posted January 20, 2010 10:00 PM         

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Yes, it was true, everything returned again that had not been fully suffered and resolved; it was always the same sorrows being suffered over and over.

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I started thinking about how our natal charts can illustrate what those sorrows are for us. If we keep experiencing something, it's because that experience is within us. We're the common denominator. So our issue can be seen in our chart.

I think many people go their whole lives suffering the same thing over and over. Many don't even recognize the pattern they carry within, let alone fully suffer and resolve it. Or maybe we never can move on? Maybe there's no such thing as resolution?

posted January 21, 2010 12:29 AM         

I have thought of this alot in last few months.

This is only one aspect in my chart, and I just literally wrote it 5 minutes ago, but I think it's relative to your question.

posted January 21, 2010 04:04 AM         

I find a struggle to strike a balance between a ***** and a puritan, and also between a misanthrop and a sociable person

this is reflected in my chart.

I think the first stage is denial

posted January 21, 2010 08:47 AM         

I am unsure if the chart pattern can actually be suffered and released in this lifetime. Arent patterns supposed to be repeated? Or maybe transferred to positive representations of the aspect?

If they can, I would like to release my moon sq mars; they give me quite a bit of trouble. I am not even sure how to channel them positively. Maybe viewing an aspect negatively is a sign of contention.

posted January 21, 2010 01:53 PM         

I watched Oprah a lot when I was a kid. She often said that in life if you don't learn the lesson the first time, it'll keep coming back, bopping you on the head harder and harder until you get it. So I was always on the lookout for lessons. I liked the responsibility, since it meant I had some say in how my life went. This philosophy has helped me avoid a lot of cr@p in life.

I also have a hyperactive Pallas. Finding patterns is my thing. I grew up with parents wounded in their own ways (who didn't), and saw how those wounds kept them from so many good things in life. It was frustrating and heartbreaking to see, as a kid, what was holding them back, and yet they didn't see it themselves. Or even if they did see it, they didn't know how to change.

As I've matured and gotten more into astrology, I've gained more compassion for people being stuck. It's so difficult to change because you can't leave behind who you are.

But I do believe that people can learn and change. Otherwise, what's the point? What's the point of Nodes in astrology if we have no direction? Nodes imply movement in our awareness, rather than stagnant being.

I also believe in reincarnation. Life after life until enlightenment. But if there is no evolution within each life, there can't be evolution over the course of many lives. That growth has to happen each time we live. Alternatively, we could learn in spurts: many lives of ignorance and then one where the issues covered previously finally come together and make sense. In any case, growth has to happen at some point if there really is an evolution of the soul.