posted December 21, 2009 08:08 AM         

I went back and read Anne Ortelee's Weekly Weather, and there it was.....

"The build up to Jupiter and Neptune’s union next Monday also happens this week. Good or bad, Neptune and Jupiter produce profound and transforming EMOTIONS and ADDICTIONS and OBSESSIONS and CREATIVITY and VISIONS of what you can do or be. So you can find your self terrifically depressed or blue, wandering from room to room sitting on the various pieces of furniture in each room quietly, with a blank, sad, or silent mind. Or you can find you are transported by the rapture of a brand new love and vital passion. Or it can even be BOTH! At the SAME TIME! Watch for SWELLS of emotions. That is how you know it is Jupiter and Neptune ~ waves of feeling and the deep desire to connect or the enormous sense of loneliness of living on planet earth as a human being. Very existential transit."

Anyone else feeling it? How did it affect you?

posted December 21, 2009 08:15 AM         

Crying on and off (thought this was my new medications, maybe not) for no particular reason. I mean nobody did or said anything horrible to me.

Yes, it's been a long night. Found myself on my knees in prayer, which doesn't happen to me often. I can just pray from bed, don't think anybody minds. But yeah, ewwwww, and some in my family and circle too. NICE!!! Great way to feel around holidays which can be depressing anyway.

posted December 21, 2009 09:12 AM         

well i have some reasons to it but..it is something odd really..

posted December 21, 2009 10:17 AM         

My Psyche is on 24 Aquarius.

I also was walking through the rooms like a Ghost, almost like I was in between two worlds or two times or two ages. I don`t know, such an "in-between"-feeling.

This is the dream I was having:

"1s part started in my room at home, the one I had inhabited when I was still living with my parents permanently.
It was a mess, and it looked like I was on the verge on moving oout.
Anyway this morning I was definitely too late for school, cause I had been hesitating, procastinating; so I called a cab, but asked the driver to pick me up around the corner, so my mum wouldn`t notice that I was throwing my money out of the window for a cab, when I could have been punctual.

Then there was a blank.

2nd part had me in a trainstation. I was talking to a female colleague of mine.
I then went to the restrooms, which weren`t like toilets really, but real rest-rooms. There was some kind of a couch, not very comfortable. Anyway this one colleague of mine was there, and we were talking to each other, and I then lay down with him. Nothing sexual. I was just snuggling up to him and talking with him.

I am not attracted to him in any way, and besides I think he fancies my colleague, the one I had been talking to before.
But he and me have a thing in common which I suddenly remembered.
We are both coming from families, where the grandparents had to leave their home, after the 2nd world war was being lost. I know that the Germans did unspeakable horrible crimes, but it also was very hard for my grandparents to leave their homes, to leave literally everything behind.
So, this colleague comes from a similiar background than me and we have been talking about this, and I think this gives some sort of odd connection.

In the dream I then left the trainstation, cause suddenly I could see, or sense the name "Paul", and there was a yellow line of light, a long wound arrow, leading out of the station, and I started following it. I followed it for a long time into the darker quarters, until I passed a tavern, with yellowish-light coming through. There was a lion depicted there beside the name "Babylon".
I still moved on, cause the end of the line wasn`t in sight yet.
And suddenly I felt the urge to sing and I was singing loudly the last stanza of an old song:

"Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way."

I actually sang it twice, then my heart was growing very weary and I nearly cried; I then was getting scared that I would not find the way back. there was probably a reason i was at that station, so I turned and walked back, without having followed to the end of the line.
When I was standing in front of the station again, I woke up.
It was exactly 7:07 a.m., the exact minute I had been born!

posted December 21, 2009 10:18 AM         

There were a few things that were bothering me, but they hit me harder than usual. Self-pity was way up (which I also dislike). I've been holed up, not talking to anyone (much), and waiting for it to pass. I woke up at 1:30am this morning, laughing at a dream I'd just had (I was more amused to find that it related somewhat, to something that Jane posted in her Venus thread, that got a mention elsewhere). I've been feeling better since then, but not 100%. I'm heading back to something that I've been working on, a hot drink, and Scrooge.