posted October 12, 2009 05:38 AM         

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Do you have any idea what (if anything) Lucifer oppose Angel by 0.02 degrees means?
Lucifer is at Aqua 2'36, conjuncting my Ascendent at Aqua 0'59 and my name asteroid at Aqua 3'29. Angel is at Leo 2'38. I also have Saturn squaring this opposition (in the 9th house) at Scorpio 3'25 (and also DNA at 5'58 though it's wide). Opposing that is Juno at Taurus 4'52 and Hekate at 4'31.
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This is a powerful karmic Grand Cross, indicating that in one of your lifelines, you played the role of someone who behaved like a "Fallen Angel", possibly misusing occult black magick or even teaching sex-magick rituals to others.

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I don't have a strong Kaali, except that it closely quintiles my Ascendent, squares Drakonia by 1 degree, and inconjuncts north node by 1 degree.
The Hekate/Kaali MP conjuncts Siva exactly.
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This is not weak at all, it shows Tantrik Motivations, and these need not be negative.

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I also have aspects like (within 2 degrees, most less that a degree):

DNA oppose Hekate
Lucifer trine Sun
Karma conjunct Venus
Kaali/Lucifer MP conjunct Neptune
Lucifer square Saturn
Lililth quintile Moon, sextile DNA, inconjunct Lucifer, trine Hekate
DNA inconjunct Uranus and Jupiter
Lucifer trine Chiron
Hekate oppose Saturn
Karma trine Neptune
Drake square Mars
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Overall theme looks like that of a positive occultist who has learnt from past life occult mistakes. Lucifer trine Chiron and Karma trine Neptune are very positive aspects for an occult healer or occult teacher.

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And I have no idea if this means anything (I'm not at all familiar with these points/asteroids) but I have:

Sphinx - Scorpio 14'8
Merlin - Scorpio 16'49
Medusa - Scorpio 16'22
Ixion - Scor 16'9
Quaoar - Scor 15'58
Kaali -Scor 18'25
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This just indcates your deep black magic knowledge in that dark past lifeline.
IXION, MERLIN and MEDUSA combo is scary, you must have really lived it up with wine, women and plenty of more "Ambrosia" perhaps in a 4th D Astral magick and orgy focused life

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So am I evil or what?! Actually, I have been 'visited' (not voluntarily, but I can control/block it for the most part now, unlike when I was younger) by negative inter-dimensional entities since I was still in my crib. I've had a suspicion that they are reptilians for a while now, but I guess that's for another thread!
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Thread provided. You are a triple Air, triple airs just do not have the focus to be evil. Evil needs cold, patient, cunning and psycotic motivations. Evil needs plenty of Water Sign planets. Water signs are easy to program by the reptilians/negative entities into doing evil acts against their own conscience.

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posted October 12, 2009 01:02 PM         

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"This is a powerful karmic Grand Cross, indicating that in one of your lifelines, you played the role of someone who behaved like a "Fallen Angel", possibly misusing occult black magick or even teaching sex-magick rituals to others.

Overall theme looks like that of a positive occultist who has learnt from past life occult mistakes. Lucifer trine Chiron and Karma trine Neptune are very positive aspects for an occult healer or occult teacher."
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This is interesting! When I was a teenager I was having major issues with the entities I see. I had been seeing them for a long time but they were getting very strong and I couldn't sleep because they would torment me, both when I was awake and whilst dreaming. I went to a psychic at a local spiritualist community. She told me that I have had 3 lifetimes in ancient Egypt. During the second one I was a high priestess that got involved involved in black magic. By the end of that lifetime I had gone 'back to the light.' The third lifetime I spent helping others out of their involvement with black magic. She also said these entities are strong and had come to her earlier in the day, turned her incense a foul smell and warned her not to give me a reading! It was after this reading that I started learning how to block them and started getting my power back (I do still see/hear/feel them at times though, although it's MUCH easier to get rid of hem when I do).

I'm guessing that the entities I see are brought over from one of those lifetimes when I invited them in? Either way, I can finally say it has been good for me in a way because it has improved by courage and focus. The only thing that gets rid of them is to focus on light and God. My focus has been on Advaita Vedanta/Non-Duality combined with Bhakti/Devotion (I don't think the two paths are mutually exclusive) for several years now, though I must admit for the past month or so (positive) Witchcraft/the Occult is having an appeal which is odd for me.

<<"I don't have a strong Kaali, except that it closely quintiles my Ascendent, squares Drakonia by 1 degree, and inconjuncts north node by 1 degree.
The Hekate/Kaali MP conjuncts Siva exactly.
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This is not weak at all, it shows Tantrik Motivations, and these need not be negative."
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Oh, I also have Kaali sextile Mercury by a degree.

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"And I have no idea if this means anything (I'm not at all familiar with these points/asteroids) but I have:

Sphinx - Scorpio 14'8
Merlin - Scorpio 16'49
Medusa - Scorpio 16'22
Ixion - Scor 16'9
Quaoar - Scor 15'58
Kaali -Scor 18'25
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This just indcates your deep black magic knowledge in that dark past lifeline.
IXION, MERLIN and MEDUSA combo is scary, you must have really lived it up with wine, women and plenty of more "Ambrosia" perhaps in a 4th D Astral magick and orgy focused life" <<

LOL, that would be amusing if I had been obsessed with women as I'm a (heterosexual) woman now! I also very rarely drink alcohol (I guess I've learned my lesson) and have only touched drugs once. I actually don't know anything at all about Ixion (or Quaoar); I think I saw Glaucus using them so I just tried them. I can guess what Merlin means (though he practiced white magic, right?), and for some reason I just saw Medusa and had a feeling that was important so I checked it. I don't know anything about the meaning except her hair is made of snakes! I'm going to research these though.

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"Thread provided. You are a triple Air, triple airs just do not have the focus to be evil. Evil needs cold, patient, cunning and psycotic motivations. Evil needs plenty of Water Sign planets. Water signs are easy to program by the reptilians/negative entities into doing evil acts against their own conscience."

I don't have any Water in my main planets/points (not asteroids) except a Scorpio Saturn and Scorpio MC (conjunct Psyche, square Venus). My Sun is in the 8th though, 3 degrees away from asteroid Horus. But Venus exactly conjunct Karma which exactly trines Neptune and the Galactic Center doesn't sound so evil. Does it?!?!

Again, you so much! You are so knowledgeable! I have been studying astrology since I was young (my mom and aunt have enough astrology books to fill a small library) but I don't know of any books that gets into the depth of this forum. I am learning so much!

posted October 12, 2009 03:51 PM         

How do you view life?
What are your relationships like, romantic, personal and family wise?

Do you remember what happened to you during these childhood visits?

And to send my thoughts in amongst your recent interest in the Occult is because the shift in the Energies. For some reason it seems like those of us who have had past lives in which we engaged in Darker Magical Practices, actually are starting to be able to remember those lifelines. And that is giving us the chance to heal those lifelines as we are no longer afraid of the Karma that we are now immune too. And so we take baby steps back into a lifeline by learning how these things work. The Tarot, Astrology, Alchemy, Tantrik, and the use of your Mind Power, and its ability to manifest anything your desire in accordance to the laws of this Universe and the purpose of your Life Path.... the intelligence of the Universe is at your disposal my dear...this is backed up by your "Venus exactly conjunct Karma which exactly trines Neptune and the Galactic Center" and that Horus Conjunct Sun showed that you could resonate to the frequency of a lifeline that connects to the Energy that Horus embodies despite his many forms in all of them he is regarded as the Prince of the gods and the specific patron of the living ruler.
It is thought by expert Egyptologist John Anthony West that the worship of Horus was brought from the outside by neighboring tribes who invaded and then settled into Egypt. He was their God of war, but was quickly absorbed into the state religion, first as a son of Ra, then changing to become the son of Osiris. He was the protector and guide to the Pharaoh and later Pharaohs were believed to be his avatar on earth. Horus was also the patron of young men and the ideal of the dutiful son who grows up to become a just man.

No apply this what is an Avatar? A representation of something right, it embodies the principle of whatever it respresents so that eventually you associate the avatar to what it is describing. Horus was also depicted as a Falcon on the back of Pharoahs head located right were his 3rd Chakra was, and gave evidence that, that Pharoah was connected to his higher self.

Horus that close to your Sun says that in many lives you have walked as one with your higher self, even as you continue to do in this lifetime. You have overcome your programming with your own GPS, your connection to your higher self is where you got your road map.

If you dont mind me asking. What is your birth information, name,date and time...ANd if any of the above questions resonate with you as to revealing then do not answer them. I just want to get a feel for how your thought patterns are, and what condition your Chakras are in... Oh and namaste, as I dont think we have met on here.

posted October 12, 2009 04:15 PM         

I make some rather interesting conj. to you chart with the concerned asteroids.

Kaali/Pallas 19'17 Scorpio
Hekate 17'5 Scorpio
Sun 2'52 Aquarius
Jupiter 21'32 Pisces
DNA 3'3 Libra

posted October 12, 2009 06:44 PM         

No apply this what is an Avatar? A representation of something right, it embodies the principle of whatever it respresents so that eventually you associate the avatar to what it is describing. Horus was also depicted as a Falcon on the back of Pharoahs head located right were his 3rd Chakra was, and gave evidence that, that Pharoah was connected to his higher self.

Horus that close to your Sun says that in many lives you have walked as one with your higher self, even as you continue to do in this lifetime. You have overcome your programming with your own GPS, your connection to your higher self is where you got your road map.

If you dont mind me asking. What is your birth information, name,date and time...ANd if any of the above questions resonate with you as to revealing then do not answer them. I just want to get a feel for how your thought patterns are, and what condition your Chakras are in... Oh and namaste, as I dont think we have met on here. "

OneruledbyMars -

Nice to meet you too! Thank you so much for your post. It really resonates with me. I couldn't understand why in the past 2 months or so I felt called to the Tarot and further into Astrology and even to learning more about Witchcraft (which I haven't looked into since I was a teenager). It seemed so different from my usual focus. I thought it would go away but the draw as only gotten stronger over the past week or two.

I was born on 9/28/1983 at 4:19 pm in Buffalo, NY.

"I must ask you to describe your emotional life for me.
Are you happy? Stressed out?
How do you view life?
What are your relationships like, romantic, personal and family wise?

Do you remember what happened to you during these childhood visits?"

I would say that I'm very happy now. I went through a few periods of depression, the last being over 3 years ago while I was in a bad relationship. Honestly, for the past couple of years and especially this year, I go through periods on extreme bliss and love (it’s enlightenment except it doesn’t last, a feeling of total surrender and of Oneness with God, totally transcending the limited and finite personality), with feelings of anxiety and limitation again. These anxious aren't about the 'normal' things people get anxious about, but more a feeling that I have a mission to do on Earth and I'm failing. Or that I should feel amazing like I did last week (or whenever)! Why did I ‘fall out of‘ enlightenment!? Maybe I’m a fraud! I try to force myself to release whatever is blocking me from total and permanent Enlightenment, when of course the biggest thing impeding me is my own struggle, resistance, and non-acceptance of the present moment. And I’ve also been writing a book over the past few years, which sometimes gives me anxiety, because it forces me to look at my motivations and deal with my own feelings of unworthiness over writing a book of a spiritual nature.

But when I feel that anxiety I'm more and more likely to quickly identify it for what it is (not get mad at myself for it) and let it go. Actually I accept it unconditionally which is the only way to let it go. I will admit that the deeper I get into the path the more intense the struggle periods seem to be when they do come up. It usually feels like intense internal warfare. These feel different than the depression periods. When I went through the first I called it my ‘dark night of the soul.’ Little did I know that there would be more to come, though thankfully not as long. These dark nights are different from the depression because I never give up home or turn away from God, even though it can feel like God has turned away from me (not true, of course).

It is becoming more and more absolutely clear to me how much I love life. It wasn't always that way. But now I can see life from a different perspective, from a perspective outside of this finite ‘me,’ and I know that before being incarnated I really wanted to be here. It is a privilege and a blessing. And it's not just that I like my life right now because my life has circumstances that are considered good. Instead it is that life itself, all of it, both the so-called good and bad parts, the love and the pain, I love all of it. God that I am loves all experience, for all experience is an expression of God. I love not just my life but the process of life in all of the universe. Everything that happens in the world, I love it. And I am so grateful for it. It's an odd perspective I know, but true. Yet I don't feel overly attached to life. I want to be here right now, but my true Self encompasses but is far more than this physical universe. I kind of feel like I'm here and it's fragile and I might get taken back at anytime and I have no control over that but that's okay because it’s all for a reason. I’ll say ‘it's been fun and wonderful, thank you.”

Let's see...relationships. My relationship with my mom is fantastic; we are best friends. She and my aunt (her sister) were always into "New Age" things. We definitely are in the same soul group. I'm an only child and only grandchild on her side of the family. My mom's side of the family was small so we were close. My parents got divorced when I was 2 and he remarried and I have 2 step brothers. They are all very different from me. They have no interest in the spiritual. I used to hate going there when I was growing up. I didn't like my dad at all at the time. I felt he criticized and controlled me and didn't understand me or even care to. I get along much, much better with him now although we are still different and he still doesn't understand me or care too. I think I just learned to stand up for myself when I needed to and let go of the rest and don't take it so personally. I'm not that close to my step bothers or step mother, we get along fine but sometimes it's awkward, which is weird because they've been in m life since I was 3 or 4. Romantic relationships...I was engaged once but called it off 5 weeks before. I was young and he was older and abusive. Another learning and growing experience. I've been single for over 3 years now. To be honest I guess I'm still avoiding relationships. Not because of past experience, but because I feel so different from most people. I get along fine with people superficially, I used to be shy but I'm not anymore (still an introvert yet you wouldn't know it), but at the core I am just different. I have also been in soul contact, first through dreams and while awake, with my twin flame for the past 11 years. At first I was anxious and desperate to meet him (and forced the fit with too many men until I learned my lesson), and I'm not willing to settle for less, even if that means being alone. The same would apply to friends. I’ve never had many at all. It’s difficult to find people with the same outlook on life. Sometimes I feel like an alien or an initiate on some lonely path. I do like people though. I am usually light and happy, am well read, and have a dry sense of humor so I get along well in social situations.

Childhood visits...I first remember seeing them while I was in the crib. They weren’t as intense then. I just saw them in my room and they scared me even then. Later, when I could talk more, I told my mom there was a man in my room. She thought it was a ghost, she didn’t understand what I see. They are hard to explain, they aren’t in human form yet I know they are beings, entities. By age 7 or 8 I’d see them voluntarily. I could control it more back then. I had to put my fists over my eyes and I’d see them in black and white. Often I’d try and they wouldn’t come. It is all swirling and changing and it’s like I’m falling into their world or flying through it. there are many of them, yet they have a group mind. I’d see it until it would scare me and I’d stop. It was a thrill. A ‘cool‘ thing I could do, leaving the classroom and going somewhere else without anyone knowing or anyone else being able to do it. Sometimes I’d dream of them and that was terrifying because there was no control and couldn’t escape. Sometimes I’d hear them. I used to call it a ‘song‘ because their language is almost musical. Sometimes I wonder if it is really a language or more just their intent is put through sounds and others pick it up. Sometimes I understand and sometimes I don’t. Yet it is always menacing.

By age 14 or 15 it started getting more intense. Bright, vibrant colors, and now I’d see them at night trying to sleep. No more control. they’d fly around my room shouting and charge me. Every time I’d close my eyes they were there, always on the brink. Sometimes I could even see them in the daylight. I had let them in, thinking I could control it, so now they had more power. Other physics told me it was good, and I just didn’t understand, so I asked them to make me understand but they just laughed and said things like “You are my victim.” they are very cold, no emotions like humans. Yet they are intelligent, not like earth-bound spirits who are drug addicts or something. And there are many of them. Though I suppose on some level it is an aspect of me, a shadow side of me or the whole of humanity. I could feel them go into my body and sometimes on my tongue, which left a metallic taste. So I went to that psychic and realized how bad they really were and started blocking them. I’d still get the dreams sometimes, which were terrifying to the point it felt like my mind would split. Eventually in one of the dreams they came to me and I was in a dragons mouth! I was so scared but I got the idea to just focus on God and not on the fear. I awoke immediately and have never dreamt of them again. I use that technique now if I see them. I just refuse to focus on them. Still sometimes I’l have bad nights, where they are really insistent. Some things (sounds usually, like chants) trigger me to hear them. But they don’t come around as much.

Oh, also when I was 15, right before I went to this psychic, I was purposely seeing these entities in class. After I stopped something happened to my hearing. I wasn’t hearing ‘them‘ talk to me but more like I had very sensitive hearing. Every small sound was amplified and I could hear the sound waves crackle and crash off the floor, ceiling, and walls. It lasted about an hour. I was really scary at first but once it happened a few times I thought it was cool because I wasn’t really hearing them, I was just hearing in another dimension. I think those entities are from the astral dimension and seeing them opened me up to that dimension. This didn’t happen all that often, and hadn't happened in years until a few months ago when it happened again during a meditation. First time that had happened without seeing the entities first.

I’m sure that was more info than you wanted. I left out the energy that has been shooting up my spine since I was very young but have just in the past few years started to control, the spontaneous OBE’s I’ve started to have the past year, the telepathic communication with my spirit guides over the past few years (finally, as I always worried that I only saw these negative beings and nothing good, and to be honest the negative ones are still the clearest), and the two Samadhi states I’ve experienced, where I was identical with the Infinite. It’s been fun, even though most of the time I have no idea what’s going on or what to do about it all!

Namaste,

posted October 13, 2009 12:32 PM         

Maybe I was a bad influence on you in a past life! Do you remember any lifetimes where you used Magick? Or any in Ancient Egypt? Maybe in Europe in the Middle Ages? Others?"

posted October 13, 2009 01:21 PM         

You have a very strong KAALI, exactly quincunx True Node and Squared by Mercury.
KAALI in Scorpio activates reptilian genetics. [All human beings on Earth today have 15 to 50% reptilian DNA. The 50% chaps are evil because they think that they are superior. ]

You have an interesting synastry with Lara and with my self.

1. Lara has KAALI conjunct REGULUS in tropical. You have KAALI conjunct REGULUS in 29 Leo in your Draconic Chart!
Tropically, your Mars conjuncts REGULUS.
Thats a very royal bloodline type of Spiritual Past.

2. Your Dr Saturn exactly conjuncts my Tropical Saturn. So I can learn from your past lifelines
And your Tropical Saturn exactly trines my Sun.

3. Your Moon exactly conjuncts Lara's Ascendant.

More later....

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posted October 13, 2009 01:44 PM         

hm should we be worried IQ? lol but Kaali always seemed to relate to Pluto to me. I have experienced astral entities in the physically whilst in bed I was not sayb scared just surprised surprisingly. Since then I have done whatb IQ recommended and have Lapis Lazuli close to me always.

posted October 13, 2009 01:52 PM         

EDIT:
I just see that Kaali is already on the brink of moving into Sagittarius. So did these visitations / psychic experiences increase during the last month(s)?

posted October 13, 2009 02:55 PM         

As far as increased visitations, etc. I would say yes. I have a thread right now on paranormal activity & several have noted visitation experiences there in addition to the ones here.

posted October 13, 2009 07:29 PM         

I find somethings very interesting in your chart as well. Consider your Aura Asteroid at 19 Sag, its loosely conjunct your Neptune but opposes your Moon and is conjunct your South Node. Whats interesting again is that my Moon conj Neptune falls here, and my Karma and Destinn oppose it. I have noticed lately that the peoples charts that I do and feel some resonance too actually connect in someway to that hotspot in my chart.
Anywho, this shows your Astral projections, and why they came so natural to you, energies touching the South Node are like that. Its just far enough from Neptune to stay out of hot water.

Your Angel is conjunct your DC, this too could point again to the connection with your higher self, energies carried over from a past life. No doubt you must attact people of like energy. I for one have Angel conjunct my ASC and I find your Energy fascinating.

Also Merlin is Conjunct your Kaali, giving your use of your Kundalini a touch of the magical. This I think was acquired in the life lines of practicing with the Darker side of things....and shows your affinity for them now. Look how this is also inconjunct your NN, these experiences are part of your life path. The Moon here in the 5th house, has the feel of your mom. Conjunct your NN, means she has been huge in your lifepath, and by house that the relationship is intimate, fun, and something your for sure proud of. As you should be.

posted October 14, 2009 01:55 AM         

How can you tell which type of entity I'm experiencing? I'd really like to know more about them because I've never been able to find any information or any one else who experiences these. I have no idea what they want from me. I used to think they fed off of my fear, but now that I don't fear them (well, not much) and can block them for the most part why do they still bother? I also don't know how to get rid of them for good. Maybe part of me enjoys it, it makes me feel 'special' of some crap like that. How do you think Reptilians are related to the Greys? I've heard that the Reptilians are also inter-dimensional aliens and that's why I thought of them when I see the entities. I suppose they might not even be aliens at all but some kind of demonic presence but I heard once that the metallic taste on my tongue I sometimes experience while seeing them signifies aliens.

Can you tell me more about the Kundalini aspect as well? I actually went to a neurologist years ago to see what these 'energy jolts' up my spine were, but there was nothing medically abnormal. This didn;t surprise me because I figured it was the kundalini. Usually the jolts are spontaneous but sometimes I trigger them by lightly brushing against forehead, inside my ear, or along the back of my neck. For years and years I'd get a surge of energy up my spine and it would stop at the base of my neck (C7 I think?), as if there was a blockage. Over the past 3 years or so I've been able to make it go through the blockage and into my head (and therefore not spasm, which is not painful but can be very embarrassing in public!), so long as I concentrate on the energy and visualize it going through. Sometimes I use breathing too. But if I don't concentrate it will be blocked and I'll still spasm. I wonder what this blockage is?

"KAALI in Scorpio activates reptilian genetics. [All human beings on Earth today have 15 to 50% reptilian DNA. The 50% chaps are evil because they think that they are superior."

So does Kaali in Scorpio mean that the person has closer to the 50% reptilian DNA, or just that it activates whatever amount they do have?

"You have an interesting synastry with Lara and with my self.

1. Lara has KAALI conjunct REGULUS in tropical. You have KAALI conjunct REGULUS in 29 Leo in your Draconic Chart!
Tropically, your Mars conjuncts REGULUS.
Thats a very royal bloodline type of Spiritual Past."

Interesting! By royal bloodline do you mean reptilian bloodline? By royal do you mean actual royal family or more like advanced spirituality or spiritual rank (priest/ess, etc.)? There was another thread about the asteroid MakeMake, and mine is at Leo 28'44. I haven't read the thread so I don't know what this asteroid signifies or if it's related but I just thought I'd through that in.

"2. Your Dr Saturn exactly conjuncts my Tropical Saturn. So I can learn from your past lifelines
And your Tropical Saturn exactly trines my Sun.

3. Your Moon exactly conjuncts Lara's Ascendant."

posted October 14, 2009 02:27 AM         

Can you tell me more about Aura? I wouldn't say astral projection comes easily. It just started happening not even a year ago. Most of the times it has happened it scared me. Only one time was I fully conscious (and that time I was only scared during the process of leaving the body but once I did I wasn't too scared). The other times I was half in a dream, yet not really asleep because I was in my bedroom and it was dark and sometimes in bed. One time I was just next to my bed at my alter. I had been practicing casting circles and seeing a blue-white light make up the circle. In the OBE I was within this circle and could see the blue-white barrier and feel the heat. I never actually tried to make an OBE happen or have been in control of it. I have some books on it though so maybe I'll explore it further.

"Your Angel is conjunct your DC, this too could point again to the connection with your higher self, energies carried over from a past life. No doubt you must attact people of like energy. I for one have Angel conjunct my ASC and I find your Energy fascinating."

Thank you so much! I think I only attract people of like energy online LOL. In real life I am more of a loner I guess. Happy and friendly but I have yet to find many people who 'get' me. But I guess as I become more true to myself and confident I will attract more. Though...why do you find my energy fascinating? No one has said anything like that to me before.

"Also Merlin is Conjunct your Kaali, giving your use of your Kundalini a touch of the magical. This I think was acquired in the life lines of practicing with the Darker side of things....and shows your affinity for them now. Look how this is also inconjunct your NN, these experiences are part of your life path. The Moon here in the 5th house, has the feel of your mom. Conjunct your NN, means she has been huge in your lifepath, and by house that the relationship is intimate, fun, and something your for sure proud of. As you should be."

I think mom and I get along well (she's one of the few, if not the only, people who 'get' me, and is actually very similar to me) because my Sun is Libra 5 and Ascendent is Aquarius 1, and her Sun and Ascendent are both Libra 0. Our Mercuries conjunct by 2 degrees, and (I'm just seeing this now and it's quite creepy! ) My Venus is Leo 26 and her Mars is Leo 23. My Mars is Leo 29 and her Venus is Virgo 2. Her Saturn is 1 degree away from my Sun. So there are a lot of ties there.

I'm just now seeing that there are a lot with my dad too, positive ones which surprise me (well, not so surprising now that we get along better. His Venus and Jupiter conjuncts my Ascendent by 1.2 and .3 degrees respectively, His Mercury exactly conjuncts my Neptune and trines my Venus. His Sun conjuncts my S. Node by 2 degrees. His Saturn does square my Moon by 2.5 degrees and my N.Node by 1 though, but it conjuncts my Mercury. His Mars squares my Moon by .04 degrees, which was definitely felt growing up. Hmmm.

"And one more thing, you have a T square with your Destinn and Siva opposing each other and they both square your Osiris, its was your destiny to learn about the energy of the Divine Masc a difficult way, perhaps indicating some of abuse of it in past lives. Whatever the case there is something to overcome here, and kind of explains your relationship with your father. Look at how the T Square energy is of a fixed nature, somewhat that block is still there I think.
How do you relate to the Divine Masc Archetypes within you?"