posted May 30, 2010 11:03 PM         

I want to stop getting moody but when i dont blow up i feel sick and even more angry with (whoever) and then i might hold a grudge. I am worse now that i cant exercise and use all my energy. So the question is when is the best time to start changing?

posted May 31, 2010 01:29 AM         

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im experiencing the same transit. It has really been showing, especially around that time of the month

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Exact same thing as me!! Mine all started a few weeks ago and it was the day my period was due. I sat in my ex bf's car but I had a feeling that morning that I was going to be destructive. I deliberately was nice to him and asked him to come pick me up and when he did I broke his console off and his rear vision mirror and threw out everything in his car.

I wasn't even relieved when I did it. It got worse than that and I started doing it in public and writing my work abusive emails that went into long detail about how stressed I am and that it's there fault, but these wern't the nicest emails either. I have stopped talking to anyone in authority unless they email me ( I don't take phone calls anymore) and now I have to complete a course of CBT and anger management. On one of these occassions I have been violent and my ex got 2 stitches on his forehead from one tiny wrong jerky movement of my hand and it scared me but I didn't want to back down either so I tried to maintain my anger and pretend I wasn't scared when he had blood dripping in his eyes.At that moment I couldn't just switch and say "oh baby I'm sorry" (as a normal person would) instead I got out of the car and walked an hour home with my heart racing thinking how evil I am, I'm scaring myself too and I feel awful but its not persistant it just comes out of nowhere and I can't help it.

posted May 31, 2010 03:40 AM         

Ami

posted May 31, 2010 05:02 AM         

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posted May 31, 2010 09:52 AM         

By checking I meant checking hormone levels, not the product.

Okay, it's not the astrology advice you asked for so I won't post on this thread again.
Just thought it could be important and not saying something would be wrong.

posted May 31, 2010 10:45 PM         

It seems that transiting Pluto in opposition to your Mars indicates a time that you are being forced to deal with any anger that might have been repressed but is coming out because of things from your past being triggered.

From what you told me, you had a history of abuse at home.

I went to stress/anger management/coping skills classes when I was in the US Navy because of my problems with stress and anger, and I had a history of verbal and physical abuse too.

I think transiting Pluto oppose natal Mars is a good time for therapy. The hard Pluto aspects tend to indicate times when a person is going through evolutionary intensified time that involves undercovering deep,hidden material that might include history of trauma,abuse,and/or betrayal. With Mars, it involves passion,anger,violence,and men.

This is what Solar Fire says for transiting Pluto oppose Natal Mars:

It seems that someone else, or an insurmountable obstacle, is standing in your path right now and you are in danger of losing your temper. You are determined to continue with your goals and ambitions, but may have to clash with someone close to you in order to get what you want. You are forceful and determined. You may indeed find yourself doing battle with loved ones or taking inappropriate risks. You need to beware of hurting those that you love.

I will give you interpretation for it from Robert Hand's transit book too.

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Raymond

Supporting the Neurodiversity Movement

posted June 01, 2010 12:52 AM         

I don't know if they are past issues or present. I think it might be present because I am fed up really with everyone. I feel a bit better about starting now.