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Topic: Breakup
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StarrofVenusGirl
Knowflake Posts: 489
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Registered: Jun 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:06 PM
 
Delete...post is on Soul Unions. IP: Logged |
StarrofVenusGirl
Knowflake Posts: 489
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Registered: Jun 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:12 PM
Arg. Wrong forum. I meant to put this on Soul Unions. Sorry. Apologies. IP: Logged |
venus in gemini
Knowflake Posts: 244
From: Florida
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:13 PM
I'm so sorry. We've all been there, and know that pain and anguish. Sending love, compassion and healing energy to you... (( hugs )) IP: Logged |
StarrofVenusGirl
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Registered: Jun 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:17 PM
Thank you VIG. Reading your post made me cry. That's why I wanted to come here, because I know so many can relate. I can't talk too much about it to my friends (still too raw) or my family (they will be worried), and writing in my journal, while therapeutic, wasn't making me feel any better. I need human contact. IP: Logged |
Lara
Knowflake Posts: 2363
From: aspideronmars
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:23 PM
Starr,I can relate totally. It's been 5/6 days for me now. It feel like eons. I am just torn apart and i never had this before to this extend. My soul is in mourning for a deceased person. I had to make the decision to block my love on FB today because i just can't deal with seeing him on my newsfeed etc. I look for him everywhere in my days, at night i dream about him. I can't sleep, i can't think. I fall over from being so disorientated and i cry till i am just drained of energy. I just want him back. My heart is bleeding for him. My body is reaching for him like a plant for light... i feel drowsy when i think of him and i feel utterly helpless. So i feel you - i am here if you wanna talk  IP: Logged |
venus in gemini
Knowflake Posts: 244
From: Florida
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:28 PM
Lara,
Hugs to you too sweetie....IP: Logged |
Lara
Knowflake Posts: 2363
From: aspideronmars
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:36 PM
VIG,, sorry i haven't answered your email to me.. i just can't today, i can't even think about him/us/all this stuff, i'm sorry.I will reply when i feel a bit stronger. Always remember, Where there is Life, there is Hope  thank you x IP: Logged |
StarrofVenusGirl
Knowflake Posts: 489
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Registered: Jun 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 08:45 PM
Yes Lara, it is like he is dead. That's how I feel. I do feel like I'm in mourning...in mourning for the man I thought he was, who he has the potential to be. In mourning for the life and love I wanted to experience with him. But the person I love, the one I am grieving for (and it is grief, I know that) doesn't exist. The real him has been there all along, I just didn't want to see. I don't want anything to do with the man who exists and is walking around. I hate him. Although I would never be physically violent towards someone, today I envisioned myself slicing at him with a knife, making him bleed. Very Plutonian I know. I will probably reap loads of negative karma for entertaining such visualizations but I want him to hurt like I'm hurting, even psychically. Sorry to be so dark and negative...that's why I intend for the majority of the talk to be on Soul Unions aka Heartbreak Hotel. It's a different breed over there. IP: Logged |
Lara
Knowflake Posts: 2363
From: aspideronmars
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 09:01 PM
I understand Starr, i'm so sorry you are going through this.
I've never been through this actually.I still love him to the depth of my soul and i have no bad feelings toward him. I just act like he died because i cannot actually mentally, emotionally or physically comprehend that he could be alive and not in my arms... sigh. x IP: Logged |
Unmoved
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Registered: May 2009
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posted January 01, 2010 09:48 PM
On my way to soul unions...IP: Logged |
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