posted February 28, 2009 07:26 PM         

I know there is a larger force at work, a bigger picture that gives us what we "need" in life to grow spiritually and emotionally, which may not coincide with what we want... which may hurt us, and make us feel uncomfortable, and force us to struggle. But why does life always have to be so hard? Why does all soul growth have to come from unhappiness, struggle and pain. Why can't it come from happiness, expansion, and comfort?

After a period of hardship and trial, when does one get to relax and reap the rewards of all their hard work. Why does life always seem to be one crashing wave after another? Just when you think you have time to breathe and get on your feet again, another wave just comes crashing over you, knocking you down over and over.

I don't know if anyone else has been feeling like this lately, but for some reason I'm having one of those downer weekends, where everything just feels like an uphill battle.

I've been through some really hard transits, but so has everyone else, I know that it's just life, so I don't deserve a self pity party. But does anyone else have those moments where you just think "WHY"?? Why do I have to go through this or that hardship? To teach me something? ....sure, fine, I get that, life lessons must be learned, but why does life just seem to be one big hard life lesson?

posted February 28, 2009 07:30 PM           

i just cope with it. not saying i don't suffer, but i just cope with it all, all the feelings.

i have my own medicine to help me cope.

takes me away from the crap, and it lets my mind escape from all these problems/worries.

posted February 28, 2009 09:43 PM         

LL09, I'm sure we're not alone in feeling this way. I don't know about you, but the hopeless feeling is stronger some days than others. I've been trying to take all these hardships as lessons learned, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm just so tired of always having to struggle all the time, whether it be with outside forces, or just inside my own head. It doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping lately either. I wish I could take something to relieve my worries, but my body does not respond well to most medicines. The side effects always seem to outweigh the benefits. I hope you feel better soon! I'm trying to practice positive affirmations. I will send some positive energy your way too!

posted February 28, 2009 09:58 PM         

Dream sweet dreams tonight of everything your heart desires and l hope tomorrow is happier for you x

posted March 01, 2009 02:56 AM           

i TOTALLY feel your frustration. as i went through similar circumstances, courtesy of Pluto and Saturn

posted March 02, 2009 01:49 PM           

You are dealing with what you have been dealing with because that is the product of the environment in and around you. If it's a job, love life, home/family .. step back from the situation and try to take your emotions out of it for a while. You may be struggling because whatever negativity is coming toward you is a signal to MOVE ON, GET OUT, ACCEPT it or CHANGE it.

Is it coming from within? Depression/anxiety you can't explain? Try to find the source of it..you can always, always change things. You may not be able to change things to your ideal but you can change everything either directly or indirectly by putting yourself in a new place or state of mind.

It takes a lot of out a person, but it sounds like you need to do some real soul-searching. Be honest with yourself but realize that you have the power to help yourself.

It took me the past 12 years to realize this, and I am just now setting myself straight. It's a good feeling

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Capricorn sun / Scorpio rising / Sagittarius moon

posted March 04, 2009 04:39 PM         

i've been there myself and all i can say is it not only DOES get better, but i think you have to go through this to get to where you CAN learn and grow without the pain-spurs...its just that most people tend to coast when nothing is whipping them, so to speak.

posted March 04, 2009 10:36 PM         

I completely understand how you feel. Life is hell and it isn't shy in letting you know that. I've been feeling the same way for years (thank you 12th house pluto transit).

Sometimes it feels like after all of the struggle and pain, you may get one brief second of happiness if you're lucky and then life will knock you down again. It hurts and it's frustrating, but unfortunately that's the way life is.

So I'll just end my not-so-comforting post by giving you a virtual hug: *HUG*