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Topic: 11th house chiron and saturn
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sunshine_lion
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posted February 18, 2009 12:19 PM
in 11th house
sun about to conjunct
moon is squarei am thinking about quitting my band
is it my path or my transits?
i want to sing and play acoustically coffee house style
i dont want to play blues and rock anymore
i love playing with the guys, but it isn't me, it isnt my style and i feel so invisable.
i tried to tell them a long time ago that it was not my dream. hormones may be playing a part in the way i feel, just depressed and knowing if i make that choice it will hurt and disappiont certain people. but no one listens, i never wanted what they want, i just played becasue it was fun. my styleis not thiers andi play thier songs and i play thier songs and i suck sometimes because my heart is not in it. all beautiful things come from a pure heart. is it my transits, my hormonal emotions, or just time to be true to myself and do my own thing? god, i wish i knew. what i want to do will never be popular, i dont even care about that. why does everyone have to be so lonely inside? or is it just me IP: Logged |
sunshine_lion
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posted February 18, 2009 12:28 PM
raining on the inside
my heart swells with the forming clouds that stop somewhere in my throat
see the rain must stay inside
i can't disappoint you with my dark clouds
it is not what you want to see
and i try so hard not to disappoint
such a good girl
always doing the right thing
knowing the lonliness of the rain
dripping on the inside walls
of the heart that is unknowable untouchable and pehaps unlovable
i can't live your dream anymore
i can not give to you what i do not have
my eyes betray me, just like i betray myself
so i may not look at you, i must hide the
rain
the last thing anyone wants is a sunshine girl with pain
and in the solitude of this cleansing process
find myself clean again
if indeed I don't drown
because today on the inside
the rain is just pouring downIP: Logged |
sunshine_lion
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posted February 18, 2009 12:37 PM
uranus is conjunct both chiron and saturn. venus just moved into my 12th house. maybe i just need to ride this out.IP: Logged |
blue moon
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 18, 2009 12:38 PM
Sorry, I didn't quite get the transits there, but they might be describing how you feel hormonally as well as creatively.If you need to let someone down it's sometimes better to do it now, so they can organise their life, rather than wait for what is inevitable and make it more protracted. I don't know if that is relevant but it is the first thing sprang to my mind. IP: Logged |
blue moon
Knowflake Posts: 144
From: U.K
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 18, 2009 12:40 PM
Transiting Uranus Conjunct Saturn? That's a real push me- pull me effect. It's not going to help if you are feeling emotional. Not easy. IP: Logged |
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