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Topic: Thanks, Coyote! A Bizarre Love Triangle
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Chanterelle
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posted September 29, 2020 06:10 AM
  
Thanks... not to worry, screen time should never feel obligatory. Not a word from/about S; I chickened out on wishing him a happy birthday the other day. I don’t know if I should be worried about him, or keep trying to communicate at all. At one point I felt so strongly that if things had gone a little bit differently, this situation could have led to a lot more growth and understanding for all three of us. If I had just been a little more patient, maybe? But I really don’t know what I could or should have done differently. I guess that’s the main thing I’m trying to sort out: obligations to self vs. other. I have definitely realized that there are times when focusing on ‘other’ is the easy way out.IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted September 29, 2020 01:51 PM
Chanterelle  First, be kind to yourself..
Second, be patient. Do you know what
the reward of patience is?
It's having patience..I know, what a
miserable answer... Just know, you shall be guided... I've been given a wonderful gift.
I am able to connect with the one
that is my Other half, soul to soul..
It's truly Magical!
I have not really had a physical
reality with him. I have learned
the art of patience, through
Love and Magic! Desire to know, with a pure heart,
it shall guide you... ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Randall
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posted September 30, 2020 05:17 PM
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Chanterelle
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posted October 01, 2020 06:30 AM
Oh, I needed that... patience and presence are their own rewards indeed. Sometimes it’s easier to find it in shaping a stone than in conversation. Draw from the one, give to the other...IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 01, 2020 04:18 PM
Thank you, Randall!Chanterelle, you got this!
You're no stranger to Love and Magic! We're bringing it back!  ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Randall
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posted October 01, 2020 05:32 PM
quote:
Originally posted by ballerina:
Thank you, Randall!Chanterelle, you got this!
You're no stranger to Love and Magic! We're bringing it back!
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Chanterelle
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posted October 03, 2020 08:15 AM
Ooh! emotional evolution.IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 03, 2020 10:09 AM
Chanterelle,Which brings us back to everything
being a test!
In the moral arena, S is B's good
friend, the idea of him and you,
should be off limits, even if you
and B end your relationship...
Such as when we were in high school,
and could never date a friend's
X boyfriend...
But, these things can happen when
feelings are so strong...
Patience is key to leading to the
answers we seek, being positive leads
to higher consciousness, and the
Wisdom to knowing... ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Chanterelle
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posted October 06, 2020 08:46 AM
Well, that’s one way of looking at it. A test for sure, but I’m not sure where that type of conventional morality fits in. We didn’t have that kind of ‘unspoken rule’ when I was in high school— talk about it first, obviously, but dating a friend’s ex isn’t automatically a terrible thing in my book. Plus some of the relevant background: basically the entire time we’ve been together, if I ask B to do something differently, or complain or criticize anything about his behavior, his response has always been to say something like, “If you don’t like it, fine— I can always just leave, and you can find someone better (younger, cooler, more money, more hair, etc.) Superficial b.s. that doesn’t mean anything to me, in other words. I have told him so many times, I know that you are only saying that out of insecurity, but it still hurts and is insulting because it completely trivializes something that I actually do take very seriously. In the past he has even gone so far as to say, “I should set you up with ______, you guys would be perfect for each other.” The final straw in this particular arena was maybe 2 weeks before the actual end, when we had thoroughly unsatisfactory make-up sex and within half an hour he was stomping out to the cottage telling S something along the lines of “Go ahead, she’s all yours, I’ll just get out of the way.” This was at a point when there had been absolutely no flirting or sexual tension that I could detect at all between us, just a lot of easy, free-flowing conversation— including a fair amount of compassionate dissection of the parallels between our failed/failing relationships. And I really do mean none— I think it was maybe the 3rd or 4th day when I came right out and said “I like you—you’re easy to talk to, and it’s such a relief to be able to talk to someone who actually seems to understand the way I think. And I’m pretty sure that’s not something I should feel the slightest bit guilty or apprehensive about, but B is really insecure in a lot of ways, so I have to be careful not to give the wrong impression.” And like I said, in my experience powerful connections almost always come with passing crushes, and I was perfectly prepared to ignore anything tending in that direction. I’m pretty sure there was nothing to ignore or respond to until days after B said that. So: Permission was granted without it being sought; thoughts manifest reality, be careful what you wish for, etc. So on the level of ‘it would be wrong because it would hurt B,’ I’m not sure... That, of course, is if we had both wanted to proceed in that direction. But there were a whole series of semi-cryptic, semi-straightforward notes and snatches of conversation: After the first massage, leg only, being kind of motherly/professional about the snakebite for a couple of days, I left one to the effect of ‘I think you need healing from more than just this, I’m really grateful and glad you’re here, please just relax and whatever you need, let me know... I’m a very touchy-feely person and I know my hands are for healing; should I ask before I touch you or just be at ease with that?’ His reply: ‘Whatever you want, whatever makes you feel good about yourself, as long as you understand that I’m not in a place where a relationship is possible right now.’ Very confusing— to have both parties so entirely focused on giving, not sure what or how, just guessing based on old patterns! Speaking of patterns... I told S an abbreviated version of this story before he left: about the ‘much-loved impossible friend’ who gave me the Liz Greene book, with the same initials and a connection to S’s hometown. I first thought of him when I pulled out the book, but initially I was thinking about all the similarities with B. It wasn’t until S said, “Sometimes I think I should have been a psychiatrist” that I noticed those connections. This friend was someone I met when I was about a year out of a really toxic relationship, a young single mom just finally coming out of my shell and regaining some confidence in myself, enjoying my job and getting ready to go back to college in the fall. I was working in a juice/smoothie/raw-food bar, and... we’ll call him Dr. S, I guess... was a customer who very quickly started to linger and talk as long as possible, stop by daily instead of twice-weekly, etc. Eventually I started trying to every-so-often time my lunch break so we could sit and talk for a whole half-hour... one of my co-workers would even tease me about it a little, but I really did just flat-out enjoy his company and conversation; physical attraction was not part of the equation at all. Until we actually made plans to hang out away from my work, and out of a suit and tie everything about his demeanor changed. We were sitting on the floor of the half-empty apartment he was getting ready to move out of, with a few of his paintings propped up against the wall, and I had just finished reciting a poem with the same name as one of them, when our hands touched— and it was like an electric current running through me for maybe thirty seconds, until he drew back and said “I can’t... I have no business being in any kind of relationship with a woman right now.” My response: “No, me neither, that’s not what I was expecting at all... but I’m just all of a sudden realizing that I really am kind of starved for physical affection, so it would be nice if you could be the kind of friend I can share that with, at least a little bit.” So we hugged goodbye a little later, and the following week he called me up feeling miserably discouraged about the concrete-walled basement apartment he was going to be living in for the next six months, so I came over the next day with a big armload of prayer flags and tapestries and incense and chunks of quartz, and helped him arrange his furniture and paintings, and when we were done he looked around and breathed a big sigh of relief and said, “I think I can stay here after all.” So, after that, a whole summer of affectionate friendship— not “friends with benefits” in the usual sense, just not being shy about sitting close while watching a movie, going to a show together and catching glimpses of an appreciative smile holding up the wall as I whirled around the room, an occasional back-rub, a usual hug goodbye, one half-drunk kiss and one further deflected attempt at same on my part. At the end of that summer I moved away to go back to college, and not long after that he finished his residency and became a full-fledged psychiatrist and moved ten times farther away, and we had one good long phone call after he was settled in there and quickly lost touch with no regrets whatsoever. The whole experience was profoundly healing and necessary for me at that time, and as I started to put together all these little pieces of repeating patterns— why within two hours of meeting S, standing there with an armload of fans and sheets and curtains, I would think “Oh, this poor boy needs a hug... but I’m a total stranger; that would be weird; what else have I got to offer?” — just peeling back the layers of motivation, you know? Because I really wanted to figure out how much I was sensing and reacting to his thoughts and feelings, and how much I was projecting my own needs onto him and vice versa. More than anything, it was surprising that in the moment there was simply no impulse to overcome: I decided to go with what I felt, I was very much enjoying what I thought of exactly in the terms I described: reciprocal bodywork in a clearly stated context of no sex and no possibility of ‘relationship’, and when offered an opportunity for... deeper release, shall we say? ... I was honestly surprised at my own ‘meh’ reaction, and when he asked why not I said the first thing that popped into my head. I knew it was true but not the whole truth, and that’s what prompted the whole self-questioning process: That and the question, did he really think all along that I just needed one good orgasm to get me over the last threads of attachment to the energetic whirlpool of a relationship I had been clinging to? A flash of annoyance, thinking back to the conversation where I failed to clarify the difference between taking a weight off someone else’s shoulders and helping empower them to carry their own burdens. Give a fish/ teach to fish, moon/finger, etc. ‘Don’t you dare treat me like a damsel in distress!’ In other words, I’ve been peeling back the layers of this thing I was calling love, coming to terms with my own actions, and the furthest I’ve gotten is that even if I fumbled the steps, on a fundamental level I knew that the purpose of our meeting was about the dissolution of karma. IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 07, 2020 12:44 PM
Chanterelle, you definitely got this!
Time to get back to
Love and Magic!
Signs guiding the way...------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Chanterelle
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posted October 08, 2020 04:56 AM
Body, soul, spirit.
Feeling, knowing, doing.
3 become 1 in every moment we are living with integrity.Thank you, Ballerina — your encouragement is so lovely. I read deeper into your thread last night; I hope your environment is on the up-swing and all your loved ones are well. I’ve also got a little number-puzzle-thought for you, since I noticed you mentioned the 4:3:2. I’m not pretending to understand celestial mechanics, but somewhere I came across ‘orbital resonance.’ 1:2:4 and 2:3 are stable, self-correcting orbits. The first one corresponds to the basic pranayama rhythm of 1 count exhale, 4 counts breath suspension, 2 counts inhale. (Through the nose only, tongue touching the roof of your mouth.)
Then if you look at the number of lotus petals associated with each chakra: 1st = 4, 2nd = 6, 3rd = 10, 4th = 12, 5th = 16, 6th = 2, 7th = 1,000 but contains 2 minor points with 2 and 8, respectively.
I see a pattern, but I don’t know what it relates to. Thoughts, anyone? IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 08, 2020 09:06 PM
Thank you, Chanterelle!You have brought me magic
through numbers in music! The seven natural sequences HYPODORIAN 16/8 (F to F) Unison or octave
MIXOLYDIAN 14/8 (F to E) Harmonic 7th
LYDIAN 13/8 (F to D) Flat major 6th
PHRYGIAN 24/16 (F to C) Perfect 5th
DORIAN 11/8 (F to B) Sharp harmonic 4th
HYPOLYDIAN 20/16 (F to A) Major 3rd
HYPOPHRYGIAN 36/32 (F to G) Major tone Forty-nine sets of sequences grouped in
seven Modes gives wide tonal scope. That which gave the Harmoniai their
religio-philosophic importance was the
demonstration they provided that musical
--shall we say ' measured ' ?---Sound, in
a special sense, was the utterance of the
Divine Unity in the manifold manifestation
we call the Cosmos. These inevitable
sequences of ratios, forming constituent
parts of a Whole, we're the expression, in
Sound, of Arithmos (Number) in a different
sphere. They expressed the correspondences
of equal measure and of number, as they
occurred in Music, with equal measure and
number in the domain of Space-Time. It was
no wonder that the God playing an aulos or
pipe (and in later times a side-blown
flute) became the favourite
anthropomorphic figure for the divine
Creator, in cosmic poems for dramatic
representation. Orpheus had his forerunner
in India, and all such figures had their
prototype in Mesopotamia. The popular
representations of the Mother Goddess with
her kithara (dating from the sixth century
B.C. onwards) and of Apollo with his, were
only adaptations, in which the reason for
the aulos being the Harmonia-originating
instrument was ignored, the theory of the
seven natural scales having become an
esoteric tradition. None the less, the
natural scales themselves survived
wherever "equal measure", as I have
described it, was embodied in the pipe
itself. Nor was it extraordinary that in
the Ancient East the number 7, no less
than the number 8, stood for creation
---8 as a comprehensive Whole, and
especially as a completed cycle, and 7 as
the very expression of a differentiation
that was yet contained within, and itself
built up, a unity. ---from
Manifold Unity The Ancient World's Perception
of the Divine Pattern of Harmony
and Compassion By Collum ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Chanterelle
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posted October 08, 2020 10:51 PM
I like it, but I don’t get it... half the numbers don’t overlap at all. I was thinking about the fact that if you go 4, 8, 12, 16, then all the leftover numbers add up to 20.IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 09, 2020 12:00 AM
They add up to 20 !NOW=WON , that is interesting!
In numerology 20 is The Awakening, very
appropriate for our Search. It reduces
to 2, The Moon.
In every relationship we have, it is
necessary and our responsibility to be
emotionally stable. We must love Ourselves
first, in order to love Others. Do Be Do
Be Do Be LOVE...
LOVES = SOLVE I'm not sure where I used 4:3:2 ? Or why ?
..giggling
What I wrote from the book, I think we'll
end up going back to it I love the English language,
and I love numbers, both are
so magical! For instance, my DOB 05/05/1966 reduces to...
5 + 5 + 22 = 32 and thus reduces to...
3 + 2 = 5 22 is a master number that is not reduced My numbers are 32 and 5
I'm very much imprinted with the
number 5. Chanterelle,
I'm curious, what is the number of
the day you were born? ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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Chanterelle
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posted October 09, 2020 11:03 AM
I’ll have to see. Looking at Sabian symbols for the first time today, and I have to say it’s almost inappropriate how appropriate it all is! A few very precise echoes from my own notebook, including use of the phrase ‘suspension of disbelief’ in the interpretation of the symbol for S’s true node.
So, back to the whole self/other obligation question: very first page of my letter, I said that the one thing I’m certain of is that we are somehow meant to be helping one another with regards to spiritual growth. I’m glad I changed my mind about giving him the notebook the last time I saw him, but I’ve just been wondering how much I ought to let him figure it out for himself. Should I just assume that anything I’ve gotten right, he’s bound to figure out too? I was pretty blissed-out and goofy the last time I saw him, even doing a backward somersault at some point, which is quite out of character! He said something about filters being useful when I was having a terrible coughing fit after taking a hit off his vape pen (something I’m not used to at all — I roll my own cigarettes, so that’s what he was referring to.) But then he backed it up by pointing out the few items he was leaving behind, including a filter for a backpacker’s water filtration device. ‘Filter’ and 4:3:2 were both in your 3 principles thread. Anyway, I’m pretty sure he had a better idea of what all this might mean early on, and he knows as well as I do how much work we each have to do on our own. I just don’t know if he knows that I know... yes, of course he must! All those ‘knows’ reminded me of when I tossed out a line from an old poem: “Knowing we know nothing except that we dwell/ Between open doorways and unexpected gifts.” He asked if I was quoting Edgar Allen Poe; I said “No, that’s me! I don’t think I’m nearly as dark as Poe... (laughing) but yeah, you’re right, I can totally see that.”
I mean, that’s not dark and gloomy at all, right? Totally uplifting! (Right? Right?) It’s like I actually recited the whole thing from the beginning:
All moments lead up to this one in a honeysuckle bloom:
Their scent is strongest, their color brightest,
Their nectar sweetest
Just before they wilt and die.BTW, I read somewhere that honeysuckle flowers and leaves are used as a flu remedy in Chinese medicine. IP: Logged |
Chanterelle
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posted October 09, 2020 11:57 AM
Ooh, I’m tempted to call this one spooky. Asteroid Parvati at Virgo 18: A Ouija board. IP: Logged |
Chanterelle
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posted October 09, 2020 12:00 PM
Virgo 18 (17° - 18°)
INTUITION
Consulting the oracle is a risky business since the quiet inner voice cannot always be separated from distortions of desire
Knowledge is not complete unless both the rational and non-rational aspects are considered. In the modern world we can see that greater emphasis is placed on scientific method yet, though a minority, esotericists have also kept pace with an evolution of consciousness associated with the more intuitive, right brain approach. This image is rather outdated - the Ouija Board provided guidance of a sort - yet could very easily offer silly or false commentary. If we consult an oracle we are advised to be ultra-careful to balance intuition with reason; the words of an oracle can carry surprisingly significant weight and could easily influence outcomes as a kind of self-fulfilling prophesy.Salt, anyone? IP: Logged |
Chanterelle
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posted October 09, 2020 03:13 PM
Man, this cosmic joke just keeps on fractalizing! I’ve been meaning to get back to this for a while, and now I just have to... I said there was more to come involving power outages and storms and stuff, so here goes.
After the cosmic tickle, I did manage to sleep for a couple of hours. I woke up in a kind of goofy, floaty frame of mind and was just sort of dancing around feeling great about everything, and decided it would be a perfect time to talk to B in a spirit of forgiveness and reconciliation (not ‘let’s get back together,’ just ‘I’m not angry and I’d like a fresh start without any preconceived expectations.’) My mom had offered to babysit for the afternoon, so once she got there I headed into town to call him. When I got there I realized I had left my phone at home, so I stopped by the grocery store before I headed back. As I was checking out, the cashier mentioned that their registers had been acting glitchy all morning. Then when I got back to the house I suggested that my mom take the kids to the swimming hole. She said no, I was just checking the weather and there are storm cells all up and down the east coast right now, it looks like one is heading this way in the next couple of hours— and I Freaked Out. A guy from the gas company had come out to check the propane tanks earlier that morning, and he was surprised that I could smell it from 20 feet away while he did so; I started thinking, “what if there’s a gas leak and the house gets hit by lightning and explodes?” Totally irrational and ridiculous, I know, but as I was scurrying around preparing for this hypothetical storm I realized “Oh, right— it’s me who needs grounding!” So I just took my shoes off and took a couple of deep breaths, and everything was fine. Then I remembered what I had been meaning to do, grabbed my phone and got back in the car, but it wouldn’t start. So I borrowed my mom’s car, texted B, and once again just utterly failed to communicate with him. Disappointing, but I think it probably was a mistake to try to talk to him right then. I gave up pretty quickly, and decided that it really didn’t feel like there was any huge storm coming after all, so I took the boys to our favorite swimming hole. There was a young man packing up to leave just as we arrived; we exchanged a few friendly words and then he rode off... on a unicycle! (This is like 5 miles up the mountain on an unpaved road.) Then on our way home, a fisherman walking on the shoulder of the road stuck out a thumb as I was going by, so I stopped. He needed a ride to the market, where he had left his bike, because he couldn’t ride it while carrying 2big jugs of water and a fishing rod. So he had walked from the market down to the pond with his gear, and was on his way back for the bike. I mentioned all the electronic weirdness, and he said he hoped my day got better. I said “Oh, no, it’s been great! I just quickly decided ‘screw all that, it can wait, it’s a beautiful day to be outside.” He gave me a big grin as he was getting out of the car and said “Yeah, I know exactly what you mean.”
It wasn’t until just last week that I recognized the cosmic joke of this moment: If only that second guy knew how to ride a unicycle! He wouldn’t have needed any help, so we probably never would have met...
I was remembering this on my way home just now, thinking I really ought to finish telling that part of the story, when lo and behold: who should be trudging down the road? Yup, that same guy!I’m sure you’ve all seen that bumper-sticker, right? “A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.”
A fisherman without a unicycle is like a woman without a _____??? IP: Logged |
Chanterelle
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posted October 10, 2020 07:36 AM
quote:
Originally posted by ballerina:
Thank you, Chanterelle!You have brought me magic
through numbers in music! The seven natural sequences HYPODORIAN 16/8 (F to F) Unison or octave
MIXOLYDIAN 14/8 (F to E) Harmonic 7th
LYDIAN 13/8 (F to D) Flat major 6th
PHRYGIAN 24/16 (F to C) Perfect 5th
DORIAN 11/8 (F to B) Sharp harmonic 4th
HYPOLYDIAN 20/16 (F to A) Major 3rd
HYPOPHRYGIAN 36/32 (F to G) Major tone Forty-nine sets of sequences grouped in
seven Modes gives wide tonal scope. That which gave the Harmoniai their
religio-philosophic importance was the
demonstration they provided that musical
--shall we say ' measured ' ?---Sound, in
a special sense, was the utterance of the
Divine Unity in the manifold manifestation
we call the Cosmos. These inevitable
sequences of ratios, forming constituent
parts of a Whole, we're the expression, in
Sound, of Arithmos (Number) in a different
sphere. They expressed the correspondences
of equal measure and of number, as they
occurred in Music, with equal measure and
number in the domain of Space-Time. It was
no wonder that the God playing an aulos or
pipe (and in later times a side-blown
flute) became the favourite
anthropomorphic figure for the divine
Creator, in cosmic poems for dramatic
representation. Orpheus had his forerunner
in India, and all such figures had their
prototype in Mesopotamia. The popular
representations of the Mother Goddess with
her kithara (dating from the sixth century
B.C. onwards) and of Apollo with his, were
only adaptations, in which the reason for
the aulos being the Harmonia-originating
instrument was ignored, the theory of the
seven natural scales having become an
esoteric tradition. None the less, the
natural scales themselves survived
wherever "equal measure", as I have
described it, was embodied in the pipe
itself. Nor was it extraordinary that in
the Ancient East the number 7, no less
than the number 8, stood for creation
---8 as a comprehensive Whole, and
especially as a completed cycle, and 7 as
the very expression of a differentiation
that was yet contained within, and itself
built up, a unity. ---from
Manifold Unity The Ancient World's Perception
of the Divine Pattern of Harmony
and Compassion By Collum
It was no wonder that the God playing an aulos or pipe (and in later times a side-blown flute) became the favourite anthropomorphic figure for the divine
Creator, in cosmic poems for dramatic representation. Orpheus had his forerunner in India, and all such figures had their prototype in Mesopotamia. Do you know what Kokopelli carries in the hump on his back? Seeds and stories.
Thanks, this definitely sounds like something worth looking into. Is it a book, or something you found online, or ...? IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 10, 2020 02:55 PM
Giggling...It is a book!
..and the story..seeds! I had just gotten internet for
the first time..clueless
Cable guy asks me for an email
name..I asked what I needed, he
explained, and I asked for a
few minutes to think. Went to
my room, asked for Mother and
Father God's advice..
I heard " the heart of the lotus
is one " ...walked back into
the living room and asked if
lotusheartone was available?
Yes, it was...
Couple weeks go by, and my mom
comes to visit..she gives me books
all the time..
That book is a part of 4
and in this book..the beginning
starts with a poem...
The Heart of the Lotus is 'One'... In the pOem forum, yellow wax
I have a topic on how I chose my
username..I'll go bump it..it
has the poem typed out! ..this world can be so magical! ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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posted October 12, 2020 09:43 PM
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posted October 13, 2020 06:43 AM
Never mind... there’s a rational explanation after all. But I’ll leave this last part anyway.
Whoever you are, thank you! I needed that— not the money, the affirmation.IP: Logged |
ballerina
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posted October 13, 2020 01:02 PM
That link brought me to gmail..but
I could not get into the account
from there..it kept asking me to allow
access to my contacts..I clicked on
deny....Anyways..lol..I'm lost... ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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ballerina
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posted October 13, 2020 01:10 PM
Went to yellow wax...
Not lost..I get it!
Affirmations!!!Yes, indeed! ------------------
All my love, with all my Heart
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posted October 13, 2020 05:33 PM
So I guess I’m still a techno-klutz who can’t even post a shareable link... and to think I was so proud of myself for not having to ask a teenager for help! Oh well, I’m sure I’ll figure it out eventually.
Seriously— this morning I was all set to be like “Hey, everybody! The tooth fairy is real!” Just because I found an extra dollar on my front porch. But it turns out I was actually being so absent-minded that apparently I dropped it and put a receipt under my daughter’s pillow instead! Lesson learned: there’s a fine line between gullibility and faith. Plus I guess after all that crying I needed to remember how to laugh at myself...IP: Logged | |
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