posted February 06, 2009 04:58 AM         

It is depressing tho. Most of my friends are in different places and in general Saturn is just kind of annoying. I can't tell how he is retro right now. Just feels like Saturn to me, though lately it's felt a little more free, and I'm wondering if it's me getting used to the transit?

posted February 06, 2009 05:09 AM         

The last 2.5 years have been very challenging in my relationship. There was a problem that surfaced about 6 months ago, which gave me all the answers as to why my partner was going through a difficult time. Luckily, we found out then, as I was contemplating leaving.

Now, our future is looking brighter and my partner has been experiencing a lot of good luck lately in the career arena.

I had also been under a lot of pressure in my job as I had challenging caseloads (I work with children). Policies changed, and staffing was cut which increased our workload and stress levels.

In the turbulent chaos, a situation arose which felt too good to be true. It felt like a watery mirage in a desert. It left me feeling captivated and could have easily distracted me from the real issues that were happening in my life. In other words, it may have been Fool's Gold. Luckily, I kept on my humble path and suffered my partner until they were over their medical issues.

I felt challenged by forces I had no control of, but had to stay and face the music. It wore me down. But I wasn't going to run away. I felt like I was witness to my own 'rough patch' and I had to be adult enough to stand tall, and let all the chaos find its own way.

Saturn left my 5th house 2 months ago. In that time, I've had a holiday, been given a dream caseload at work and my partner and I are back to being great friends again!!

Saturn is the Taskmaster. He makes us work hard by giving us harsh challenges to serve as a purpose to grow. What is not meant to be falls away like dead leaves (in my opinion, of course).

Uranus was also in opposition to Saturn. That could have confounded my situation. Is Saturn in aspect to your Uranus?

You say 3 of your firends have left. In this last year, significant relationships have changed for me, too. In a spooky kind of way, this seems connected to my partner's past medical issue. It was like Destiny sifted out people that were not meant to be in my life, and my partner is definitely meant to be around. (Can you hear Twilight Zone music?) That is exactly how my life has been over those 2.5 years - Really weird!!!

posted February 06, 2009 05:20 AM         

Gemlike...hehe, so you've got Uranus square Moon natally? I have the opposition and yeah, it does make for some mean insomnia LOL

posted February 06, 2009 05:23 AM         

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but somehow, he's also making me *trust* myself too....he won't let me ignore my intuition, and for that I am growing more and more grateful, because I feel like I actually don't have to work so hard to trust it,

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posted February 06, 2009 06:19 AM           

as 12h is about spirituality,our past life and skeletons in the closet,secrets ...

i guess saturn there makes us willing to find out all that is burried into our subcounscious.

posted February 06, 2009 07:27 AM         

what I feel most (and I'm not even sure it's bc the Saturn but it might be) is a strange sense of being floating above it all, I'm at a distance to my own life... I can see patterns, the bigger picture of things, fated meeting, meanings... I think about what life is about, who I am, where I'm going... And with this perspective the details doesn't matter.. so I have a hard time focusing at my job, because I don't feel it matter anyway!
I'm feeling spiritual.. melancholy.. I don't know..

It's all very weird..