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Topic: The ultimate illusion - Neptune
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belgz Knowflake Posts: 836 From: Sydney, Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 12:21 AM
Ok so everyone knows about how me and my ex of 10 years broke up. After 3 months it started to get to me especially when I couldnt be happy with the other venus and mars in virgo guy so i couldnt help but think about him.What did i do about it? I decided to get him back. Im not dealing with the fact that he played me for so many years. I put my brains to good use and deicded to use all my 'HARD TO GET' tricks and it worked. Hes back at my feet begging me but I'm still not satisfied and I haven't had enough nor have I seen enough to be happy that the tables have turned around and hes upset hes lost me. He seems to have forgotten everything thats happened the last 3 months and even invited me over to his house while his parents were sleeping. After 10 txt msgs of insisting he will even pay for my cab I decided to go. I went in a black dress showing cleavage of course but dressed it down with a small black cardigan and flat shoes. I had my hair out and only did mascara rather than wear too much make up. I didnt want to look like I was trying to impress him. After 10 minutes of sitting next to him with my head resting on my hand as I relexed on the lounge for the first time we hadn't been physical in the first few minutes of seeing each other. (Of couse I was dying) but thanks to transit saturn in my first I made myself believe it would help me control my emotions HE tried to make a move on me and I rejected him. I pushed him away and told him I only want to be friends and that I didnt come to do anything more than that. I quickly noticed he got nervous and started biting his nails scratching his head and becoming nervous. I knew I had control. I didn't stay long at his house I spent 1 hour with him and called myself a cab and I decided to get up and leave before things got boring and too awkward. On my way home I knew he would txt me and notice a difference in the way I was behaving and that I was no longer going to come back to him despite him telling me he wasnt in love with me any longer. In his text msg he said that we would be friends that dont keep in touch often and that it felt weird and i replied after waiting an hour "yeah you were a bit quiet, but nothing weird my end" at 4am that morning I got another text saying "I feel sick for trying to kiss you and wish I never did, dont contact me again" After receiving that msg normally I would feel bad and go back to boost his ego but instead I waited till the next night to reply and I told him how much satisfaction I got out of him giving me an ego boost knowing that I came there and could be indifferent to him and not hook up with him as I always would. I said im independant and have a career and a life to attend to and I do things when I want with who I want and then wrote my favourite line that most men hate.. "Take care" Within 5 minutes I got a txt off him saying "come over". Another txt and another... Demanding answers wanting explanations but I wasnt going to get into any serious topics or even give away any emotions or gestures that might make him think Im even somewhat interested in him. Its been 2 weeks hes chasing me like crazy. Doing anything for my time and even begged me to go out with him on Valentines Day. Instead I lied to him telling him I already had plans to go out for dinner with my grandmother. Anyways after all of this it occurred to me that TRANSIT NEPTUNE is conjunct his MOON.
I am neptune here. I've tricked him into believing he is fascinated with me but Im just using all the classic men traps that make them all hot and get their heart racing. I think this is a classic example of Neptune and pulling the wool over someones eyes. Maybe TRANSIT NEPTUNE trine my MOON right now is giving me that ability also. I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced ANY neptune to moon or venus transits and had a similiar situation..
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Diana Knowflake Posts: 1274 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 12:55 AM
Didn't you just have an eclipse on some planet in your chart? I can't remember....it could be that too.IP: Logged |
iQ Knowflake Posts: 1250 From: Chennai, India Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 02:04 AM
Fascinating read! I think the Eclipse helped the breakup, to enable BelgZ have a fresh new life. But Neptune illusions can very much play out like this.IP: Logged |
vapor-lash Knowflake Posts: 812 From: Registered: Nov 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 02:19 AM
Belgz - just lose him altogether... I know it's tempting to play these games, but is it worth it?He's just a jerk. The way he has behaved is not ok at all.. specially the abortion you ended up having and whole ordeal with his mother.. He needs to grow up and make his own decisions without his parents holding his hand! quote: I've tricked him into believing he is fascinated with me but Im just using all the classic men traps that make them all hot and get their heart racing.
Ok! So you got one up on him.. Are you happy now? Can you please move on? I'm positive there are better guys out there for you!  IP: Logged |
belgz Knowflake Posts: 836 From: Sydney, Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 02:22 AM
There was an eclipse in my 5th house. It was exactly trine my ascendant and square my 5th house ruler saturn. What effect could the eclipse have had? Maybe (5th house) and playing love games :P He had an eclipse in his 7th house trine his sun. So are you saying the eclipse will ensure we never get back together or just problems? The only thing thats changed is me.. IP: Logged |
belgz Knowflake Posts: 836 From: Sydney, Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 02:33 AM
Vaporlash,Yeah I agree its best to leave it but I couldnt after I had noone else to occupy myself with and he stirred me up again with his msgs. quote: specially the abortion you ended up having and whole ordeal with his mother..
I didnt fall pregnant to him it was a joke that turned into a serious lie that eventually brang about the truth.
He probably felt trapped and all the other bulls*it men feel but it makes me feel better knowing that hes chasing me for now, and though i do see how pathetic he is I am getting too much satisfaction out of it. Its making me feel better for some reason  IP: Logged |
Ami Ann Knowflake Posts: 227 From: US Registered: Dec 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 05:16 AM
(((Belgz)))You sound like you have more to offer this man deserves. I am only seeing this part so am missing many things which you shared earlier on LL. Your sweet Gemini part expresses itself well in your story. I am a Gemini Sun,Mercury and Venus so I can relate. If he doesn't appreciate you, that is his loss. Ami IP: Logged |
Diana Knowflake Posts: 1274 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted February 15, 2010 07:55 PM
It could change the way you approach and come across to romantic interests. (AC/5TH house). Eclipse changes are usually permanent. If you broke up during an eclipse, they say you shouldn't go back because it won't work. IP: Logged |
belgz Knowflake Posts: 836 From: Sydney, Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 16, 2010 05:54 AM
We broke up about 4 weeks before the eclipse. I was with some other guy on the night of the eclipse so thats why im unsure if that applies to us. The night of the eclipse I had met a guy 1 week before it and we kissed for the first time on that night and it started with a new moon in my 5th and it ended on the night of the full moon IP: Logged |
mercuranian Knowflake Posts: 179 From: the 12th house Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 16, 2010 01:01 PM
Belgz--eclipse or not, from what I've read about your relationship, it sounds like it just isn't working out. You should read up on addictive relationships. This information has helped me put past relationships into perspective. Good luck!IP: Logged |
Diana Knowflake Posts: 1274 From: Registered: May 2009
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posted February 16, 2010 05:32 PM
The eclipse actually takes effect a month prior to, and a month after, the actual eclipse date. IP: Logged |
amowls* Knowflake Posts: 902 From: richmond va Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 16, 2010 09:09 PM
You two aren't right for each other and playing games just to play games is a waste of time for you and just mean to him.IP: Logged |
Lara Knowflake Posts: 3032 From: aspideronmars Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 16, 2010 09:43 PM
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running_bull Knowflake Posts: 80 From: usa Registered: Jul 2009
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posted February 17, 2010 01:47 AM
Belgz, I have to say that even without the games, some relationships are just difficult to end. After 10 years, it's likely he would have been contacting you anyway after a break.My ex and I weren't together that long and whenever I tell him I do not want to speak to him anymore, he waits a few weeks, can't take the pressure and contacts me. Some relationships boomerang back into just when you least expect or want them to, or worse, just when you want them to. My opinion is do whatever you feel helps you get over the relationship, even if it means that you have to play the "I'm too busy, too happy, too fabulous for you" game. Good luck. But, be warned, I just told my ex again today that I do not want to talk to him and I won't say it worked unless he doesn't try to contact me for 6 months, at least. IP: Logged |
belgz Knowflake Posts: 836 From: Sydney, Australia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 17, 2010 02:18 AM
I was completely over it. In fact 2 months later I met another guy and thought wow this is great and really easy but then he started calling me, the other guy was just "wrong" altogether and i had to get rid of him and once i found mysef alone and bored i started focusing on him again. I have neptune opposing venus now too im obviously dellusional  Im not upset either i guess im just used to interacting with him. I will be out and doing things in 2 weeks when i get my licence back and im sure I will be very normal again...  And for some reason the more people tell me to stay away from him and to stop talking to him I want to talk to him more. I have no idea what my problem is.. Ive decided to start dating women. I dont want another man to come near me ever again.
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Deux*Antares Knowflake Posts: 748 From: Meet Me In Sofia Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 17, 2010 03:44 AM
quote: i found mysef alone and bored i started focusing on him again
There's the answer. You just have to find people/things to busy yourself with. IP: Logged |
changchiu Knowflake Posts: 138 From: Registered: Dec 2009
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posted February 17, 2010 03:56 AM
Why people sometimes can not leave their past easily..Is it related with habit,karma or what..All of us live that..and then something important happened and we start a new thing..but really some people or issues dont give us easily,it takes months,years..IP: Logged |