posted April 28, 2025 07:27 PM            

I'm new to this forum so here's my presentation to you.

I discovered it just some weeks ago while searching on the internet about many things concerning synastry.

I'm interested in and "practice" only tropical astrology, with just very basic notions of chinese astrology too for knowing more about the compatibility between people.

I confess I didn't even know who was Linda Goodman. I have never read a book of her or anything yet.
I live in France and I don't think that her works are very known here.

About this forum, I found many interesting posts and comments through many google researches.

So even if english is not my native language (sorry for the mistakes) and that I'm not at ease with any forum, I have decided to join this one for eventually interacting or asking some questions when needed.

I have studied astrology by my own when I was still a teenager, with french books, from different french astrologers I can't even remember all the names now.

It was mostly very "popular" astrology, based on exemples about celebrities, very "tabloid like", not always things very technical but I learnt a lot of interesting things.

I had still no internet at home at that time. All my modest knowledge was from paper books and personal observations in my life.

I also had a big book of ephemerides from the american rosicrucians (I've never been involved with any rosicrucians though, not at all my kind of things, I even think they are scary).

It was translated in french. It was my main reference for practising astrology.

Actually I use astrology mostly as an intuitive tool for trying to know better other people and myself, like some people do with tarots.

I don't feel connected with tarots, I'm not at ease with it, so I use astrology.

I just "feel" a chart according to my own sensations about it (like personal colors, symbolism and "energy" feelings, I don't know how to explain).

Technically my understanding is very limited (I'm a zero in maths, even additions are hard for me). I used nonetheless to make charts by myself the old fashion way with paper and pens when I had no technology.

But now of course I use technology. I use the French website Astrothème who is good (I don't know if it's possible to mention it here, sorry).

In a chart I consider only basic things like squares and sextiles for having a feeling of the interactions. It's generally largely sufficient, except for some very complicated cases.

I rarely consider asteroids, and about the "non physical things" I only consider the very basics : BM-lilith, NN/SN.
These two are for me among the most important things of a chart.

For me NN/SN are not necessarily about "karma" past lives, but they are effective anyway for explaining the meaning of our "destiny" here and now.

I have never known anyone reaching adult age who was not the proof that NN/SN is "real", it works anytime in the personality and life events.

I have a lot of difficulties to "feel" the meaning of lilith in most signs though.

I just can witness how "something" is happening when there is by example a conjunction with lilith in synastry between people. It works anytime in mysterious ways.

Eventually, I check chiron but I'm still unsure about its influence, my experience is quite contradictory with it, it remains mysterious...

Well, back about my life.
Later in my 20's (at the start of pluto in capricorn exactly), I stopped all interest in astrology, switching my beliefs to other spiritual interests (mostly buddhist).

It has been the beginning of a long dark period of problems of all kinds I can't explain in all details here. It was insane.

The transit of pluto in capricorn on my neptune first, and later in my 8th house, has been terrible.

I have been unlucky enough for been already engaged in a wrong way of life just before this transit, making a lot of wrong decisions, and I had to pay the price of it for 15 rough years.

What it did principally to me is that my interest for buddhism and some other spiritual things became obsessional and toxic to the point I lost everything from my past.

I lost progressively all interest for my passions and hobbies and got rid of every objects of my past, as a way of being "free" and purified of any material and "useless" interest.

You know, it was like an obsession about extreme "minimalism", like the way people like Marie Kondo were thinking.

But I was not even knowing what "minimalism" and Marie Kondo were at that time, it was influenced mostly by buddhism.

I basically wanted to live spiritually like an ancient "yogi" without material things, and I was unable to see how stupid and toxic this behaviour was for me in modern times.

I was no more interested by astrology during all this transit so I was totally unaware of what was happening. I realized only very recently that it was mostly due to this influence.

I have been amazed to see how everything I lived during these awful years was related to it.

It's not placebo, because I was knowing nothing about the transit and I was nonetheless totally under its influence...

That's why I'm now back to my interest for astrology. I know for sure that something works with it even if it's still beyond our human understanding.

During pluto capricorn I became totally addict to the internet, and it has played a major role in making me lose interest for material things

(you know, by exemple, I started to ask to myself : why keeping paper books or still buying music cd's when you have everything available on computers and smartphones, etc. ...)

It was very negative and destructive.
I was constantly destroying or putting the things I bought in the garbage after some time, and I was literally living in an empty house.

It was going against all my natural tendencies, because as a good moon cancer I was previously keeping everything possible as souvenirs, living in a mess full of old things, and I was very emotionally nostalgic.
You know, I was still sleeping with my old teddy bears until my late teenage years.

But during this transit I tried constantly to become "tougher", "adult", "serious", more "masculine", and to change my personality. To no avail of course.

I have naturally a quite "feminine" or more exactly "childish" kind of personality I can't change.

I'm in no way a super masculine man like what we see in action movies, so I wanted to become what was not even for me, and I almost ruined my body and health for this utopia.

I tried hard musculation for trying to look more masculine and strong. I was obsessed by the concept of "virility".

I think now that it was a direct effect of this transit of pluto squarring mars/venus/black moon aries in the same time in my chart at the beginning, and later in opposition with my moon cancer.

Oh, and of course I forget the transit of uranus in aries during this decade...

My relation with my body and my masculine identity was so unhealthy during this time.

In 2016 I have even been tempted at a moment by homosexuality, I tried one time in a gay club but it was definitely not for me.

During one year in 2017-2018, I also became almost obese voluntarily, just because I wanted to look and feel stronger and more impressive, like the japanese sumo.
Before that I was very slim.

I have been also generally experimenting all kinds of diets during these years, trying to improve my health but with only negative results.

I became extremely obsessed with the notions of order, discipline and perfection, which is normally not my natural tendency at all.

But in the same time it was ridiculous, because I was of course unable to keep any discipline for more than one week, and I was living like a junkie only using the internet day and night, out of reality.

Neptune in pisces surely had its influence too at a moment in making me lost in the internet and a never ending delusive "spiritual" quest, as if it was a drug.

Interestingly, it seems that this transit of pluto capricorn/neptune pisces had this kind of effect on many people in the world and society.

We witnessed during this time :

- religious extremism

- ancient mystical austerities and beliefs like semen retention coming back among the youth (nofap)

- countless conspiracy theories, actually mostly based on already existing 19th century theories coming back (about freemasons etc.)

- obsession about health (covid lockdown)

- obsession about body appearance and perfection (democratisation of esthetic surgery, fitness and gym, transidentity choice, instagram people showing their "perfect" life in Dubai, fake pictures etc.)

- primitive and "natural" diets and ways of life, based on discipline and different ideologies (paleo, vegan, ecology etc.)

- general repression of spontaneous love and sexuality, talked about mostly during this time under negative words, and progressively switched from the physical world to the virtual and internet (dating sites, pornography...)

- raise of loneliness and love/sexual frustration among the youth (a lot of young people recently never found a lover before their 25/30+years, which was a situation more unusual for the older generations

- and generally all kinds of repressive and quite intolerant behaviours in the same time that modernity was advencing.

It has been a strange mix between technological and so called ideological "progress" and a violent reaction against it.

I was, at a personal level, totally lost and confused in this emotional conflict, between attraction and total repulsion toward modernity and change.
Trying to find in strict ancient behaviours and traditional beliefs a moral security for being grounded.

Also, paradoxically, during this long period dedicated for a great part to what I considered the highest spirituality, I lost my natural ability to have significant dreams...

Before that, I was quite intuitive and had many premonitory dreams, but it has been stopped during all this transit.

I was obviously on the wrong way and profoundly disconnected from my soul and destiny, and the clear sign of it was my inability to be connected to the symbolims of my dreams.

I think my addiction to the internet and watching and reading anything was also an important reason of this situation. Something changed for the worst in my energy and personality because of it.

It made a spiritual veil on my mind and made me blind to my own truth, as long as I was dedicating my time reading, listening and watching all sorts of contradictory things on the internet.

It's not impossible too that the raise of electric waves everywhere who did not exist 20 years ago like 4/5G accumulated with all the other waves, the new "satellite constellations" of Elon Musk etc. could have been negative and saturating the natural energetic field, to the point we can now hardly be as intuitive as we were in the past...

Also my emotional and physical relationship with sexuality has been terribly negative.

A lot of repression (obsession with yoga/tantric semen retention notably) causing me finally diseases and problems (I have been in the obligation to check medically if I had a prostate cancer two years ago)

And I can't explain here all the moral sufferings I had to go through. It was almost unbearable.

I have been celibate, alone during all this time, no need to mention.

Pleagued by psoriasis all the time.

Now that this transit is over and that I understand what happened, I feel a kind of release, as if a long battle is over.

I feel better, but those past years will stay forever as bad memories I will have to manage.

It made me lost the joy and self confidence I had younger.

I feel very insecure and afraid now.

I need to be under regular psychiatric medication sometimes since the last two years, for the first time in my life.

I feel as if I have to reconnect with my real self now, but the work is not necessarily easy.

Anyway, it's my recent back to my interest in astrology in the process that made me found this forum.

So that's why I'm here today letting this testimony.

Maybe it will be interesting for some people searching in the future informations about how this pluto capricorn transit has been felt by some.