posted October 24, 2009 09:17 AM         

Am i the only one who have felt "stuck" in the last six months? Like time is just passing through, and somehow you can't manage to follow? I've been having a hard depression, and now i'm finally recovering, but i still have this feeling that nothing is gonna be okay.

I feel like a made some critical error at some point in my life. My dreams of becoming a writer are stupid and pointless, and even though i have talent, i don't have enough ever publish anything.

Please, give me some new perspective. I'm not gonna ask for a reading or anything, only some harsh/kind words, and maybe a story from someone in a similar situation.

Can you really fall so hard that it's impossible to get up?

- Idu

posted October 24, 2009 12:26 PM         

for me it's the Neptune / Chiron / Jupiter transits .. squaring my natal Sun
( for the most part )

perhaps those three have been squaring your natal Venus in Aqua ?
and .. transiting Saturn and Uranus have been squaring the Sag sector
i.e. your Mars sign

i checked for a six month backdate ..
tChiron was 2 deg away and applying by 'square ' to my Sun
t. Neptune also fits into that time span ..

the transits to your natal Venus theory would depend at what degree Aqua your natal Venus is ..
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** I've been having a hard depression, **
that would potentialy fit transiting Chiron and Neptune ..

here's a link regarding 'depression' and astrology ..
~ http://www.happydragon.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/jkbx/psych.dprsn.html ~

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the north node is currently in Capricorn .. at 24.57 degrees ..
check if the nodes are aspecting something in your chart ..

posted October 24, 2009 10:32 PM         

Happydragon, i've been looking up the transits, but it's a while since Uranus and Saturn squared my mars.

And thanks Kat, for being realistic, it's just that kind of thinking i need right now.
My depression is getting weaker and weaker, and it feels soooo good, like the whole world is getting brigther, but also... Big. It scares me to be happy, though it sounds stupid. I'm so used to getting dissapointed, I can't step into the feeling of happiness, only look at it from the outside. I know I have to change, and untill i do, i can work my butt off and still get nowhere, because i deny all the things i long for.

posted October 25, 2009 01:29 PM         

And this is after the Saturn Return is complete.

Some esoteric texts speak of Saturn having to completely exit the Sign that squares the Natal Moon's Sign [If it is squaring at the time of Saturn return.]
Again, I dont have much statistical validation, just read about this many years ago.

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posted October 26, 2009 06:14 AM         

I'll tell you my story and hopefully it may inspire you.
I've been stuck in a rut since the past few years...and I'm still waiting for my saturn return. My talents have always been in art & music, unfortunately I'm bored with that, it's just not a challenge. My goal is to become a bonified film director. Getting your foot in the industry is already tough as hell (managed to get in)...but becoming a Dir. is even tougher. You have to become an ace of all trades...from getting things to look aesthetically pretty, to mastering directing actors intuitively, learning management, and most of all--WRITING & storytelling. I've never been particularly fond of writing. I'm a voracious reader and have decent command of grammar etc...however I've always had trouble coming up with ideas to write about. I'm only good at translating ideas to visuals. You've already got a major head start over me, as you've actually got talent in this department. I've been approached by 2.5 random psychics who have told me to just sit my butt down and start writing if I want to achieve my real goal. I figured, hey if I dont know these people and they're all telling me the same thing, maybe I really should do it. Anyways, that was about 9 months ago. Recently I started working closely with Dir & producer on a feature. Somehwere along the way I ended up being their writer. I was asked if I was good at it, and my reply was SURE(???). I figured since I was told to write, this would be the perfect opportunity and would really force me to do it, not to mention a real credential too. I have no clue if I'm doing a great job or not, but so far so good (no complaints!).

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posted October 26, 2009 07:39 AM         

yeah, unfortunately I dont have that going for me. The only planet in my 3H is Neptune in Sagg, which is squaring my Virgo Sun in 12H...think that just about makes things worse for me.

My Jupiter is in 1H conjunct Mercury/Saturn/Ascendant. I'm still not that inspired when it comes to writing, but I'm going to work on it...slow'n steady.

posted October 26, 2009 08:11 AM         

More than 90% of Non Fiction Political Best Sellers are ghost written in any case.
The same might work with Scripts/ Screenplays. Or even short stories that get converted into professional scripts and storyboards. ["Minority Report" is an example]

Some people who have writing problems actually have more of inertia issues.

Give them a written piece and ask them to add/modify, they work miracles.

If you are interested in Visualizations specificaly to improve writing, do send me an email from the signature link. My visualization guru actualy helped out amateur Stand Up Comedians who get stage fright in the midst of shows.

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posted October 26, 2009 08:14 AM         

Saturn in the 8th, ruled by scorpio which is known for "splitting", as explained in the article, usually the bad side of things.

Also, Venus in Opp to Saturn...how the lonely, emotionally deprived child cannot seperate from the family home cos its impossible to seperate from what they've never had. As an adult, i still feel "unloved, unlovable and isolated" as i did when i was a kid. Im 24 now and still live at home (though being a student still has a lot to do with it, as well as having younger siblings) and cant imagine moving out until I'm stable and can afford the comfort I live in now (triple cancer too, though 2 of the planets are on the cusp, in gemini's house, hence...more splitting).

I had to move out of home when i was 15 to move back to the city, thus gaining my independence but i moved back in when i was 18 when my family followed 3yrs later so i could get the family experience i missed out on in my formative years in high school.

Funnily enough, it talks about having the Moon aspect Jupiter, mine trines Jupiter, and i am a "bright and cheerful" person who works hard and is usually drained from hiding the depression. I do idealise life and live in my own fantasy world where everything is as i want it.

Interesting topic, ive been stuck in a rut since 2007 when my grandpa passed away from lung cancer and its only now i seem to be crawling my way through it...reading this led me to read the link about prolonged depression, which ive had for many years now.

But if anything, it makes me stronger and gives me a stronger will to get out of bed despite not physically being able to despite being fine & healthy. The paralysis is the worse, but somehow i'm managed to overcome it from too many lost opportunities...ive failed my 3rd last year at uni 3 times now..my saturn is telling me to get a move on!

posted October 27, 2009 02:53 AM         

Thanks a lot for the offer...I'll take you up on it & send an email soon then~

Yup my 7H is empty too haha...WOW things just get increasingly worse with each reply lol. My 7H ruler Mars is in Leo 10H conjunct NN...that's about it.

posted October 27, 2009 04:27 AM         

Hey, I have an empty 4th, 10th, 11th, 12th.
Things in those houses worked out the best with LOA, especially 4th and 12th.
When the ruler of the house is Mars, it is a plus for will-power in partnerships and collaboration.
Call it synchronicity, but after wanting to see it for many years, I finally saw "Get Shorty". That movie is all about Collaborative Film Making

Hi SaturnIdu,
You too can apply the visualizations for writing. Even a 10% improvement will help.
And a Triple Cardinal never fails in attaining success.

Hi Happy D,
Nice link!
Me thinks your slow release Vitaminc C and Goji Berry regimen will be of added benefit to any "stuck in a rut" youngster.

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