posted March 13, 2010 02:52 PM         

for instance, we have composite moon conjunct jupiter same degree, exactly conjunct my nChiron (and HIS draco chiron, oddly enough), and opposite his nSun/pluto. holy intense healing dynamic. not easy (infact downright painful at times) but very sweet and rewarding, with a feeling of extreme safety together. safety to explore all of that, which definitely overshadows the pain of it.

we have composite sun conjunct neptune within a degree and THEY conjunct my AC. still foggy on that one, which i guess makes sense . these also trine his moon. best guess is this accounts for the crazy ethereal/surreal/fluid perfectly-in-synch aspect of our intimacy that is usually present. like a dream.

our compo mercury is exactly conj my eros, closely conjunct my venus, and 2 degs from his neptune. seems to fit with the previous dynamic.

BUT the one that is getting to me is this MARS conjunct URANUS business. 2 degree orb, in the first house, following our composite venus in scorpio, 7 degs from the AC. mars-uranus in in early sag, so i suppose it has that WOOHOO! quality, but i feel like if i can figure this bugger out maybe our relationship will make more 'sense' (lotta neptune, dig?).

the thing of it is.. before (and when) we got together i was living with his mom and he was over every day for a few hours. we would BUG the crap out of eachother and it was basically pseudo-antagonistic, very odd, and really exciting. he'd jump up on furniture when talking to me and we had this fastpaced oddball sort of banter going much of the time. it was deliciously and annoyingly fun and exciting. the 'annoying' bits were basically sexual tension, in retrospect.

then when we got together we sorta lost that dynamic and it basically became suuuuuuupersweet and cuddly and much much quieter.

the last few months, though (i've long since moved out of his moms and my daughter and i live alone) he will occasionally get really upset when it's like our emotional stuff hits a roadblock. it's like we're SO tuned into one another emotionally (moon-jupiter conj along with other things) that it can double back on us and feels like there's nowhere to GO with it; we're just reflecting one another and expanding upon whatever emotion. i had ASSUMED this was his aries moon (along with scorp stuff), but now i'm wondering if it's our mars-uranus and is due to the fact that we've sort of repressed that for about a year now. he comes over mostly at night when my daughter is asleep so we're both kinda tired and can't be gregarious and exciteable.. and i really think we NEED to be/have that, and channel it positively, like we used to. it comes out occasionally in our sex life, but i just find it so interesting that most of our composite is lovey-dovey feely-healy crap, and then there's THIS aspect, and i think if i can figure out a way for us to have a balance with this conjunction, we're set.

SO! would i look to mars and uranus in our natals, for starters?

also of potential note is that my pluto opposes his moon by a degree. he's Mr. Pluto so while he's seemingly quite intune with the whole pluto thing, i do think his moon is pretty unconscious (pretty intense family stuff), and i think i might be bringing out his 'stuff' somewhat. more than he's necessarily comfy with. also in my SR i have moon exactly opposed his natal moon (and conj my pluto), so this may be even more pronounced at the moment.

posted March 13, 2010 06:22 PM         

welllll i am very uranian, him not as much. well he has aqua jupiter and some positive aspects to his uranus, so i guess that counts some.

our compo AC is scorpio, and our compo DC's ruler is venus in the first, so hopefully that makes up for all this guns business.

oh also, lest anyone start getting visuals of tom cruise due to my furniture-jumping reference, he's not at ALL like that guy. heh. and it was more like *standing* on furniture, just outta the blue, while talking to me. uranian type oddness.