posted April 24, 2009 08:51 AM         

Please help me. I have subtle feelings of foresight, but seem to, for whatever reason, ignore them. Of course my foresight does not predict the future. But it predicts something is off about people...But I IGNORE IT!

This got me into HEAPS of trouble Feb. 3, 2009, if you look at my chart. worst f---ing day of my life, I was emotionally, mentally, etc scared and damaged right down to the core. I will not say what happened, but it was awful. Why the hell did I not pay attention to that funny feeling within? I did not know exactly what was in store but I had a funny feeling something was off, couldn't pin point it.

Now, about a week and a half ago, I met someone, a friend (sag). Hit it off, looked to be a good friendship. Feelings are on high these past few days because I thought they were cool. Only to find, despite ignoring my gut instinct, what I expected deep within. That is: I knew something was off but did not know quite what it was or how to explain it. This is not even a matter of stubbornness, knowing something is off and wanting only good, not that.. I just can not explain it. No matter, the fact is, I should have had the instinct to bolt.

Early February was the WORST part of my life, worse than what many people will ever have to experience probably, very tough. March, especially late March, saw a lot of: a. Going back to my roots, being pampered like a child despite my deep need for independence and I am 24, I NEEDED that b. positive/adventurous change and new surroundings at the end of March, including a solo trip to Berlin. Now, what happened today, was bitter but I will get over it. Not to tough, but hurts just the same. I NEED TO exercise that rational side deep within that I know I have. I have it. This person avoided hurting me because they thought I was honest and nice. But still, before they came clean, upon another refusal, I was still kinda bumming you know? No matter, nothing a little beer can not fix.

But, anyways, if folks know about day to day astrology compared to peoples charts, I wonder when matters improve and I will really hit my stride.

I am discovering new aspects of myself, socially speaking, in the least expected aspects and in leaps in bounds, at work.

Well, I can not continue to blather on.

I am sorry, I can not offer much astrology advice, but I can offer music suggestions and tracks in exchange for your help if you would like. Or a chat buddy.

I look forward to what folks have to say. is that February nightmare behind me? will I finally learn to listen to that blasted inner gut feeling, even if it is not exactly detailed?

posted April 24, 2009 04:46 PM         

I would say, totally non-astrologically now... that, you keep falling for people against your gut instinct cos you need to learn a lesson which could be as simple as "listening to your gut"

I had a horrific 6 years with someone and it all started cos i didn't listen to my intuition. Well, as you can imagine NOW i always listen to it - but it took relationship after relationship to teach me this one lesson which has now, ironically transformed my life!

posted April 24, 2009 10:41 PM         

Okay, that pic is from another forum photo album. I will try directly from the site, even though the pic disappears after a few days.

Third time is a charm, sorry to be a bother:

Hey, I used to come here as carlfloydfan, about 300 posts.

Good to be back.

Here is the chart, hopefully it stays put this time:

posted April 24, 2009 10:50 PM         

There is something wrong with your URL. Do hipforums have a link that specifically says "for UBB forums"? If yes, that will be the one to use.

posted April 24, 2009 10:56 PM         

And wow, I amazed, your memory is very good.

Indeed I am a scorpio/aries combo. That aries moon perhaps makes for some very impulsive behaviors. I always like new things. Yes, three years strong with the Frenchie.

posted April 24, 2009 11:07 PM         

However, you have the other "I should trust my gut, but just can't seem to do it" conflict in your chart: Water vs. Saturn/Capricorn. Having a Sun/Saturn conjunction in a water sign often means that while you have that water sign's intuition, it will often be restricted by Saturn's logic.

It doesn't help that you happen to have Capricorn rising, so that Saturn is your chart's ruling planet plus have Mars in Capricorn so that your Sun's co-ruler is also very logical and earthy.

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posted April 24, 2009 11:44 PM         

I don't know what it is called - perhaps the astrology of timing, or something. But I don't know if the current out look, where the planets are now, will look any better for me. Like I said, that one date in my 1st post was terrible. I don't know if, astrology speaking, where the planets were that night compared to my chart, there is any indication of what took place.

But perhaps, if I can take any kind of positive from that moment, as tough as that notion is, it is a turning point where I reinvent my inner being. To get out of odd situations if I sense something is off, first off.

posted April 25, 2009 12:35 AM         

Sadly, I seem to attract either a. Very very giving and helpful people or b. Very sly under handed (and sometimes but very rarely) even dangerous people. There doesn't seem to be middle ground often.

Again, I am totally interested in how my chart plays out on day to day basis.

So thanks for the help all, either with posting pics, advice and insight or even just comments!

edit to respond to your edit: I really feel like a peaceful person most of the time, and act that way a lot. I wonder if something in the chart conflicts with the "war/conflict" aspect. I mean, I don't know if I am attracted like the moth (but maybe on a deep subconscious level I am and I need to realize that), because I try to be a recluse and just chill out a lot too. I prefer lots of alone time for reflection and down time. But again, maybe deep within that is what I do, go to trouble (sometimes) in a naive like way..

posted April 25, 2009 12:54 AM         

I am coming into my own socially in some respects, but that shyness and need for lots of alone time will always remain and I am okay with that. Mostly to listen to music.

I need to get into writing again too. I used to do that a lot and even wrote a book when I was 17/18/19, just for fun. It was like 100+ pages.

But I am teaching now, and I am quite humorous and, kind of have to be outgoing in those times. And I think I do a good job too. which makes my retreats back into recluse-land the rest of the time all the much better. I don't think I will ever have massive amounts of friends. But when I want to and feel the need to and have interesting people around, I can be real outgoing, if I am passionate about the topic.

Thanks for the help. I realize a lot or remember things I use to know that I have forgotten.

How do the two sag placements come into play? I love to travel, it is an addiction and I think sags have always been known to like chilling and can be shy. I am becoming obsessed with geography a little.

posted April 25, 2009 01:16 AM         

The sun and the moon were squaring your sun and your Saturn conjunction. This was not exactly your day to shine.

Mercury was squaring your moon. Miscommunication and hurt feelings.

Your Venus in Sagg was squared by Saturn in Virgo and Uranus in Pisces. Double whammy! Must have been wild. You probably experienced a breakup or loss of some sort. Some of it was expected, while some of it came out of the blue.