posted January 15, 2010 07:50 AM         

Square:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/astrological-aspects/sun-square-ascendant.php

posted January 15, 2010 07:51 AM         

I don't come across how I feel, don't say what I mean (well I do, but it never comes out right!) and when I am telling the truth people look at me like I am lying, but if I lie (white lies only of course, and very rarely!) then I come across like I am telling the truth.
People judge me wrongly, not all the time, but sometimes. Over the years I have been accused of things I have never, would never ever think of doing. *sigh*
Astrology Weekly has a very accurate description.

I am just lucky my Aqua ASC is better at keeping distance in first meetings so as not to create mixed impressions, just friendly But until I feel totally comfortable with someone, it's a bit confusing.

posted January 15, 2010 07:56 AM         

This sums it all up neatly, especially the withdrawing inward comment

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Saturn Square Ascendant

You may have quite a bit of difficulty learning to relate to other people as friends or loved ones, even within your immediate family. This problem usually stems from the fact that you feel somehow unworthy of being loved or attended to. Certainly you are not incompetent, but you tend to feel that the demands of life, specifically those made by other people, are so high that you cannot live up to them.

Do not accept criticism as the main part of a relationship, for it is not. Mutual love, respect and reinforcement should be the main components of any relationship.

Some persons with this aspect, feeling that the outer world demands too much, withdraw from social contact by going inside themselves. Others feel that there is only a great void within, so they work furiously in the outer world of friends and other contacts to escape from that inner emptiness.

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Also Moon Sq Ac

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Moon Square Ascendant

Your feelings are quite changeable, and they influence how you feel about people. You may find it very difficult to treat others the same way all the time. You believe that showing your feelings clearly to someone will hurt your relationship. This can make you feel very tense when you are with someone you like.

If your relationships with others do not go smoothly, you often withdraw into your own private world where you feel safe and secure, instead of fighting for your point of view. If you do this all the time, you won't have many friends, so make an effort to stand up for your rights and beliefs.

Beliefs that you learned while you were very young may have too much influence on the way you act toward others. Treat each day as a new experience.

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I looked up my chart just now & saw that my Sun is thankfully just that bit too much out of orb to be in opposition to AC.

posted January 15, 2010 08:01 AM         

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The same holds true for associates with whom you are in close contact for extended periods of time. People will appreciate you more if you let them make willing gestures to you. In that way, they can feel that they are the aggressors. It is better to attract them to you than to demand their submission.

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It doesn't help with Mars conjunct MC in Scorpio!
I have an aggressive gentle nature... I have Sun, Venus and Moon in Venus-ruled signs and prefer harmony. I can get let-down easily though (which unfortunately shows) and am working on that though, to let things be What will be will be is my new mantra to deal with that.

Sun is square ASC exactly (22 Aqua, 22 Taurus)

Does anyone else with hard aspects have a difficult time with it? Have you figured out how to work with the energies?

posted January 15, 2010 08:02 AM         

I have Chiron on my AC so I feel really insecure about my appearance.

posted January 15, 2010 08:15 AM         

I think you hit the nail on the head. That is so true. I never really thought of it that way too...

I don't think I speak with much conviction even when I believe 100% what I am saying.

posted January 15, 2010 08:21 AM         

It sucks, there's no other way to say it.

I feel like I'm a conundrum within a quagmire. A freaking mess & while I may be 36 I still feel like the emotional equivalent of a teenager who knows nothing about herself.

I think I will be figuring me out beyond the point of death & still get no logical answer.

posted January 15, 2010 08:42 AM         

PeaceAngel... what you wrote really speaks to me. Thank you! Yes, I have definite opinions on things, but like yourself they come out completely jumbled.

In my recent relationship, as soon as it comes to expressing emotions all that cmoes out is gobbeldygook. Being a Gemini he does not appreciate that. We get along on anything but emotional level (because that is where I feel most strongly, so therefore .. the more I feel something , the worse it comes out).

I just had a thought.

Sun square ASC will usually mean your Sun is conjunct either IC or MC. I have Sun conjunct IC which could 1. amplify why this can be such a troublesome aspect and 2. The Sun is conjunct an ANGLE so therefore the sense of self there will be especially strong with either the IC or MC (or DC in the case of opposition).

PeaceAngel - do you find that you come across exactly how you mean to, having Sun conj ASC? If so, do you find it harder to get a balance between your Sun/ASC and your IC (Since it's square the IC). Or maybe you do not have any planets conjunct the IC so you do not feel this as much?

I don't have any planets conjunct my ASC, but I have Sun square ASC and Mars square ASC (Sun opposition Mars) so a double whammy there and very difficult to deal with. I can accidentally come across as aggressive (I do things without thinking, like slam doors, but I honestly don't mean to and people interpret that as me being angry but I'm not, usually I am thinking happy thoughts ).

posted January 15, 2010 08:56 AM         

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PeaceAngel - do you find that you come across exactly how you mean to, having Sun conj ASC? If so, do you find it harder to get a balance between your Sun/ASC and your IC (Since it's square the IC). Or maybe you do not have any planets conjunct the IC so you do not feel this as much?

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posted January 15, 2010 09:11 AM         

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I would also interpret Sun conjunct IC as coming from the heart/core so that's deeply sincere.

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That's very true. The problem is that deep sincerity is not in harmony with the outer self/ASC. So it's sometimes misconstrued as being insincere, if you know what I mean?

I think Sun being conjunct any other angle in relation to the ASC would be easier to deal with than the IC.

My own issue is that as much as I love Aqua ASC, I love being different and quirky, it also makes it hard to fit in. I want the traiditional marriage, children, peaceful stable homelife but I can't stand routine. I have come to realise that no routine in your life is very hard. But at the same time routine absolutely terrifies me. I am very quirky thanks to my Aqua influence and offbeat sense of humour, and am unsure of when to show my true colours and who will accept that.

posted January 15, 2010 09:18 AM         

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Everyone has bad days too so maybe there is some funky Sun/ASC action happening to activate the Sun/ASC gobbeldygookieness

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