some willing and keen. i'm half and half.

so yeah! don't know what else to say here except for sorry for the shite username. i wish i could change it but i've looked and couldn't find anything

posted April 07, 2015 07:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by confusedaseff:
[b]So i've always been heavy interested in anything occult and that's always been because it's been deeply entrenched in my life from day one. but since i've witnessed a whole lot of the negative side of the occult you'd think id be scared off but i can't shake this interest. i always come back to it even when I'm warned away by my mum

i do want to get over this fear that i might end up dealing with something/one evil. i feel like it's a barrier that is keeping me from being able to fully accept everything that's happening around me and keeping me from learning about it.. to the point where i feel like if i pick up a book on it i'm going get haunted.. but i still want to learn and to embrace this side of me.

if anyone has any advice on how to get over this fear and paranoia i would really appreciate it.

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How old are you?
I noticed you mention your mum.

When you feel fear and paranoia over psi/occult matters;
it means back away from it, at least for now. It means it is not what you should be doing and or perhaps simply the wrong time.
Listen to your instincts/vibes; then follow them. This fear and paranoia is a warning, a self protection mechanism telling you to leave psi/occult things alone for now, or longer.
Good luck.

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i'm in my twenties. my mum is major in tuned though. she use to be able to see the dead just walking about - therefore couldn't go into hospitals or funerals because she'd be shaking in fear, always seems to be winning minor lotteries. chats with dead relatives in her sleep and they bring warnings. she mentioned before that she spoke to the relatives in her dreams and told them not to visit me because ill get scared. and many more including potential for mediumship. over time she got scared of it and then it backed off so not so much now. so sometimes i'm wondering if she's projecting that fear on to me.

i at times.. more perceptive than she is. sort of like the less for her the more for me. been happening over time. or she's not telling me as much