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Topic: Blame My Eigth House Stellium --Part Two
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3178
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 17, 2010 01:57 PM
 
I know, can you believe I have the nerve to do this after all that 
It must be the Pluto sextiles getting assimilated lol
I think the other thread was really helpful to many people, not just me.
So, with that spirit in mind lol.
I have another question.
This question is from my current life.
I am just realizing that I did not SEE abuse.
It was normal for someone to treat me badly cuz I always had it, really.
I was not treated with respect for my personhood ,as a child. I felt as if I was a burden,needed too much of whatever:love, care, affection, warmth. I just saw, from IQ's chart as a starting point, that I really WAS abused by my mother.
Her Neptune dwarfed my Pluto.
Her Chiron is an exact conjunction with my Sun. In this case, Chiron was the wounded stealer cuz she sucked my life force out like a straw in a drink. That was exactly what happened in reality.
Her lies, distortions, illusions took away my power(Pluto).
It took away my id responses which would have fought back.
Also, both of my parents Pluto's are in exact conjunction with my Cancer Mars which made it nearly impossible to fight back.
Then, her Chiron sucked my Sun :life force/ego/identity
Now, I see another person in my family has been abusive for along time and I just see it, also. Ami ------------------
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3178
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 17, 2010 02:09 PM
I guess my question is Can you SEE when you are getting abused?
Ami
PS I am thinking that you need to balance Neptune(rose colored glasses),the moon(heart, emotions) with Pluto(pure id instincts) and Mars(drive)in order to be a balanced,emotionally healthy person.
That is JUST my thought.
I am interested in other people's!
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Mblake81
Knowflake Posts: 226
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Registered: Aug 2010
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posted August 17, 2010 02:35 PM
Not anymore,Only time i see anything abusing me now is when im doing it to myself. *GONG* IP: Logged |
popcorn
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Registered: Aug 2009
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posted August 17, 2010 02:35 PM
"Can you SEE when you are getting abused?"No I feel. I been in many year harassed from my exhusbands family and my own family so I must leave. My feelings force me to move. I love my feelings. They always help me. I took my children 400 kilometre away. I dont really understand exact how exposed I was until a year after I moved. It was good to get distance from everything and to the familymembers. Today I see I should gone to the police but... I not see so in that time because they says be my family. IP: Logged |
popcorn
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posted August 17, 2010 02:43 PM
Today I can meet my mother and also feel I love her. It took many many year. Now I dont care anymore and also see her good sides. I also know and accept her because she not was so smart and understand what she did. She is so old now and cant win anymore. The year here on the earth are not many to both my parents.IP: Logged |
Dy-na-mi-tee
Knowflake Posts: 547
From: Cloud 22, Jupiter Ave, Lalaland
Registered: Jun 2010
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posted August 17, 2010 05:55 PM
I avoid entirely if I find someone seriously abusive. I'm trying to think hmmmm I guess if the person was in my family (I get along well with my entire family and it is a huge Italian family lol).. then I would try to resolve things, because I would have to. I'd explain how they make me feel and that this behaviour needs to stop.
I would then enforce this by not letting them cross certain lines. Whenever they crossed the line with me again, I would literally pick up and leave, regardless of the context. It could be Xmas dinner for all I care. I would not argue with them at all though. I'd just be very cold and walk out to the nearest exit. When they behaved normally/nicely - I would behave accordingly. As soon as a nasty comment or aggravating action was taken - I would pick up and leave again. And I think that eventually they would get it. I'd tap into my Taurean NN/Venus patience. If this went on for months and they still didn't get it, then I might avoid permanently. IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3178
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 17, 2010 05:59 PM
That is healthy, Dyn-a.
I wish I could take a dose of that cuz I need it
Ami
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Dy-na-mi-tee
Knowflake Posts: 547
From: Cloud 22, Jupiter Ave, Lalaland
Registered: Jun 2010
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posted August 17, 2010 06:04 PM
Then take a dose! lolI forgot to say - if this was physical abuse.. I would go straight to the police. IP: Logged |
popcorn
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posted August 17, 2010 06:15 PM
There are many many children and people there out in our world who have it terribly. We are adult and have the possibility to choice. We can do it as good as we can to ours self. We also have chance to choice our thought. We can choice to drop the people we not like and we can also choice our thougths and think about what we think about. Its easy to be depressed and bitter. In my year its importent to think about what I think. I don't want to be an bitter depressed and sulk old woman. IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3178
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 17, 2010 08:47 PM
This is what I think about Neptune. I have it on the 12th house.
It aspects every planet except the moon and Venus. Neptune is wonderful to have strongly in the chart and it is hard. It is wonderful cuz it allows you great intuition .Psychic powers can be developed easily. It allows you to be creative.
However, you can live in a soup of illusions and distortions. I am coming out of that soup .It hurts and it is very hard.
I am doing it little by little by facing the truth.
The truth is like a medicine, really a shot.
It hurts badly but it will help you. Ami ------------------
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