posted July 25, 2010 02:55 PM         

Well, I am okay. I wasn`t there, this isn`t my kind of music.
My mother was concerned about my brother who was apparently having a gig in a city nearby. I, myself, didn`t worry about him, cause i just felt he was being alright. And he indeed is.

Anyway this tragedy is just horrible.

I am at my parents` and in my new appartment, having been unpacking boxes all day (and this was just the start).
(Can you imagine that I have over 100 books on astrology?
Without those I already gave away. And I think at least 3 times more other literature.)

But yes I am still pretty shocked about this and just hoping deeply that none of my pupils was involved in that tragedy.

On top of that I am quite upset, like many many other people here, about the reaction of the so called "responsibles".
How DUMB can people be? How RECKLESS?
AS I see it they gambled, but it was not them who lost.

posted July 25, 2010 03:53 PM         

yes, what a tragedy!

posted July 26, 2010 08:51 AM         

it`s all over the news here. You can`t switch on the radio or TV or brush up your newspaper without coming across big articles. Actually I think it is too much.
Whom does it help now?

I actually have been thinking a lot about those who survived. Particularly those who have literally been pushed to become the source / reason of the victim`s death. Even though they did not have a choice (you really don`t have if the mass is pushing on you; well you have the "choice" to fall yourself or to move and do anything to NOT fall), they will carry this load, these feelings of guilt for the rest of their lives.

I`ve once been in a remotely similiar situation, not THAT horrible, but I have been close to a panick, being enclosed in a station by thousands of people with literally almost no place to move. It was for a great demonstration I wanted to participate in. WEll, the only thing I did was fight my way through the masses of people to get out of that station; lucily it was even possible, though it took me a lot of time, and I remember when I came out of it, it was like I was surfacing from under water, and the only clear thought I can remember from the time I was trying to get out of there, was: I must get out of here.
And it really was the only thought existant at all.
And I realized, that if the situation had been a bit more urgent and threatening (and I had REALLY had a panic attack - I was "only" almost having one), I would have done anything to get out of there, and I would not have cared if I had been bruising any other person beside me in doing exactly that, getting out of there.
Of course I did not think at all about the possibility of stepping onto someone laying on the floor, that was far beyond my imagination, but the thought alone that I would be capable of accept causing some bruises in other people, just in that state of panic, was a real shock to me.
In such situations people are really reduced to their instincts, that is really scary.

Of course THIS situation of saturday was much more awful, but I now can imagine how things like this can happen and how the survivors must feel.

Actually it even haunted my dreams, this accident. I was dreaming of a Spanish woman, I had never seen before, in a room. Well, if I dream of dead people (and yes it had happened before), it is always in the same sort of surrounding, huge almost public though empty buildings, often it will be school-buildings or huge appartment complexes.
Anyway, that woman was approaching me, cause she needed to talk to her father to say goodbye to him, w hich she did.
It was a REALLY strange dream. One of those who don`t exactly feel dream-like.

It has been a long time since I had such a dream.
I once had a vision of a cruel murder (which later on turned out to be true, which crept me out completely), later on I was often dreaming of the boyfriend of my eldest friend who had been killed in an accident, and who would always "inform" me if my friend needed emotional support. She is now happily leading a new life, and he hasnīt appared in my dreams for years.
And then two years ago, I was infrequently dreaming of a colleague of mine who had a terminal sickness, the dreams stopped a week or so before his death.

I am not sure why I am dreaming of dead people,e specially of people I do not have a close connection to or in some cases NONE connection.
This is really puzzling.