posted August 20, 2010 11:13 AM         

today i am thinking about how scorpio/pluto/8th house contacts are prevalent in all of my relationships...synastrically and in the composite as well (is tht a word?)

i personally have mars conjunct saturn in scorpio and pluto in scorpio widely conjunct my libra midheaven.

i wonder why i am attracted to/addicticted to the power struggles that arise with these placements. i have to know everything about a person. i have a compulsion to find out what their weakness is. its a type of psychological dominance. its happening now with a person whose mars is exactly conjunct my pluto.

its crazy because once it happens i feel like i can no longer relate to this person because i'm over them mentally so to speak. sounds a bit power hungry too...

posted August 20, 2010 01:49 PM         

once i dominant or read people in that way, they are like in love with me or become even more attracted, intrigued with me.

although on my part, i can see how this behavior to i express inhibits people from really getting close to me. they think they are close to me because i'm in their head. but they don't ever really know me...

posted August 20, 2010 02:47 PM         

Like playing chess or chinese go.

Step and make moves carefully.

Ive become prone to not caring to do it on anything more than a removed/vicarious method of learning of others.

I simply just don't want to get involved in the mess anymore.

Im trying to balance this out because this makes me appear reclusive, Which makes people want to ask you why you are that way.

Ill find a solution soon.

The answer id like to give them is "im human."

I tried that a few times, after so many deer in the headlight looks i couldnt take it anymore.

Peoples idea of what being human is and what it means is so very different, case by case basis.

Its none of my business what others do, but im just as curious as anyone else is, How ive tempered this is by reminding myself "it really is none of your d--n business, keep to yourself"

People respond so much better when they are not judged, something in the act of having one human telling them something is wrong/ or right with another, It can cause extreme behavior.

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posted August 20, 2010 07:06 PM         

What keeps you going? i dont know how your mind works.

posted August 21, 2010 05:40 AM         

I'm fascinated by what makes people tick, what they are like away from the spotlights and glitter, what they are on the inside...and I would never respect someone who does not measure up.

By measure up, I mean, I expect people to be true to themselves: what you see is what you get and unapologetic about it. I don't care if you are one "evil" person but you have to own up to that aspect of your personality.

Extreme repulsion to any phoniness, especially if a person tries to hide it from themselves too(can't hide anything from me for long )...and terra firma has more than enough of these kinds and they're everywhere.

posted August 21, 2010 05:45 AM         

x o x Ami

posted August 21, 2010 04:43 PM         

Now, he had his Sun, Venus and Mars, all conj in Cancer in the 8th, so guess what??? Fell in my 8th too.....control was the name of the game with this individual, but I do wonder if his Cap moon had something to do with it>>>

posted August 22, 2010 04:52 AM         

I second that...we could be real close friends

posted August 22, 2010 08:59 AM         

Ami

posted August 22, 2010 09:03 AM         

For me, I see a path ahead, with a light.
I have to allow each of the energies(planets, aspects etc) to speak to ME.

I don't have to use them in situations just know them and have them accessible.

Also, and this is a psychological thing rather than astrological,I have to know and accept myself.
This is the hardest part, perhaps.

Accepting all of you is hard,I think. It is for me.
What about other people?

Ami

posted August 22, 2010 09:38 AM         

x o x Ami