posted May 25, 2010 12:35 AM         

well i'm Mrs. Saturn.
Capricorn rising with 4 planets in capricorn. saturn (in scorpio) in the 10th house which gives it accidental dignity. plus i've got sun in aquarius square saturn with an orb of less than half a degree. and and lets not forget that my moons ruler is conjunct saturn...gimme break! sheesh!

with all of that said, i just figured out what doing my saturn means and why it has been so difficult for me.

so, of course saturn in the 10th has to do with authority and structure and in scorpio it has to do with boundaries. i've always looked for approval from authority while at the same time rebelling (sun in aqua sq saturn). even my mother scoffs at every single thing i get excited about. she's queen of devaluing my joy. (i figured that part out awhile back)

so i realized that i've always been my own authority. i've always made the right decisions for my life, even when my scoffing mother turns her nose up at me (gem sun, taurus moon, virgo rising!-she does it to everyone)

people, especially family members, always tell me that i think i know everything in a condescending tone (aqua sun says "i know"). and the funny thing is, i do know a lot. those same people always call me for help or advice. and i give it freely. but often times i tend to down play my knowledge while expecting someone else to provide the authority that i myself already possess.

so my true aquarian character , knows a lot and is "genius", is at odds with my deep, and probing saturnine sense of authority. its all in me! boundaries must be created between my own sense of authority and those around me. and with pluto also in the 10th, its also about giving power away or being self empowered. yay!

as saturn has been transiting through my 9th house, i've definitely been struggling with who is the authority concerning my worldview and philosophy of life. turns out, its me. and i can't expect people to agree with me. i have to live my truth within the boundaries of my own experience, and everyone else in theirs.

posted May 25, 2010 01:52 AM         

I have a lot of Saturn influence in my chart too: Capricorn MC
Saturn sq my 7th house cusp ruler exactly, Saturn conjunct my Sun/Moon midpoint
Saturn sq my Mercury, trine Venus, sextile Mars, and the apex of a yod with my Neptune and Jupiter.
Saturn also opposes my NN (in Capricorn).
My mom (aqua) has a Capricorn Moon, father a Capricorn Sun, and I was conceived apparently during an eclipse in Capricorn.