posted October 07, 2010 06:24 PM         

thank you.

ive been really seeing things from distance now,at least im learning to.

it is a pitty that i dont have my Fatherīs time of birth,i cannot see anything in his chart that can configure it to be accurate,and ive been really anxious to look at it lately.

my Father is now 67 years old.but my parents never seemed to have their age,nor in actions nor in Mind.they were always active and young-minded.

in the last 3 years or so,things have changed completely since he stopped working.

ive been seeing his actions,and he doesnt seem to be the father i knew anymore...it is so sad,sometimes i look at him with anger,resentment,frustration,,others times i look how much he have aged,trying to regain control over things,mostly over us,and i feel sorry for him.

he is a good person,but lately he has been acting like if his obscure side had almost eaten his better side. everyday he is so mad all the time,picking with everyone,if anyone says something that shows him this truth he doesn't see....

i wished he could be the same father i knew once. i was always his favorite,dont ask me why,but even that turned to be a bittersweet thing for me:i try to see te good in him,but his actions....he shows no will of wanting to turn to be the person he once was.

and we are all suffering because of that.

i dont want a dark closure for this..

posted October 13, 2010 09:42 AM         

ive been without pc-seems that lately all that is related to comunication is somehow off? the telephones hasve also been having problems...sucks!

but fortunately a wonferful news: my motherīs surgery went perfect! and the doctor says thast she can rest now cause there are no cancer cells anymore!!!~

posted October 14, 2010 07:07 AM         

i think that Pluto in the IC - or near it - is reflecting health problems in my family.first it was me who was surgered to my uterus;then weeks later it was my twin sister. in the meantime it ws my motherīs surgery,then this 2nd one to the same place.

pluto rules my 2nd so i never thought that it would be related to with health problems.

but as Pluto also has to do with regeneration,perhaps it makes sense though.